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2010-02-09T02:29:00.000-08:00

Netball trials tomorrow.I am really nervous and afraid.It's been super long since I've played proper matches and my stamina sucks ttm now.

Hope all will be well):

xjxj.

SAJC Orientation 2010

2010-02-06T07:55:00.000-08:00

Alright I'm finally back:) Well,I'm super lazy to blog about orientation but it was awesome+fun+fab tht I must at least blog in point form right? No pics thou, I can't c&p in this lappy so go facebook and search under SAJC orientation 2010 you'll get t see photos there I think:D:D

In OG15, w OGL-Jermaine.If you're wondering,Jermaine's a guy!!Anw,after some random discussion,we became OG Jermaine and our cheer is (JERMAINE! Yeah~) Cool stuff yes?
OG Jermaine has an awesome,crazy bunch of ppl!! Station games were generally crazy w them:)
Mass dances were superb:) Shake it,Beat it,Rockin' robin. OMG,I srsly luv shake it. I keep playing the song and I'm srsly SUPER sensitive towards this song.Like once the song is played (barely 1 second) I'll start dancing and singing:)
Danced shake it! in the train,my OG didn't wanna care bout me after that HAHAHA.
I'm in Kingdom Ixodus,which is REDDDD:) I love the cheers like crazy (its hot its hot its hot in here~ ) After tht there's a dancing part(show luo's) and due to me being too crazy,I was sabo-ed to be the mascot for ixodus!!
Being the mascot is quite cool HAHAHAHA Had to do shuttle run under 10 secs,its quite fun!
IXODUS WON THE CHEERING COMPETITION:) Awesomexzx.
Love the OG lunch on Friday @ pizza.Though my appetite wasn't like v good,I did have a good whale of time crapping' w them:):)
In house Gomes,WHICH IS ALSO RED.I'm super red! bag=red,bottle=red,house=red,hairband+rubber band=red,shirt=red I am miss RED.
Was super super super high and crazy during the orientation tht at times I lost control of myself :/
I love the hmm ahh ahh ahh woo la la la cheer to the max!!!!!!!
Water games were fun but I wasn't wet enough!!!
Learnt college songs and college hymns I ttly luv them.I feel so at home when we put our arms over each other(yes even saints who are nt in our OG) and just sing along.Mark of a saint~
I think the 5 kingdom thingy is very cool and the banner is very very nice.
I ttly slept for the 2 days of lecture,like both days!! Although on thurs I was playing w yingbin ! ( some creative game which turned out to be v v fun<3>
Took 3 H2 - Econs Maths Phy and H1 chem! My CG is 10S23! Checked out the list on the webby like so lil ppl ): ): Hope my class has nice ppl!!!:D:D Anw I'm in same class w dan ting subee.

Ok,I wonder who read tht chunk of words!!!How's my summary skills !! HAHAHA.

Headed back to KSS on thurs.Man,I miss the people there,the school,the teachers AND EVERYTHINGGG(!!) Glad I went back.Frisbeed,talked t some teachers and it was awesome:) Route from lotty to kss,kss back to home srsly never felt that good:D

Back to KSS for alumni meeting! It was fine and nice to see everyone again:) Meeting went ok.Ajisen-ed w yk,st,yiyi,and ps!! Jurong point next,chatted,shopped,played w them.I finally get to see SHUMZHENYI,aka yiyi1993!!!! Happy:) When's th change uniform aka lunch day?!

Gt my uniform.Only the blouse thou! I think I look quite weird):): HAHAHA My skirt is only 27 like nt bad right:) I grew fatter!! KSS one was 26 like wth!!!!The auntie wanted me to try 34 for blouse excuse me I'm nt so small size puhlx! Anw skirt's oos.Gnna get it on monday no matter what!!!

Lectures begin on Mondayyyyyy!! Pray pray pray hard tht I've gt niceeeeeee classmates teeeheeexxx:):)

SAJC has been an awesome school,but screw the journey pft(!) Thanks edmund's dad who has been sending us:D:D

GOING OUT TML W YIYI AND DADA(!) Was supposed to be not free but due to unforeseen circumstances(sound so serious right) I'm freeeeeee teeheeee:) Can't wait to catch up w them.

OK BYE.

xjxj.

2010-02-02T07:23:00.001-08:00

I'm missing kranji sec+kranji peeps like mad!!!!! Glad there's still young alumni meeting on sat!! Can't wait to catch up w yk/yiyi/danc/whoever there!!!! I love you all x a mil!! I've gt so much t say!!! And of course stay connected w kranji sec:D:D

Haven't been blogging the past few days because I was mad tired,even weekends.MY NOSE IS PEELINGGGGGGGGG!!):):

SA orientation has been awesome for me! Last day tml,LETS GET HIGH!:):)

Will be back for more.Need to sleep,like now!

xjxj.

2010-01-26T06:05:00.001-08:00

I'm sorry,Nadiaaaaaa!

xjxj

2A'07 chalet

2010-01-22T07:48:00.000-08:00

Those that break us,make us.

Hello people!!:) I've decided to blog now but it's gnna be w/o pictures!

Chalet was great:) Went to school before I headed to chalet for physics peer tutoring.Hopefully I didn't teach wrong stuff!!

After that met up w amanda before we go to chalet tgt! Reached and the rest were either playing mahjong/slacking/watching tv/bridging. Started to play around and camwhore like crazy w yk/yiyi/dan.Srsly,you wanna see the pics go FB Ykian was super efficient! Yk ttly put my photo as his wall paper :/

After that we went to catch a movie.The spy next door!! I didn't know what I watching thn when the whole movie ended I asked the peeps "hey wht show did we watch?" dumb right teeheee.Anw the show was funny.Better than old dogs!! HAHAHA.Jackie chan is dam dam funny and I like the small cute boy/girl :) I think the NG scenes are funnier thou! Turkey lolol.

After back went back @ about 1am plus?I think we mahjonged.Did we?Omgg! Can't remember!!I think we slacked,then I went to sleep w laura/yiying/sam/dans while the rest went out for mac/slack at 4am+.I kept telling laura not to sleep cause I dont want to be the last to fall asleeeeep.We were complaining about being dam hungry but yiying managed to convince us to sleep.So slept @ 4am+ and woke up at about 11am the next morning?? Laura was more pig than me though heheee.

Went to NTUC to meet up w redbra to buy bbq stuff! OMG.I must ttly recommend the waffles,renondo or sth. My bro recommended me and I bought it tht time it was awesome!! Even jq agree pls! :)

After that went for brunch at superdog yumzyumz!!:) Did a portfolio for thoven hahaha:) :) After that some wanted to cycle/teach jq how to rollerblade/bowling but ended up was some bonding session in the chalet?! Hahaha. All slacked in the chalet~ I couldn't bowl/cycle/rollerblade cause I was ttly limping throughout the whole chalet!): I even poke my bubbles on the wound got green yellowish pus eeeks!

Mahjonged,while watching FD3 (Final destination 3) Not some horror show but it's super sadistic/gore pls. I'm quite lucky!! There's once I man-taied.In the end I won about 10 I think :D
BBQ next!!

Miss Lim came for the bbq despite being sick so sweeeeet:) Chatted a lot w her.Actually I was quite confused about life now so I kinda talked to her. What she said make lots of sense and yes I'm kinda convinced by her:) Was telling her how lost I am in life,how uncertain I am,etc etc. But I definitely felt better after talking to her:)

Food was great!:) Luv hotdogs/sambal prawns/chicken wings yumzyumz. Ms nat/mr kat/miss low came after that.Ms Nat bought her daughter eva along zmg she's god dam pretty+cute. Love her eye+eyelashes so prettaye!

Chatted a lot,laughed a lot:) The teachers went off and we went t bathe:) Was waiting for my turn so I camwhore w dan.l w danc's specs super funny plzxz. Bathed,supposed to watch tooth fairy but I backed out last minute sry guys! Ended up watching final destination 4 w dans,jq,yiyi,amao,ting.FD4 was boring pls,FD4 was gore too but it's srsly like watching cartoon-__- Nearly fell asleep.

Slept for awhile and woke up to teach them mafia dam fun!!:) Was the narrator but I'm a srsly whatever narrator cause I ALWAYS screw up/forget who's killed. teehee:) But it was fun w lots of laughters.Thoven is dam suay cause he ALWAYS gets killed. Murderer after that,luv winking!:)

At about 5am,woke up to have macs.Wrong decision!! Ttly gnna elaborate later. Ate big breakfast no doubt its yumzyumz but still I regretted!!! Was tired, when ps they all went out to slack again I fell asleeep.Woke up w this stomachache,shitted.I was having this stupid diarrhoea:( Plus I gt my___ so it sucked a mil.

Thought I was better after tht,so slept again but the pain woke me up still): Went t toilet like twice super pain):): No macs in early morning anymore!!!!!

Slept and checked out after tht.Didn't join others for breakfast cause I wasn't feeling v well.

Slept all the way from pasir ris t cck and I bet I was dam unglam cause when I woke up everyone's looking at me!!!:(

Nearly fell twice when I walked home,thts how tired I was! Heehee.

Reached home,slept about 5 hours :)

I love 2A'07 and the teachers! Although its been 2 years but I'm glad things were fine/not awkward.I really enjoyed the chalet:) This class will always be in my heart!!!

xjxj.

Back from chalet!

2010-01-22T05:07:00.000-08:00

Hello people,I'm back from 2A'07 chalet!! It was awesome:) Love them x a mil!

Will update this space,but I'm nt sure when cause I'm super busy these few days!

Agm meeting tml! :)

xjxj.

Raffles' Outing

2010-01-19T07:47:00.001-08:00

Yes!! Raffles outing was awesomeeee!!!:) The last outing was like eons ago,w only guanhui,choonyong,me,fel,yuhan,jienhsiu,joseph I think? HAHAHA.Was quite excited for this one :P

Started the day by gg down to RVhigh to support juniors in their match against Commonwealth.They won but I guess they know they can definitely do better!! Hope they get stronger and stronger throughout this season:):)

After that chionged home to bathe,prepare and stuff!! Wanted to get donuts but I didn't know the shop was close): Ended up getting cheeseballs yumyum my favourite!!:):)

Reached there rather late because I gt my directions all wrong!! Tsktsk. Yeah,was walking towards them then I saw this super hawaii feel guy walking past me.Saw the face and I ttly recognised it's jienhsiu !! Dam funny.He's wearing this green flowery shirt w the straw hat ohmytianxz~ Teehee.

He just came back from Hawaii!!

Initially I was quite quiet.Like throughout the whole gathering there was only 50% hyperness in me!! Like I did hold back some. Actually I was quite nervous+excited+scared meeting the zhonghua ppl.I'm just weird.I feel tht they're ttly @ the other end of Sg,their school culture is different,they have a diff lifestyle etc.So perhaps we might nt click that well,or maybe we'll have different sense of humour etc?Hahaha.

When I reached there they were playing who wht huh w really disgusting forfeit.Saw this:

Freaked out and I immediately asked someone if that was what we're supposed to eat :/ Thankfully,NO.HAHA.But all the forfeits revolve around bbq sauce which is terribly disgusting x a mil times!!!

1)BBQ sauce w MARSHMALLOW(?!)
2)BBQ sauce w chipsmore(?!)
3)BBQ sauce w PLAIN WATER(?!)
4)BBQ sauce w OREO(!?)

When I lost,I wanted to do (1) but they all discouraged me!! Maybe cause the marshmallow was biggggg? Hahaha. They were like "it's the worst" or sth. (2) seems fine! HAHA.(3) was ultimate.I wonder how zeke actually drank it it was dam disgusting.Pls imagine.One cup of water w sauce inside tsktsk:/ I tried (4) equally disgusting as well,it's like they open the oreo,squeeze the bbq sauce onto the white cream,thn close the oreo again.But turns out it taste normal I guess HAHA.Maybe cause i managed to accidentally drip all the sauce out:P

Jienhsiu was dam funny.I think he lost many rounds before I came.I think he's ttly gong @ the game,keep losing!! Zeke too.Both of them are ttly the jokers of the day its srsly dam dam funny!!!!

Alicia w the chipsmore forfeit!

Zeke looking VERY happy eating his cookie!! Yumyum hor?

Zeke again v happy!!

No I am not happy eating tht):

Nice nice ?:) NO.

In an attempt of dripping all the sauce out HAHA.

Guanhui eating.He was the last to lose cause we just wanted everyone to do the forfeit @ least once!!

So after playing tht we played frisbee!!:) Heeheee. It was fun playing on the rooftop but we were super scared the frisbee will fly out of the rooftop :P The wind was so so so strong! And zhonghua ppl knew how to play frisbee too :) Hahaha.There was once the frisbee flew out and landed somewhere @ the carpark below.Tadah,joseph went to take and he look dam small from the top.

Spot him!

After playing frisbee we played iceman! Zeke,Junjie and Jienhsiu were the catchers! Alicia dam pro,she was smsing and she still managed t save Joseph hahaha! At first was fun,but after that was dam sian hiding at one corner because one of the catchers..Jienhsiu was ...

YES. Sleeping boy is back!! Hahaha:)

Slacked about and Joseph tried on fel's skirt.

Trying..

Flirting w Guanhui~

Succeeded!!

Played Indian poker after tht! Then murderer.Junjie introduced us to this game,sth like mafia?But I dont even know whts mafia? HAHA.I only know rafia strings! But it was fun:) Guanhui and Joseph dam disturb! Everytime make those unneccessary comments! Hahaha!

Bused back to marina bay mrt and we were discussing bout our next raffles outing . OMG,MAHJONG SESSION!! Overnight one somemore!! When Joseph said he knew how to play I ttly thought he was crapping but guess wht he really knew o.0 Most of us knew how to too! So next gathering,date is fixed,place decided,guanhui's house!!:) Can't waittt:) Gnna bring the zhonghua ppl to lot one shoppers mall before that too since they've never went there before!!

Went to marina square and dined there.Hate japanese food!! >.< Could barely finish! Took the green line back and its fasttttttttt :):)

I LOVE RAFFLES:) :) Can't wait for the mahjong session!!:D

Today:

Sorry to danc and brandon.Supposed to call mel along for lunch,intended to do so in the morning but I never expected myself to wake up @ 1330pm :/ Guess I was really shagged.Sry!!Went to school for chem peer tutoring! Was fine:)

After chem peer tutoring went to play frisbee! I really love passing/throwing frisbee:) But I still dislike frisbee competitions for some reasons:/ Don't know why too! Was brushing up on my forehand and after wht seemed like eons,I finally managed to refine my throws!! But after 10mins or so,my throws went shitty again):):

Played ultimate w 3 sec 1s,sec 3s guys,other graduated peeps! Was fun initially and guess wht I fell down): Banged onto keith and landed on my knees :/ Scraped my knees as well.Not really pain but the baluku is rly pain like ~~ Plus its dam disgusting.Pls imagine a bloody wound on a patch of blue black): ): Can't bend my knees now!):

Gnna go for physics peer tutoring tml!!:) I love Kranji!:D After tht,gonna go class chalet!

Gosh,all my days are fully packed till 27th,plus helpers+cc+gl outing on 30th! I am SO SO BUSY!!!!! No time for buying back-to-school-stuffs!):

2A chalet,tomorrow till friday.I'm excited for it nowwww!!:D:D Can't wait teeeheeez.

Okkkkkk I'm gg off now!

xjxj

2010-01-18T09:38:00.000-08:00

AND NO,I AM NOT EXPLAINING.

2010-01-18T09:23:00.003-08:00

I am really tired,not feeling good either.Hope I'll be back to myself after the sleep.Nights everyone.

xjxj.

Netball.

2010-01-18T09:00:00.000-08:00

Dedication t netball is up long ago,but when I saved and published,it appeared as a dec post.Here's the link:

http://loveetattoo.blogspot.com/2009/12/netball.html

xjxj.

Nightmares

2010-01-17T09:41:00.001-08:00

Had a nightmare yesterday :( It happened around my estate and yes it's dam dam scary and real! I even dreamt of ___,____and ____. I srsly freaked out to th max max max! No I'm nt gnna blog about my dream here.Its far too creepy.Ask me if you want to know!!

Woke up @ 6am because of this stupid nightmare,almost fell off the bed tsktsk.Went t sleep @ 7am+ When I woke up the second time I went t bathe and gt ready to go t mdmyong's house!:) She invited us to her house for a mini gathering:) Quite a number of people went and we had fun! There were spaghetti,chicken seaweed,japanese chicken,sotong balls,tea leaf eggs,agaragar,desert yumyum!! Mdm yong was dam sweet cause she served each and every one of us individually (Spags) because she thinks tht the proportion of the spag sauce must be right hahaha.

I was like her helper!! Helping her take drinks,put the plates away,give out utensils yes I'm her super guai student teeheeee:) So sat down in a circle and talked talked talked~ There were some funny moments like guo zheng HAHAHAHA:)I think only ppl who went know the jokeee:D:D

Yeap yeap!! Toured around her house after that zmg its dam cool it's like every room has a balconyy!? Luv the swinggggg yiyi hor? HAHAH.She's dam fat,once she sit the whole thing like gnna breakkk plzx.:P

Watched MrHousewife next.Zmg,its quite touching towards the end heehee.Thank you mdm yong for the invitation :D:D

So...after tht,CABBED TO YIYI'S HOUSE FOR MAHJONG SESSION:):)

Waited quite a while for the cab though): Heeehee,ok I must admit,Ujie is super on pls.He's on the car @ somewhere,bukit timah I think,but the moment I called him and jioed him he totally agree to come omg pls. Plus before tht he went t JS's bday party and slept for a while only?Ok,I conclude tht he's a good mahjong kaki:D

Started around 4.30pm and played while watching ping,ping,pang,pang ( heheee you know wht show is it,confirm!) Won the first 2 games and after that I started to lose like super badly :/ Its NOT good to win the first few rounds. Cause you'll have a GOOD start but a BAD ending. Tsk!!:( I lost like $6+ and the best thing is I still had to use REAL money to play . HAHAHA.

After a while,we went down and had dinner:) Had chickenwingrice and its yummyummo!:) Crapped a bit,can't stop suaning ujie pls.Went back and we argued on this statement:

You may think it is nice,but you may not like it.
Similarly,you may think it is not nice,but you may like it.

So whts your take on this?Comment!!!! Ujie and Yk think tht you will definitely like what you think is nice,but yiyi and I think that you may not like what you think is nice.We argued over tht topic for bout 15 minutes I think? HAHAHA.

After that continued to mahjong,yiyi and ujie changed seat.Won the first game and was dam sianxz cause I know I'll be down on my luck AGAIN. Turned out I was super lucky and kept winning:):) Ujie ttly feed me the tiles I want like in every game :/ Hahaha.Last game luckily I didn't win,because it will be man3 tai2. Ujie almost threw out the tile I want HAHAHA.

Ended up won back the $6 plus I losttt!:D:D I think my mj skills gt improve!! Although I'm still super blur+blockhead hahaha.I keep thinking there's 10 tong / shi2 wan4.I know don't hav,but t me it seems normal somehow hahhaa.

Walked t lrt w ykian after tht! Then headed home.

Zmg,reached lot one and waited dam long for the MRT back to yewtee.I think I waited for more than 10mins.Waited for about 5 minutes but train was still not here.Quite puzzled,then finally saw the screeen which says 6 mins :/

Tsk,reached yewtee at about 12am+?I was super brave.I walked home aloneeee! Of course I was freaking out but I just told myself to calm down.You may think it's just a walk but it's hell scary pls.Like there isn't a single soul on the streets and just one or two cars driving past you.My heart was beating dam fast:( I'm super afraid of G,I srsly dont know why.And because of G I kind of detest the darkness.

So I was dam brave!!! Stepped into the lift,the light was flicking so I immediately pressed some random storey and ran out HAHAH.Waited for the next lift to come down from 11TH STOREY.Tyvm huh Mr Lift .Tsktsk.

So conclusion is I AM BRAVE.Plus,I walked past the place where I dreamt there is ___.

Ok.It's late! Gg down for juniors' match tml early in the morning,and after that I'm gnna meet raffles @ marina barrage:)

Mahjong made me tired! BUT I LOVEEE MAHJONG:) Gosh,think I'm addicted to it:/ More mahjong sessions pls.Me want overnight one!!!:)

Gnna sleeep soooon:) Pls pls pls don't make me have nightmares again :/

NIGHTS:)

xjxj.

p/s:Just realised we mahjonged for about 6 hours!

Sweet 17,Uziel!:)

2010-01-15T23:04:00.000-08:00

(he's the fattest one:P)

HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEEEEEEN UJIE:)

Yesterday was ujie's sweet seventeen!Zmg,he's like the first to turn 17 in our sunny island:):) Initial plan was to surprise him @ his house but plan failed miserably because nobody to open the door for us! In the end managed to contact guanhui and borrowed his house:) He's dam on pls so tyvm!!:)

Heehee.So woke up like dam early yesterday to meet sunny island @ yewteepoint.Shopped around NTUC omg and I realised shopping in NTUC can be quite fun too! Heehee,bought cake,balloons,cards adn stuff and off we went to Gh's house! We=yiyi mel yk brand dans.

Went there did the cards and started frying!!:) Fried french fries,seaweedchicken,nuggets and japanese chicken.My french fries was very popular ok!!:)First batch by guanhui but super no taste,after tht I took over and ppl like xunxin and jeremy love my french fries! Ok la,maybe it's because they're hungry/they only love the salt.

So tadah! Ykian went to meet Ujie and bought him to Guanhui's house.Surprised him but ended up he more or less guessed so -__- We still purposely didnt wish him pls.Loopholes were:

1)When we called Ujie's daddy on Thursday,he was in the car,WITH Ujie.-_- Think Ujie's daddy was like "Ujie's friends?" hahaha Ujie ttly heard everything I guess.
2)@ Guanhui's house,all the slippers+shoes were outside!! So it's quite obvious there's a celebration inside ahahah.
3)Ujie said he can ttly hear mel and I scream in the house HAHAHA.
4)When brand lied tht he's in gh's house,Ujie(being the cunning one) smsed Alisa and truth was out!

More or less like that,but all these are definitely enough for Ujie to expect wht we had for him :/ HAHA.

So yes,ate,crapped and stuff.Played mahjong w ujie,danl and xx.Zhenyi was my advisor(NOT ALL THE TIME THOU) hahaha! Lost about 4$ there was a point I lost about 8$ I think,but I got really lucky towards the end and kept winning ( Like ttly zi4 mo1) There's super creepy moment.I was being dumb and said "zi mo! zi mo! " while taking the tile and ended up I really zi moed. ( past tense of mo1 hahaha)

Blackjack next,didn't win but didn't lose either~

Went walking to LRT,was super crazy+high as though I've drank/forgot to take medicine HAHA.yiyi danl and I were super high over the WOO BEAR,SCARY!!!!! advertisement.I think the rest of the guys couldn't be bothered by us HAHAHA.It's like brand ask wht to eat for dinner, danl/yiyi will reply : "WOO BEAR,LOT ONE!" hahahaaha its dam funny pls.

Yeap went home had dinner and was dam tired so sleep kinda early,bout 1am+ I think.

Mommy is like cooking crabs EVERY saturday AHAHAH.Yumz yumz.

I'm gnna be spammed by spags these few days!! Thurs night=pastamaniaed,ytd=spag-ed,and sunday @ mdm yong's place will be spaghetti W MEATBALLS wohx!! Can't wait!!:)Teehee.

Ok,GONNA RUN LATER!! currently=mind is blocked w dam lots of shitty stuffs :(

xjxj.

p/s:Special thanks to gh for the house + sunny island + some of brothers09 who attended the partyyy:)

Decisions.

2010-01-14T09:49:00.000-08:00

Made my decisions.I'm going to SAJC.I'm sure those who've submitted their applications are trying their best to think of a mil reasons to convince themselves about choosing the right school. I think I'll be fine :) and yes,must enjoy jc life! People,pls pls dont doubt or question my choice tyvm.To my friends who've made their decisions,I'm glad for you guys and all the best for everythingggg:)

Headed back to school tday.Played like 5 mins of netball and yes it's hell tiring!!): But at the same time fun~ Hahahah.Miss the training days. Peer tutoring next for humanities gosh I kinda forgot everything but after a while its still ok:) Dinnered w peeps @ pastamania full like shitxxz.

Long day tml!!!

Can't wait for school to start but there again I miss kranji!!

I'm dam tired and I need to wake up early tml so bai!

xjxj.

p/s:I'm srsly irritated by you.No,you're not at all cool so stop trying,because you're srsly trying TOO hard.Tsk tsk tsk!

SAJC

2010-01-13T10:19:00.000-08:00

Kinda made up my mind to go SAJC. I think this making decision period is far far worse than waiting for results ): First was the struggle between poly & jc,thn when I wanna go poly,parents disagree,people advice me nt to.Turned to jc thn confused over ac/aj/sa.Last night was so god tired of everything and thn sudden urge of gg to the poly came back.Tonnes of ppl talked to me again and back to JC.Torn between AJ and SA at the earlier part of tday and thn on the way t AJ hesitate between NY and SA.Reached home and quite dumb pls.My mommy allowed me to go poly all of a sudden. But told her I wanna go JC instead.

Consulted haiqel thn got to know better bout SA.I was v disturbed by the travellinggg): After all I'm super used to waking up just on time to prepare for schoool.I wake up @ like 6.30am sometimes 6.40am for kranji. hahah.Its gnna be like 45min-1 hour trip from lot one. Heard from haiqel its nt gnna be god dam crowded there'll be seats so I guess its still fine?Plus its just a direct bus trip.So I'm kinda fine w it.

1)I really like SA environment. Be it atmosphere or whatever,I thought it could really be a good studying environment.
2)Luv the facilities and school/sports culture.
3)Heard from uziel's senior tht they're building some transformer thang,so there'll be aircon in classrooms yay!:)
4)Awesome looking uniform!!
5)Just changed principal and heard she's more acadamically focused.
6)All in all its quite an all rounder school and most imp I really luv the environment+balance.

Travelling distance for NY is about the same,so I'd rather go SA!! Plus,environment in NY is ok,but I dont know why I feel so foreign in there~The value added thing didn't quite attract me.

AJ is definitely out of the question.Tutor strongly discourages,and I think if you wanna go in its like you gtta study/mug dam hard but I guess its really dependant on what you really want/ your class.If you get into some mugger class good luck thn hahha.And I feel so heavy-hearted as I roam about the campus.Everything just seem so dead to me.

SA nt many kranjians whom I'm close w are gg! But I guess thts wht I'm looking for.I mean,of course I wouldnt want to go there alone-__- but one or two familiar faces would be enough to make me feel more comfortable:) Initially everyone is like aiming for NYJC but yiyi told me suddenly everyone seemed to be nt gg there already!

I guess I gotta experience life.I mean,to really step out of my comfort zone and start making new friends,not just stick to my clique/friends. When you go uni/society to work you're not going to choose your colleagues or people to work w right?Either you grumble or you live it.

Having said so much,I know my heart is already towards SA.But somehow I'm still
not very sure hahaha.Like,I dare not be 100% sure for some stupid reasons which I dont know.Still have some reservations.Gnna consult some teachers tml:)

Back to school for humanities peer tutoring + help out w netball selections.Juniors' first match vs commonwealth on monday go team!Never give up.

xjxj.

Open house.

2010-01-12T05:24:00.000-08:00

Went open house w yiyi mel uziel & puiksee tdayyy:)

Was dam shagged in the morning I swear!): Slept @ bout 5am after webcamming w yiyi.We played stupid but fun games using the webcam omg it's dam funny plss:) heeehee. Supposed to follow her go edit her testimomo initially.Woke up @ 7am yess i was super tired. But glad when she msged me saying she just woke up @ 7.30am HAHA.So didn't go in the end.Slept back duh. hahaha.

Woke up & seems like everyone's either mia-ing or woke up late :( hahaha. Ended up meeting @ bout 11am.Headed t food junction for lunchhhhhhhh:)

After that went to NYJC and CJC open house.I think NYJC has a better environment than CJC.Hahaha.Walked around and watched CJC's performing arts performed.Their new principal's dam cute hahaha.

Dined @ BK w mel and ziel.We crapped like crazyyyyy :D But it was srsly dam fun!!! Had totally awesome bimbo moments w Mel on the train back and gossiped like crazyyy hahahaha.

So kinda made up my mind.Gonna go JC although I srsly have got NO idea which JC to go :( Frankly speaking I am still interested in the poly courses I've seen but I really don't know how long my interest can last.It's like the moment you've chosen you gotta work dam hard towards tht direction but I'm not 100% sure.

So it's either AC/SA/AJ for now. I'm quite hesitant about AC actually so gnna check out their open house tml! Although I know they do have awesome facilities and I love their PE tshirts!! Plus it's like @ dover so near.

But I'm still super confused over which JC to pick.

Ahhhhhhh gnna have a dam difficult time):

xjxj.

Genting trip 2010 + 3 days adventure trip w MELISSA FOO WAN TING!

2010-01-11T03:18:00.000-08:00

Helloo:)

Frankly speaking I was more of scared than excited for this genting trip.Being a super imaginative person,I was super afraid tht some unfortunate incidents will just happen like,

1)Get robbed on the journey.Yes like those drama serials where the men in black/in cap will stop you halfway and ask you to get down while they take away all your valuables.

2)G in hotels!): I was srsly scared of G~):

3)Drop down from roller coaster rides.From Mel's experience + the hair incident they told me.

4)Get kidnapped by some bad strangers.

5)Sudden diarhhoea throughout the trip HAHA.

6)Lose my passport+white card.

7)Bus might roll down the hill.

Ok la,thts about it.Not a lot right?Heehee.

So who did I went genting w?

Tadah!Uziel's daddy(dont care gnna say uncle lee!),Ujie(the way his dad calls him sounds like ujie so I shall name him ujie),yiyi,melmel,and BROTHERRRR dan.HAHAHAHA:)

Yes,woke up like super early.I think its funny.Like yiyi ujie and danc all gave me morning call.The funniest thing is tht I am supposed t wake danc up!! Smsed him,thn he called me back and sms me if I'm awake.Like so funny! How to sms him when I'm asleep right?! Ok maybe he thought I'll sleep back hahaha.

Met mel.foo @ yewtee thn ujie. Bought mac breakfast and headed to our bus.Our bus so highclass pls!! 18 seaters the space available was super super super wideee! Me love! (K)

Well I think I slept on the bus throughout hehee.Reached the custom and bought my passport along.I was dam scared I'll lose it la,like some lil kid.Okay note note* here come mel's first funny incident!!! All of us had the new passport only she had the old one so she had to queue at like the other end.OMGGGGGG ok say here not funny but its really funny when she had to go over to the other end.Its like we used high class thumb print HAHAHA!

Then the journey throughout I dreamt that ujie was sitting @ my seat near my leg and stuff playing MY seat's game!! Woke up and told them about the ridiculous dream.They all laughed at me dreaming bout ujie BUT GUESS WHT,read melissa's blog and found out ITS NOT A DREAM-__- Ujie you no games meh?! Stupid,come squeeze w me and play my pikaman!! BTW,pikaman was dam fun!! HAHAHA,I know its like copy supermario but I never play supermario before wht!!! Zhenyi was super entertained by how I played -___-

After awhile,went to put our luggage @ the lobby thn headed for some lunch @ the foodcourt.Checked in,camwhore a lil bit and out for POOOL:) I don't really play pool but I finally learnt the proper rules!!:) Yayyy.

After that we walked past the flying coaster.Initially I was super scared la.I didn't wanna take the ride but mel say a few "play la play la" I give in already-__- v easy give in right HAHAH.

Turns out it's not even scary pfttt.But I have to admit,it looks really scary w so many turns!

Arcaded after that,they have boring games boooo!! Played bball but totally gave up and let danc played! HAHAHA:)The fun thing is WE TOOK NEOPRINTS!!!I've wanting to take neoprints for so so so so long because it's been almost 2 years since I've taken them:/ Shots were indeed candid but I love love love them:):)

Went to k-singing+dinner thanks ujie's daddy for the treat!:) Its super cheap pls.I thought gnna be like 20+ but guess wht! It's only 9+ gg 10 per person!:)Coolsumz isn't it?:) Initially everyone quite paiseh but in the end we still sang our hearts out:):) Love the chinese version of girlfriend.Ujie so hyped up over it laa!Hahaha.

Bowling next.Was getting tired already lousy right hahaha! But my bowling skills have been deproving(i know there's no such word) thts like super sad.I failed the 1st round I think!! I dont understand,I used the same methods but my throw keep getting to the left and it ALWAYS ended up gg to the drain zzz ):

KFC-ed back to the hotel!! Took turns to bathe!Was super afraid but I'm glad nothing happened:) Heeehee.Ate and played...

POKER!!!:)

Zmgggg,notenote* mel's funny incident 2! Oh my tian,you knw how this girl count the number in Blackjackk? She put her hands behind her bum and count!! Scared we see is it!! HAHAHA.I mean,isn't it just counting in the head?She's like dam cute to count using her hands!! We all thought she was adjusting her pants initially o.0 Danc was dam funny to ask her if she wanted to borrow his fingers HAHAA.

Ate candy floss after that and the girls got crazy like REALLY. We all laughed w no reasons and we just kept laughing and laughing!! Mel was dam bimbotic pls!! Danc was the banker and I think he had 15 points.He drew and Mel shouted "OMGGG 21 POINTS!!" All of us super sianed by it and danc's face lit up! (its funny cause he had a dam sianed face before tht) thn mel say:"REALLY REALLY,I HELP YOU OPEN!!" open already? 22POINTS HAHAHAA The funny thing is danc's change of expression its srsly super super funny HAHAHA.

As usual,Mel went on defending herself w " NO! I REALLY SAW 6!!!!" -repeat a mil times-yes imagine pls.. HAHAA.

I was feeing zhenyi and mel candyfloss see I'm so wei3 da4 :D:D

Gambled & Ujie was dam ke3 lian2 because he's winning like crazy yet our aim is to make him lose till $0 and he really become $0 at the end of the day hahaha! Slept @ 4am and woke up @ about 8.30am was dam tired la hahaha.

Breakfasted and went to the theme park!!!(I kept saying escape theme park-__-) Started w small rides which are not even scary hahaha! There's this pirate ____ which is supposed to be some,haunted house?Pftt was dam scared la.Thought will have some Gs or sth ended up its just dark all the way? ...

Corkscrew was fun!! But the highlight HAD to be the space shot!! :) I was srsly srsly freaking out before the ride and I wanted to back out.I admitted to them tht if one of them were to withdraw I would definitely follow ! I was scared ttmmmmmmm(to the max max max max max) and yes almost wanted to cryyy.Zhenyi was so cool about it!!!! Mel was calming me down.Pro hor?

Actually not at all.OMG la, the moment she sat on it she screamed!? I screamed too but hers was OMG totally. I must really thank yiyi cause she kept calming down and even urged me to open my eyes which I did:)

Came down and I asked "can i play again!!" HAHAHA srsly its dam fun.Kinda like the feeling when we're just dropped down :)

Bused down to mushroom farm and we had the awesome-est dinner!!!:)The food there was really goood~ ! :):)

Caught the movie old dogs and yes I know its dam rude to sleep while watching movie so I tried dam hard to stay awake.BUT my eyelids were droopingggggg and yes halfway I fell asleeeep tgt w mel hahaha :/ I could totally hear danc,ujie and yiyi's laughter like DAM LOUD. Hahaha.

Went back and taidi-ed. Wasn't tht hyper cause all of us were shagged:/ Bathed before tht and some scary shit happened but I WAS BRAVE.Yiyi knew:)

The next day we had breakfast @ resort world and yes the food is much nicer thn the previous day's.Randomly got into ripley's believe it or not and I must say I was fascinated by it!! Initially I thought it was just some boring museum or sth but it has proven me wrong!! SAT ON THE WORLD'S LUCKIEST CHAIR HEHEHE:) You ppl dont gamble w me already cause me SURE win!

TSK,NOW YOU KNOW HOW TALL DANC IS!!

Bused back after tht:) Slept quite a bit,ate quite a bit,watched quite a bit:)

Thank youuuu to the amazing 5 people who made this trip so so so fun for me:) Love you guys!! Hope you guys have enjoyed the trip like how I did teeheee.

xjxj.

O levels results.

2010-01-11T02:35:00.000-08:00

Hmmm actually I have been having mixed feelings about the results.I was super worried for my english and physics esppp. It was till about 4am+ last night tht I started to feel the jitters in meeee! Slept at about 5am after watching mio~ Nt gnna post my teachers' dedications here.I've already written wht I wanna say to them in the card.

Woke up @ 11.15am and tht was when I got really uptight & nervous ): I dont know why,not really thinking about what I will get but I just don't look forward to getting results.Bathed and stuff and the best thang is when I reached lot one,I realised I've forgotten to bring the teachers' cards!!! Rushed home and chionged t pizza hut to join th rest for lunch.Didn't have appetite at all which is so so unusual hahaha.

Then in pizza scary news were spreaded like only 78% passes for combined humans(which turned out as bullshit) srsly freaked the hell out of meeee): All the girls were dam scared plzzzz!! Ate like super fast,and went t school.

Headed to General office to make some payment(shaonianwenzhai) but realised we have t pay in the hall hahaha.Walked out of the office & MrKong was telling me I did ok.Almost freaked out!!):
Zhenyi and I totally dare not enter the hall and look @ the teachers' faces.Yesss we were super scared+afraid!! Thn walked in,sat down I totally didn't dare to look @ any teachers.

Received testimonial & stuff,mdm lee went through the slides and dont know why all of a sudden I dont even feel nervous HAHA. I even strolled to toilet before getting my results-__- Anw,congratulations to Emilia,Angeline,JeremyPang,Geraldine,Yanrong,Magaret(lots from D and F) and many more others which I've forgotten hahaha:/ Great job to the rest tooo!:D I was super sad that our class didn't produce scholars.Guess some of them like Brandon missed it just by a bit.That crazy guy got all A1s for maths and sciences!! Congrats dudee.

Yes and I went forward for my results I was holding Isabel dam tightly. I was super scared!!): Plus Ms Lai and Mr Tan didn't say anything.They just gave tht usual looks which freaked me out even further.

So got my results.Attempted to hide @ a stupid corner to see my results but failed terribly cause I was too afraid.In the end opened slowly and strolled down.Saw B3 for my english and srsly I was relieved because I actually said bitches and bimbos in the oral conversation hehee.Plus I kinda screwed up my paper1):

A2 for combined humans.It was what I expected but I think Mr Tan is really disappointed in our class.Our class is supposedly the best humans class yet our msg is only a 2.5.Mr Tan was really sad I guess.

A1s for both maths .Really gotta thank my tutor and Miss leongg!!

A2s for both sciences.I admit tht I was expecting a B3/A2 for physics.I was happy for th results but I was sad @ the same time because I knew I disappointed MrKoh.I mean,he really really put in a lot of effort on me. I already wrote him this card saying how apologetic I was.But still he was nice enough to console us la,although it sounds so fake!! hahaha appreciated it a lot though:)
I guess chemistry was expected.Seems like A1 is hard t get for me):

This is totally the OMG part.I saw a ONE at the last line and I'm wondering whts tht.Turned out my HMT got A1!! Omggg I've been dreaming for it like super super super long.I was telling mel I'd be sad if I gt a B because I srsly srsly put in lots of effort for chinese.I really didn't want to disappoint mdm yong because she has sacrifice a lot of time+energy because of us.I was truly truly happy about my HMT!!

Turns out almost all those who got 1s for HMT wrote qingjing.I think qingjing is really easier to score.

English-B3
Combined humans-A2
Add maths-A1
Emaths-A1
Phy-A2
Chem-A2
Chinese-A1
Higher chinese-A1
L1R5-9
L1B4-7

I dont know if I can still minus 4points / 2 points cause I've used my HMT for L1. Even though yongkian is super sure that we can,I still have doubts!!

After all the drama,went to pay up and thank like all the teachers.Gooshhhh. Kranji teachers really rock like how netball does. I'm really thankful to have such wonderful teachers who have never given up on me and ALWAYS helping me. Mr Kat was super cute to cry pls!He cried its like so obvious yet he keeps denying!

For those who're disappointed,I dont really know what are the right words to use but yes I totally know the feeling of not reaping what you sow. I've experienced it many times,esp in maths,netball,science.Like you really really put in a lot of effort yet the results are just not up to expectations.On the other hand when there're others who don't really study as hard can simply get all the As and stuff.Thts srsly the annoying part.Its like,you'll feel very unjustified.But I guess thts why people say life's unfair.People are born differently,w different luck.I used t feel really sad over these kinda incidents too.Hmm,cheer up.

Now I dont know where to go.Although I get like 5 after minusing 4(if can),I somehow still have interest in NP's psychology and community services and maybe tourism & resort management. Guess gotta discuss w my parents.But them being typical parents definitely want me in a JC,which I kinda hesitated a bit w some reasons hmm.

So yes..after slogging so hard for 4 years,gt back this lil rectangular slip which kinda decided our fate and where we're gg. So,this is life? But I must say I've rly learned a lot throughout my journey,seen a lot of diff ppl as well.

Nonetheless,I really really wanna thank all the teachers who've taught me before,and of course the school,my family and friends,my tutor,and lastly mr netball who's taught me how to be determined in every aspect of life:)

Last but not least,I think everyone in kranji sec 4 2009 batch deserves a clap for working so hard for this major exam.Those lazy ones started working,those hardworking ones worked even harder.So proud of you all:)

xjxj.

p/s:Millions of apologies t MrTan!!

JC/Poly

2010-01-02T05:56:00.001-08:00

I'm stuck between jc and poly):

I'm mad stressed now,much more stressed than during O's.My parents are assuming my results are gnna be dam fabulous tht I'll get into a jc for sure.But they just don't know how bad I screwed up.

These few days I kinda separated myself from all connections on earth.Phone/com(only at night) to really think things over.I used to be those who thought I'll most probably gg to a jc but these few days I really started to have second thoughts after talking to some people. I already looked through some of th courses in various polyss.

But now my parents are like wanting me to go jc. I guess I need more time to think about the jc/poly issue. I sort of have a tiny weeny arguement over the issue): ):

Right now,I'm mad nervous for results.Don't wanna fail english):

xjxj

p/s:Nikar shall we meet for results day,get nervous and maybe cry tgt? :(

What has 2009 been for you?

2009-12-31T06:02:00.001-08:00

2009 has really been a tough year for me.Being an O level candidate,playing my last zonals,graduating from KSS and my commitments..and of course many more.This year,many people came into my life.Some stayed w me,some walked in but walked out before understanding me. This year I missed certain opportunities,but also denied others of theirs.So much ups and downs,but def more ups:DHere're the dedications:)

Tyongkian: You've been really an awesome friend,one who always helps but never once complain."zhu ren wei kuai le zhi ben" srsly suits you.Thank you for helping me in my studies.You always pick up my calls and answer my doubts no matter how many times I disturbed you.Luv your hyperness too! I think you're one of th few guys whom have seen the unglam side of me! Love you:)

Szhenyi:Love chatting w you on msn late at night and hexicing:) 6 times at a go right teehee:D I think we're closer recently after o's and yes I really love the friendship we're havin' now:) Even though you always gang up w mel to bully me saying stuff to each other which I'll never understand,I still love you more than words can say:D

Tpeisi:Although we're seperated in different classes, I love you because you're srsly like a laoda in the nikar family, always organising stuff to keep us tgt heehee:D Although you always suan me(!!!) but I still love you ok. You can call me up for any random lunch/dinner and don't ever forget me hor!! Love you muaks.

Tyoujing:Laopo:D:D:D Omg sec 4 still call like tht but you like right?:) Hehs love going shopping w you and chatting about anything under the sun:) I don't feel awkward w you because we just have so much to crap about!:D The one thing I wanna tell you is tht although we're in different classes but I've never once felt awkward when gg out w you!! LOVE YOU:)

Tyuting:My walking home partner!! Although we don't walk home tgt as often after zonals/sec4,I still enjoy gg home w you.I kinda miss those days you know ! I always initiated the conversation but you just have much more to crap back!:) Lovely captain aka centre.You always make me feel so secure and safe @ court because your performance is simply awesome.Love you:)

Dan.c:Brother!!(Really mean it!) Hahaha yes la,you're my best brother although I always deny:D First thing,I wanna apologise for calling you fat in sec 1 k! hahaha. You're really a brother who I can really count on.Thanks for the concern and care you've shown to your sis these few years.Those "anything sms me 24/7" really,really means a lot:) Love you although I always bully you!Hope you get the girl of your dream soon:D

Dan.l:Omg,this guy can really crap.I will never have awkward silence w him even if we're alone tgt! I think other than yk he's the other who's seen the worse/unglam(like really unglam) side of me! He's a great chatting partner hehehe plus a crazy netball fan!! WOLFE:D Always so gentle and caring guy!! Hahaha love you:)

Shaotao:I rmb being like v v close to you in lower sec but apparently things werent the same in upper sec.As much as I wanted things to be like back then,its kinda impossible.But still,I rly wanna tell you tht I really cherish you as a good friend.You may nt see me as one but I still do.Love you:)

Jiaqi:Although I'm nt as close to you as dans,it's amazing how we can crap still in the occasional nikar gatherings:) You're just so jian4 tan2 hahaha.Its funny to see how you talk back to peisi sometimes hahaha! I rmb we used t talk a lot on msn last time in lower sec ! hahaha.Love you:)

Thoven:I'm not like VERY close to you,but I dunno why you can just chat a lot a lot w us :D I rmb last time I used to snap dam lots of pictures of you doing random stuff @ kfc etc etc.I must say you've brought a lot of joy to the nikar family heehehe:D Love you!:)

Melissa.foo:I dont know how to say but there's just something about you tht really impresses me.The way you treat your friends,how you will be so sensitive to your friends,how you put in a lot of effort in misc stuff. I'm nt v good w words but at least thts wht my impression of you is.You know wht!! I rmb the games,and love walking back w you too!I need not say much la.Plus I dun wanna be so formal. You should know how much I love you :)

Brandon:I've too enjoyed the times mel me and you sat tgt.The times both of us tried entertaining others and you just played along:) Miss doodling "jocelyn rocks,netball rocks!" on your textbook.I just saw the rare " brandon rocks" in my hist tb and I even wrote back tht time " as if" hahaha.Miss those times really:) And love you for how you would go tht extra mile to help your friends:)

Uziel:You've been a really good topic to talk about HAHAHA.No la,other than that you're a nice friend whom I can really crap with:D Sometimes you'd help me w my combined humans tyvm :D:D And thanks for being so enthu in sunny!!!! Love you although we always suan you :)

Nadia:You've been really an awesome friend! One who always give in to my stupid whinings.Of course,you're an awesome shooting partner too.You really care a lot about your friends and always lending ppl tht extra pair of hands:) I'll nv forget the times we shoot tgt, talk about netball tgt etc etc.Tell you a lil secret,you've always been my driving force in netball!:) Love you!:D

Weihong:Surprised t see your name here?! Hahaha I rmb we used t sms a lot before o's like almost everyday?! Well you've been rly an awesome president/friend who gives fab advices.And banana shirt,I have it now again thanks t you! Hahaha.When I'm down/being irrational you're always the one being the logical and rational one knocking sense into me, bringing me up again.For tht,I'm really thankful.I'm still silver c yes?Love you:)

1A'06/2A'07:I've never forgotten this class.The class so bonded and united.Sometimes I still think of the wonderful times we had tgt.Captain ball champs,its showtime,even conflicts etc!The memories are simply just too much to be forgotten,and tht is why they will always stay in my heart:) Love you guys!

3E'08/4E'09:I definitely have great moments w you guys!Also a super united class.National day(which I still regret nt participating in the decorating part),chalet,teacher's day and many more!! Although there're obvious cliques here and there,I'm still glad we can get things done tgt as a class:) Love you guys!

Netball/Red bottles:The team which has gone through ups and downs with me.The times we trained hard,fought hard and played hard.Those carnivals/friendly matches/zonal matches/chalets were great memories for me and this team is one which I will definitely miss in th future and of course one I'll nv forget:) Love you guys,x a mil.

SSC:A great and crazy bunch of bananas.I've rly enjoyed being part of the exco and th big family.Doing events like sports day/annual roadrun really gave me exposure to bigger things and sets me into thinking. Of course,there're some people in this big family who are just so sweet to show concern and care for others.I rly admire those:) Obs,sports day,farewell and more! Love you guys:)

Last and most importantly,my family.My parents are awesome.They're nt those who will tell me how much they love me,but they show their concern through their actions.My daddy would always worry if I've gt enough t spend,my mommy always show how much she love me through the encouragements and words she's said. Although I always bicker with them over stupid things like durian(they keep eating durians which is so unhealthy+smelly) we always make up in the end with me laughing.Esp the o levels period when I am really mad stressed up.Everytime they tried to stop me from studying too much and ask me to take a break,I'll flare up and feel irritated and ignore them.Sometimes when I'm stressed I even shout @ them but never once they got angry.Ever since I'm born they've been pampering me,giving money to go out,buying me chocos,and loving me.I just promised myself tht when I grow up,I'll definitely earn dam lots dam lots to let them live the best life I could offer. Esp after witnessing the lot one incident I told myself I am extremely blessed,and yes I will be thankful.Love x a zil.

Of course my sister and brother!! I wouldnt say I'm like VERY VERY close to them since I'm always bickering w them hahaha.But I was really happy when mommy told my sis tht i'm gg to genting then my sis said " huh,not dangerous meh?" this just shows tht she cares bout me:D And my brother,always cooking for me/buying food for me:) Love them as much:D

I'll do the teachers one soon,a few days before o lvls results release day:) Some things are just left a lil more while t be said:)

I was telling some people tht I'm a lil scared because I feel tht 2009 past just so quickly! Its like in an hour's time,its gnna be 2010.I'll feel weird writing "2010" for dates.But well,kinda figured out tht time is definitely not in our control. There're more challenges awaiting us! And lets just all face it w a smile:)

xjxj.

p/s:My tutor just smsed me wishing me happy new year,saying i'm one of those who made him smile in 2009! :) Shall reply him at 0000:)

2009-12-24T09:44:00.000-08:00

Have been twittering like crazyyy(!!) tht I almost forgot this blog~ Haha.Anw merry xmas to everyone!!:D (although no one is currently reading this blog :X)

Yesssssssssssssssss luvly santa claus,I have been VERY,VERY,VERY obedient this year so pls pls pls grant me my wishes okie?:D

1)GROW TALLER.Yes like really grow taller.I'm super inferior):
2)Convert all my fats to muscles.Now tht I dont exercise as much,my carrots became fats and fats and fats.Gtta be healthier!
3)Improve my netball skills.
4)Good o lvl results! :(
5)Happy family~
6)Family and friends t stay happy and healthy forever and ever!

Okay thts all I guess!!!

I gnna blog bout tday!:)

Woke up @ a super duper late time of 3pm.Rushed to bpp and met ykian and yiyi! Dan.l came soon after and we headed t arcade which I didnt play(was mad tired) . Afterwards,dinner @ pizza hut.I'm so fat already yet I ate like pizza hut): Had curry zazzle and omg it's awesome!!! I totally feel like eating again now):): But announcement!! I'M OFFICIALLY BROKE W 0.15 IN MY WALLET NOW HAHAHA.

So went to yiyi1993 condo and guess wht! WE PLAYED SQUASH!! I have a confession.I used to say I wanna join squash since pri school because I just feel that squash is a very cool sport!! I finally get t play tday and yes I think it's fun hehehe :D:D But the racket grip keep tuo ying color thn my hand gt all the stain!!): Nevertheless I kinda enjoyed it:D:D

BTWWWWWWWWWWW THANK YOU PEISI FOR THE COOKIES THEY ARE YUMMYYYYYYY X A MIL I LOVE IT:)

Peisi came and up we wenttt to zhenyi's house!! HAHA played mahjong,watched tv and tried webcamming!! HAHA it's quite fun y' kno!!:) Mahjong but they play 3 tai me no like!!): After that we took dam lots of pics and got one ( i think 2!!) show my big fat ass thighs (remind me of mcspicy) and they dont wanna let me delete hate it!):

Wanted t countdown tgt @ 12am through conference but we missed it due to me sorry ppl!! So we dragged all the way @ 1am hahaha our very own christmas at 1am very cute right :D:D Chatted and stuff,thn we were like 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 MERRY CHRISTMAS omg dumb but fun!:D Luv them !!

Now watching miotv and yes I AM HUNGRY ): like again. sighhhhhzxx

Yesterday's
RED BOTTLES XMAS DINNER @ YUKI YAKI :)
It was awesomee!!
Met up w dan.l zy for lunch @ yew tee (astons express,like again) the food's nice but it's not like very,very,very nice kind.HAHA still th food's cheap & nice yummy yummmmmmy:D Mel came after tht and gam sia very much for your cookie I will eat it no matter whttt!!:D:D

Headed t lotty(nad's term) t get th gift for xmas gift exchange:) Trained down t marina square w ginny mel and me.Soon met our juniors thn we ate yuki yaki!!:D:D It was awesome I like the tomyam soup although its very very salty.I kept complaining to ginny hahaha.The food's awesomeeee!:D But the company was even better :D

Icecreamed nextttttttt.Made our own ice cream and its niceee and fun:) I luv th peppermint one:D:D Played zhongjimima and we mixed all kind of icecream tgt gross like :/ Lyndi and melissa totally had fun mixing them and I'm like telling them "eh dont be so evil later have retribution" and guess wht the next 2 games they totally kana-ed it suay like siao srslyyy~~ Hahaha.Lost the last one and its nt very er xin actually cause th yam's taste was overpoweringggggg!!Exchanged gifts gt cat's gift gam sia very much!!:D luv you!!

Trained t orchard to take pic w th christmas tree teeheee:D:D Thn trained home zmg my legs hurt like :/ !!! Changed shoes w cat after that.Hahaha guess wht.I totally took off my heels @ yew tee and walked back barefooted.Heeheee.

OKAYYY gnna watch "your hand in mine" noww! BYEBYE.(feeling hungry in process too!!!)

xjxj.

2009-12-21T10:48:00.000-08:00

I kinda miss you.

Days have been spent @ home rotting because I've been waking up @ 4pm+ 5pm+ I'm totally living a pig's life ): It's 2.50am and yes I'm so so so wide awake ROAR!): Can't sleeeeeep insonmia like sheeeez.Thn everytime I wake up so late I'll be super tired and restless so I end up slacking instead of gg out): Like tday suppose to hit the town w danc ps sam but like srsly dam lazyy hahah.

Xmas is coming gotta start doing xmas cards!!:D I kinda look forward t x'mas but I dunno why I feel uncomfortable when I'm walking along orchard road.The xmas decoration is definitely awesome but I hate the crowd and noise like srslyyyy. ):

Have been dating w mr hexic like super many times HAHAA funfun:) Just signed up a twitter acc w zhenyi and zmg we're like 100% noooooooobs! (N)

Ok boreddddddddddddd I finally tried Astons just now I think its okay but my mommy luv it like wht HAHA.Shall try other dishes next time ;)

Wondering when I should reopen this blog.But before tht must delete unneccessary posts v mafan plzz.Maybe should change th host to like maybe xanga or livejournal haha.

Yessss haven't blog bout so many events bcos I'm so so lazy so you guys might nt see HAHAHA.But nikar+sunny you should know the word . AWESOME.

Pictures all @ FB no I'm nt that hardworking to post here so visit Ykian's FB find yourself HAHAH.Unglam pics of me skip skip skip okie!:D

Just cooked hotdogs(ok maybe not just) gosh I srsly dont know why I can cook such fabulous plus deliciousssssssss hotdogs I rock or wht!!!:D

xjxj.

Achessssssss!!

2009-12-18T09:15:00.000-08:00

Okay I'm gnna blog about today.Today is a super happening day pls!

Work up @ bout 6.30am?! I slept @ 4am which means I only slept for bout 2hours):): Was feeling super grumpy + sleepy when I woke up omggg.Mommy prepared breakfast for me yummyz.

Reached school & caught up w coach :) Innova jc came and I think redbottles played for bout,say 3 or 4 quarters?It was fun but coach said we dropped a lot): I didn't play well.Like breaking,offering too early,etc etc humphhhz >.< Anw th innova jc netballers have dam good stamina cause they played like 8 quarters w only 7 players(just nice) I think? hahaha.It was fun overall:D:D

After the game went to eat kfc w redbra & meihui.I had the buddy meal w redbra and I luv it cause it's hot and spicy and superrrrrrrrr nice :D:D W super fattening cheese fries yeah good job jocelyn yeoh you gnna fat somemore!!

After tht yiyi ykian and tao went to find redbra and I.Redbra and I went up first and there was a commotion at the entrance of lot one.Being curious we stayed and looked on.Out of a sudden we heard a mother shouting and she began hitting his son w an umbrella!?It ached my heart and srsly I wonder why the mother actually bear to hit her own son like this.There were guards to stop the commotion and this indian lady scolded the mother dam loudy,scolding her a bitch and stuff.

Then I forgot who,shouted"you have no rights to hit him!" thn the mother pulled her son in front of her and whacked him w the umbrella saying sth like "he's my son i have th rights" yeah whtever pls go and die.

Some guy whom I dunno is her who pulled her away and both of them argued.Then she's left alone screaming her head off I was SO SO SO traumatised and angry.Srsly the lil boy was like so pitiful.All he could do was to hide behind a guy and cry uncontrollably. He definitely doesn't deserve all these.The mother was so so so aggressive.I srsly sympathise the boy.

After that we went to suntec convention hall for bookfest'09.The rest thought it was at expo zmg luckily I was there if not they'd go expo for nothing?! Anw bookfest'09 was boring.Indeed there's a wide range of variety but the books were kinda boring.I dont know,prolly I was tired?I didn't even get my favourite pens despite low prices. However,there were interesting things tht happened:)

1)There's this lil boy who was running about shouting "mama,mama!" so we thought he was lost.Afraid tht something might happen to him,we followed him around.He runs dam fast plz.There were times we couldn't even catch up w him!! Ykian tried super lots of times to stop him and asked him bout his mom but he kept pushing him away!!! Everytime I pull his small hand he'll just like run off!? He finally stopped @ this stationery section and he's super ___ because he just took the pens and threw around.I srsly dont know wht he was doing man. To think I still thought he was quite cute!!! Luckily a guy came and took him away(I think its his grandpa) omggg i was so so afraid he'd throw the pens @ me hahaha!

2)This random guy working @ the stationery section from stgab randomly picked up a conversation w ykian like zmggg.He said ykian looked youngg,asked if he's pure phy/chem and yadah yadah gosh what a strange person :/ He's prolly into yongkian omg nadia BE CAREFUL!!!!

Lots of happening!!

After that we returned to citylink and headed to NUM as zhenyi wanted to get havainas!Went to toilet and saw this weird lady washing her face w the hand soap?!? She's super scary because she was continuously splashing water to her face(like srsly super fast) and dirtying the whole cabin.She simply did it over and over again!! And I think she's super inconsiderate because she dirtied the floor and basin :/ She even splashed some water t a few ppl accidentally but she didn't even care zzz.

Oh yeah we were walking @ citylink thn there's this section where you can write your wishes can be written on this big big white sphere.I made wishes and they include one for the boy I've seen earlier too. I dont know what made me think of him but at tht time I just wanted to make a small and simple wish for him.I hope they'd come true:)

Couldnt get zhenyi's havainas @ citylink so we headed to cineleisure.Omg the NUM guys are hotter there hahaha. But vivo's th best I guess! :) The one wearing navy blue srsly look like one of the actors in boys over flowers!! I can't stop saying it to them haha.Guess wht we spent like 1hour in NUM!?! After buying everything we asked yk to do sth dam aunty like srsly.I think we totally embarrassed ourselves HAHA.

We headed to marina square before tht for swensen icecream!! YES DAM RANDOM.I had coit tower and I was so so full after eating it!! But barely after 5minutes I became hungry again -___- But it was fun in swensen,enjoying the icecream and company:D

So after leaving cineleisure we decided to get to the cathay for the western restaurant yk's sis and mel recommended.Sad t say we lost our way and we walked like super super super long.Like from orchard to dohby gaut!!! :o Plus orchard road was noisy and kinda crowded.I was sooooooo tired and I hated the crowddd!!!!

Reached plaza sing and decided to dine there instead since there'd prolly be a long queue @ th western restaurant. To our surprise it's full of ppl in plaza sing and we couldn't even get a proper seat in any of the restaurants. ):): Finally settled down @ burger king @ bout 9pm and we spent 10mins finishing our meals cause we were simply too hungry!!!

Bused back and talked bout results,schools and stuff. Was dying to pee lolz.

Headed to bpp for awhile after tht w yiyi1993(<3) and went home:D

On the way in the train I saw this boy who's prolly the same age as the boy I've seen earlier in the mall.He was enjoying himself in the train w his parents. I was thinking,they're prolly born at the same time,but why are they born into such different lives?At this age children should probably enjoying their childhood,the unconditional love and care from their parents etc etc. At that moment there were rly tears in my eyes. I felt so ____.

Walked home from yew tee and the night was exceptionally quiet w just a few cars whizzing past me.No I was not afraid,there was no fear.I had a good walk by myself,thinking bout life and all the incidents.Today is a lesson. Taught me many things.

I'd probably think a lot bout th incident before I sleep later!! Hope the boy's fine now.

xjxj.

p/s: I know whts (Y) and (N) already!!!!

Desire

2009-12-17T10:51:00.000-08:00

Hello it's like,2.53am now and I'm still awakeeee.I'm super scared that I'm nt able to wake up tomorrow morning): I need to wake up at like,7am?! Going back to school t support juniors for their match against innova jc.And guess wht,seniors red bottles ting,mel,nad and me are gg back too!!!(amanda's in vietnam) WE'RE PLAYING THE FIFTH QUARTER:) Kinda nervous!! Afterall we haven't played a proper game(Except when there're times we play w our juniors) Gotta be serious serious serious!!

Back to the topic,I srsly think I'll oversleep tml.Like usually when I sleep at around this time,I'll wake up at like 3pm?Zzzz.Hope I wont wake up feeling grumpyy):

I was eating mamee(yumyum) @ about 2am?Then daddy said sth tht totally broke my heart.He said"eh so late still eat mamee,you think you very skinny meh" OMG.I'm super saddddd): Recently I dont know why I'm so so so hungry!!Like just as I was about to finish a meal,I'll feel even more hungry.Tht feeling totally freakkkkk me out): Exampleee,ytd I ate a mcspicy burger at 5pm+. Bought pastamania home(spag+garlic bread) ate like 8pm and still felt hungry.Pls shoot me and my stomach.

I'm like really getting fat.(NO YK I AM NOT FISHING FOR COMPLIMENTS HUMPH) So I went running tdayy!! I ran like prolly 4km ? I dont know but I ran at a pretty quick pace.To my surprise I wasn't like dying its just tiringgg:) Thought bout many stuff throughout the run and yes it is AWESOME I think I should do this more often :D:D And yes of course my legs' aching like some bananas now.

I think I owe you guys a few posts.Like,

1)Nations cup(nt very detailed thou)
2)Nikar beebeekew.
3)Sunny island outingg.

Okieee its like 3.06am now and I think even if I dont feel like sleeping I must really start forcing myself to sleep else I wake up at 5pm or sth lol.

Look forward t the only quarter we're playing!! HAHA. Can't wait to get the feeling back ;) After training(omg so long I never type "after training") I'll be gg down to suntec for bookfest w _____________ (I dont know who's gg HAHA)

X'mas is comingggggg!! Kinda look forward to it teeheee :D:D PEISI,THE NIKAR TONNING STILL ON NOTTT? :D And red bottles' xmas dinner(!!) Loveeeeeeeee.

Ok I better not wake up late!! If not I'll miss the game.And if I miss the game I'll kill myself!!!

xjxj.

p/s : WHAT'S ( N ) ?! And ttm is to the max or think too much?! And ftw is for the win? Why mel tell me it's wtf's opposite?HAHAAHAHAA.Enlighten me plz.

Inspiration.

2009-12-12T09:02:00.000-08:00

Super short update.I'm not in blogging mood now.

Watched nations cup in the end today.I'm glad I went in the end :) They're so so inspiring.

More tml.

xjxj.

p/s:I really want to grow tallerrrrrrrrrr.

2009-12-11T07:07:00.000-08:00

So this is how much everything is worth.
How heartwrenching.

2009-12-11T06:11:00.000-08:00

Why like all busy ah.Nadiaaaaaaaaa why must you go msia!):
Not gnna watch nations cup tml.
Srsly sad like crazy.
xjxj.

2009-12-10T00:08:00.000-08:00

Thank you dan.c.You're right.
Passion will never die.Especially when we persist in it.

xjxj.

Mirror of thoughts.

2009-12-09T09:21:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna pen down some of my thoughts tht've been troubling me for quite some time.It's 1.22am now and yes I'm really super tired.But I've decided t post while waiting for my hair to dry.

Note:Everything below is just my personal thoughts.

I've always been very confused over the definition of passion and also the measure of how passionate you are towards something.I used to think tht I'm very passionate about netball in my early years of netballing but as years pass by I realise things just aren't the same anymore.That is why,when people always go "you're really passionate about netball" etc etc I always keep quiet.

During the primary school days when we're exposed to less competitions and stuff,I knew I was very happy.No doubt there is pressure but it was insignificant.All I knew was tht I enjoy being on court,putting in shots,trainings etc.

Secondary one and secondary two things have been fine.But I realise as we grow up everything starts to get competitive and certain expections would come rising up. Of course I do agree tht all these are inevitable,every school is definitely hoping for the best results and the best for students. But I feel that the way I look at netball becomes different.

In sec 1/sec 2 on the bus to carnivals/matches I'd tell myself,just go there,do your best and enjoy the game. But since sec 3 onwards,things changed. Yes I still tell myself I have to do my best,but I know there is this winning desire in me.I want to win so much.There's just a part of me tht's struggling to prove to others tht kranji netball is capable of sth. But I know tht wasn't why I played netball in the first place.

Thts the part I'm really ___ about. Because in the first place I didn't really want to prove anything. I just wanted to enjoy my own game. Yes I do agree, with competitions come desires. Srsly,nobody would say they want to lose right? Everybody will definitely fight to be champions and not losers.Then I got really competitive.On the court I'd tell myself "Improve,I have to improve".When I practise my shots I'd get really frustrated if I ever miss one or two consecutively.

Of course I wouldn't say there're no pros.I became more focus and determined.I know what I wanted.West zone top 4 has always been my ultimate goal.Every training,every match,west zone top 4 was what I think of.I swear everytime.I can even dream about it and yes tht's how badly I wanted it.

Yes I wanted west zone top 4.But wht's the reason behind it? Was it because of my desire to win and prove to others,is it because I love the game,or is it simply because it's my goal?I dont know which is the one pushing me forward to reach for this goal. It's really scary.When you know you're working so dam hard for something and after all the hardwork you're confused over what you're working hard for.

I think it's really saddening and disheartening to see the passion in someone die down just because of external factors like recognition/high expectations from people.When one's mind is too occupied w all these stuff I bet he/she wouldn't enjoy wht she's doing at all.I think it's dam sad for someone whose passion is burning in the beginning to die down eventully because of all these.And I know it's hard and never easy to get it back.I just hate the fact how all these can destory one's passion,maybe not entirely but bit by bit. No matter how passionate tht person is,sooner or later she/he will feel exhausted by whatever reality has brought upon them.

It's the process that matters and not the results.I agree that this is very true to certain circumstances but face it,in reality we know that this phrase does not apply all the time,because results do matter for certain situations,situations where we cannot control or decide. That is when reality becomes harsh,when reality destroys people,when reality rob people of their passion.

It's just like the MGS match.I wouldn't cry so dam hard if the result had not mattered. Process?Yes I definitely enjoy the times I share w my teammates,the trainings and everything.But that was the last chance to bring back something.May be the glory,may be the recognition.I don't know what is it.All I know is that I'm really torn apart by the fact that we've lost.But what was I sad over?Was it because I feel that there could be more from me?Or was it because I felt that our efforts in these 4 years-whether significant or insignificant had been determined by this season? What was it!! I really really cannot figure out.

Actually at times,I feel that I have a very ugly character.Maybe it seems normal to others,but to me I feel so ____ . I don't like myself becoming so ambitious,so competitive.I don't wanna aim to win in everything. I really hope tht winning to me may be perhaps just a bonus and not my main goal. Because I had been feeling sick and tired over all the overwhelming hunger to be winners.But again,I know it's kinda impossible.

Whatever happens,I hope I will never forget why I play netball in the first place.Because if I do,every netball game I play will seem so meaningless.And yes I'm glad to say that I've not forgotten.Because now on court,I still enjoy the game.And I believe our love for the game,will help us improve and be better players,in terms of skills and character. Tht's how far our passion can drive us to and how it'll push us to exceed our limits.Srsly,they do wonders.

No matter what happens,we have to remember what we believe in.

Well I've said my piece.Actually I don't know what is the purpose of this post.I just said out everything I wanted to say. I'm in fact,confused over what I'm confused about. Someone srsly pls enlighten me or sth.

xjxj.

SHUM ZHEN YI

2009-12-09T09:14:00.000-08:00

HELLO LOVELYYYY!:)
HAVE A SAFE TRIP TO HONGKONG OKAY!! ENJOY YOURSELF AND HAVE FUN TO THE MAX MAX MAX :)
I'LL MISS SEEING YOU ONLINE HAHAHAH.
BON VOYAGEEEEEEEEE :D

XJXJ.

P/S:ARE YOU TOUCHED THT I DEDICATED A POST TO YOU? HAHAH.

2009-12-07T07:48:00.000-08:00

I don't really feel good now ):

I think the nikar thing,it's just me.I don't feel the same anymore.But I can't seem to figure out the missing element.Yes there're laughter there're smiles,but something is amiss really.

Nations cup. Like I really really really x a mil want to go and watch.And also take picture + catch up w ms yeo.Reallyyyy.

Talked t brandon ytd and he gave me like th usual ans the rest gave me.I know I know I know but whts wrong w me exactly. I'm so so so bothered by it.

I'm definitely gng for a morning jog tml. I need a good run to sort out my thoughts,again.

My mind is in a whirl my thoughts are so jumbled up.I'm so so so troubled but w so many things I dont know wht exactly are my troubles I wanna shout I wanna tell someone but I dont know what to say all I know is I'm xxxxxxxx bothered.

Hope everything will be gone,like really soon.

xjxj.

2009-12-07T04:09:00.000-08:00

I'm kinda sad now because:

1)Nikar outing was short): It feels..different.
2)I cannot find anyone to go watch nations cup w me.
3)I feel terrible.

xjxj.

2009-12-05T07:57:00.001-08:00

I know you know I'm trying to walk out slowly.

2009-12-04T10:04:00.002-08:00

Netball post done halfway.2am now and I'm tired.Gnna catch some sleep and continue some time later!:D

xjxj.

Netball.

2009-12-04T10:04:00.001-08:00

If I remember correctly,I did say I'd do some dedications after my o's :)

The first will go to netball of course:)

Well,netball has definitely played an important role in my life.I've played netball for like 7years+? In secondary 1 during the cca trials period,I was so certain and determined t join netball.I remembered tht our coach was miss wee,but she was replaced before I could actually interact more w her. We were kinda trained by yongjia's batch(after their zonals) and I still remember my senior was qiaowei!! She was really nice:) She did 2.4km runs with me and despite how slow I was(yes 16minutes owned) she still encouraged me,cheered me on etc hehehe :D I used t be a super slacker last time,all I did was t play play play,like didn't even expect anything out of myself hahah.

Miss Yeo came after tht and became our coach:) She is definitely someone whom I really respect.Of course,I wouldn't deny the first impression she's given me was strict.But gradually,you'd realise she too can be fun-loving,caring and nice.Look at how she always monitors nadia's diet+curfew and you'd know. She screams at us,she shouts at us.No doubt I was afraid and scared.She used t punish us like crazy.Rounds and rounds around school,pushups on the burning hot ground,physical trainings,shots(yes I'll nv forget tht) but I know she wants us to improve.I dont know why,but I prefer strict coaches like her. I need someone to scold me before I play a proper game.I'm the sort who need people to tell me I'm lousy in the face and then I'd wake up.Gosh I totally rmb how she dragged me to the corner of the court during zonals just to scream at me hahah. And she can be a motivator too.I rmb she used t talk to us(in th hall etc) bout goals and dreams.How she wants us to find out whts our duties in the game,write down our goals,and reflections.They always work for me:) I think she was the one who made me even more determined in netball.I love how she would always make us do drills tht will improve us individually:D Everytime on court I'd see her stern look and feel scared.Initially I wouldn't deny its because I kinda fear her but after a few games I realised it's because I didn't want to disappoint her.

Of course,I wouldn't forget the times spent in netball.The night match w coach and her friends,all the you-mian eating @ limbang,gossips,chats,trainings and everything.The most memorable time would definitely be the period when ting,mel,ginny and me would always meet at limbang first to eat youmian(ginny's fav) thn go for training(miss yeo time) Tht period was really awesome bcos I still rmb tht time we still had like a lot a lot of holidays training as compared t sec 3's ones. We'd thn attend training and miss yeo's training would be a compulsory 2.4km run for warm up(there're exceptions at times though:D) I rly looked forward t every single 2.4km because I knew tht was the time to improve my stamina. But srsly,I really can't recall when was the last time I did an official 2.4km.(except th napfa) I kinda miss doing like interval runs.I think we only did it like once or twice.I really really miss the intensity during training.Trainings were indeed tough and challenging us to our limits(ms yeo's time) but I was enjoying it.Everytime after netball training I feel exceptionally energetic and happy:D:D I always look forward to netball trainings during school period.I'll be like stoning there and waiting for school to be over so tht I can attend netball training :D:D Hehehe. Oh! I rmb how nadia and me would always spy on other schools tht we'd play friendly w! Then we'd gossip after training and laugh like crazy.I think tht time we were really insecure of ourselves!!(k la,maybe only me hehehe)

Well for miss ong,I'd say she's definitely the opposite of miss yeo.She is the softer kind and her trainings are really less tough.She's an encourager:D I'll nv forget tht. How she'd always tells us to do and give our best for every single game. Her drills are fun too! HAHAH mel you should knowww which secret drill I'm talking bout :P The hit ___ one haha :)

Ask if I still remember th mgs match,I'd say I'll never forget it.I dont know why I can't put it down. I tell myself,let it go and move on. But once in a while, when I'm reflecting I'd still think of tht match and ask if I could do more,wht if we won tht match etc. Everything's simply so vivid in my mind.I'm not affected by it anymore,I dont feel sad,but it's .. just something I'll never forget.I would say its just a regret in my life. Well,actually,I'm kinda scared.I dont know why,but I know I've changed in netball ever since sec 1.I know I've became more competitive and ambitious.I dont know what is it tht made me this way.May be school factors,may be the desire to win,may be anything.But I rly hope I wouldnt get over-ambitious or change too drastically.Because I still remembered why I play netball in the first place.

Took O lvls results not long ago,and yk's right.The effort you put in is definitely not proportional to the results. Learned,and have to live w this fact. I think this applies to netball as well.So enjoy the game,and play w no regrets.I think thts like the highest level a sportsman can reach.To a point where winning/losing really doesn't matter when they've really done their best perhaps? But still,w efforts come expectations.I think its a natural feeling,for me at least. Still confused la.But yeah.

I'll never forget team09 all the trainings we went tgt,the matches we played,the outings we had :) team10',first game is on monday.Give your best and leave the court w no regrets ok? I'll be down to support y' all!:)

p/s:Kinda missed the days when my fitness level is at its peak,when running 2.4km is no kick,when running about the court is not tiring etc etc.!

4E'09 OHSUM CHALET:)

2009-12-04T07:15:00.000-08:00

HELLO:) I'm back from 4E'09 awesome chalet! Sorry,no pictures from me.Same as mel,brought camera but lazy take out t snap pics teeheex:) Pictures' up @ ykian's facebook do check it out:D:D

Anw bout half th class trained there and th chalet was th one I went before bout years ago (my aunt's) yes it's definitely bigger than th usual coasta sands chalet.There's like a kitchen,livingroom,2 rooms.So girls took one room and guys the other:)

Settled down and played some class bonding games.The first one was some animal game I'M SUPER PRO:):) Those w me confirm win one HAHA.But we lost the last one.Must be brandon:/ HAHAHA.

After tht we played the who-wht-huh game which is quite fun also :D Yuanfang was rly good at it manz! Blackjacked w sunny island after tht,and I realised being a banker was better!

Dinnered @ some foodcourt after tht,headed back to play cards and random stuffs. When its like 3am+ played mahjong w mels and uziel . Played the one w tai2 which is more fun and I think I kinda got the whole idea of the game :)

Brushed teeth w mel.foo.It was disastrous pls! I dunno why we get so high like so randomly!We totally screamed and stuff.She even pui4 her toothpaste on my hand eww so disgusting right. Slept after tht it was a good sleep despite the hard bed!

Woke up and mahjonged :) Half of them went to WWW. I didn't as I was having my periods so we headed to th shopping center for arcadinggg :D:D I played bball and my shots pretty much sucked ):): I played 3 games in totally and my hands srsly ached like..I dont know what. hahaha.Bishi bashied too.Failed like totally.Zhenyi and ykian owned me like siao srsly.HAHA.

Returned back t th chalet and I slept!ALONE IN THE ROOM HAHAHA. See me no scared :D Yayy. Woke up like half an hour later because of some stuffs.Mr Kat came!!! He came dam early.Watched the rest play some games which I forgot the name but basically its a mixture of taboo,cherades,pictionery etc I kinda love the MCQ because I always happen to analyse correctly yay!:D

BBQ next.Thanks mr kat for the old chang kee treat!:) Slacked about,having guys around are great bcos they can help to start fire while we just sit there and shake leg hehehe. BBQed and miss leong arrived!!:) I kinda have a feeling she'll come too (same as yk) and indeed she did. Mr kat and miss leong were the teachers who came and their presences were really much appreciated!! Other teachers were busy/couldn't make it but its okay:) They even stayed! HAHAHA.

Drank abit of liquor and was feeling rly bad): Stayed at th bench and I forgot what I did -___- Bathed and felt a bit better,played the board games mr kat brought and yes it was fun! I like th idiot game and the ___game(I totally dunno the name) heh :D

Slept on the chair till morning thn headed for breakfast and then home!:D I think I slept for like 10 hours hahaha pigg.

Overall the chalet was a success:D:D Thanks to the organiserrrrs!! Love love 4E.

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Kranji open house.

Breakfast w nadia @ LJS (yummyummy ljs breakfast is my luv luv luv) Ting and mel were supposed t join us but both oversleep can?! Omg.I'm super sad. Mel and nadia called me to morning call them the previous night I was so so happy!! Nobody called me to morning call them beforeeee. So in the morning I called mel and I'm so happy cause she woke up hahaha.Then I called nadia and when I did so she was already gng out of her house -___- failed totally hahaha.

Okay so headed t school and played netball! Saw coach+juniors. So basically we just walked around the school and play netball.Netball netball and more netball!:P Tried to shoot from like rly far but I failed ): ): Tried some act-pro-jump-shots and FAILED TOO . Thanks like srsly hahaha.But the whole day was fun because I netballed a lot and tht made me happy:)

Headed t IMM for some job thingy after tht but its full so we slacked aboutttt .(nadia,lyndi,twins,mel) yeahhhhh. Okay I forgot what else we did.

I'm gnna blog bout sth now :) Stay tuned!

xjxj.

2009-12-04T07:03:00.000-08:00

I love this team x a mil :)

xjxj.

p/s:Tried dodging + touching the ceiling + jumping.ALL FAILED):): How to play competitive netball again!!):):

2009-12-03T07:17:00.000-08:00

I'M BACK FROM CLASS CHALET :D
I'LL BLOG TOMORROW MORNING K!:)
I'M SUPER HUNGRY NOW):

XJXJ.

P/S:YEAH WO SHI SUPERMAN. YEAH NI SHI LOSER!!! LOVE LOVE JERRY YAN!

2009-11-30T20:06:00.000-08:00

HELLO I'LL BE AWAY FOR 4E09 CLASS CHALET!!
BACK ON THURSDAY.
TILL THEN!

P/S:DANIELCHIA YOU WAIT ME WILL GET THE BED!

2009-11-27T02:47:00.000-08:00

MAYBE IT'S MY WORDS.
MAYBE IT'S MY ACTIONS.
WHTEVER IT IS I AM SORRY.

2009-11-26T04:42:00.000-08:00

Heh I'm dam energetic now cause I just slept for like 6 hours :/ I'd better blog now if not I'd procrastinate and procrastinate :X

PROM NIGHT'09

Prom was awesome:) It was a fun-filled night w dam lots of camwhoring but th service wasn't rly up t standard): ): The emcee's okay,quite funny hahaha.Lots of pretty girls+handsome and cute guys HEHE:) Took lotsa of photos but its kinda ironic because I took photos w lots of random ppl but nt individual ones w my loved ones like ting and peisi.Its rly crapp):

Prom king and queen were irwin and emilia!! Congratulations teeheeex :D I dont rly remember th details but 4E montage was a pity because of th background effects and yes 4B's video montage rly owned!! It was super funny and nice hehe (: Don't forget th lyrics game was awesome because we have super enthu people gng up the stage t play and woohooo all of them rocked!

(yes the details are kinda jumbled up)

After lotsa and lotsa of camwhoring ting ps mel and me cabbed home because we still had work(ps)/chalet next dayyy.Wanted t join th rest badly but saving $$ + scared scared to go home HAHA.K I shall upload th photos now:)

DANIEL LIMMMMM!(cute hairstyle right hahah)

FOUR YEARS LAOPO!:) (still lose t coffee though hehe)

SO BLUE NEISHHH LUVLY ZHENYI.

MISS RATNA:) really sweeeeeet teacher!

NADIA + SHOOTING PARTNER:)

The girl who drew on my arms. First customer okk:D:D

Chicken lil!!:)

YIHAN+HEADPREFECT :D

FARIDAH AND YIYI1993

ME+EMILIA(PROMQUEEN!!:D)+AMANDA+ZHENYI

They've been great pals since sec 1:)

TANYONGKIAN:)

BEST BROTHER:)

THOVEN.WHY HIS EYES ONE BIG ONE SMALL.

JIELUN!

CHINESE PRO HEHE.

SWEET+PRETTY DANHUA.

VAIN+CUTE PEIZERO.

MARDYYY:)

MISS KHOOO!!:D:D

KIAYIIII:)

30000000000CM MARILYN HAHA.

PRETTY LAURA!

DEBORAH:) [TYK WHT ARE YOU DOING -,-]

HWAIYI:)

RACHELLLLL!:D

SUBEEBEE!:)

MRKONG!!

YURIII:)

SEXY MELISSA:)

MISS LAI!<3

STANLEY!!

MR CHENG!(ahem-height-ahem)

MRTAN+PRETTY DAUGHTERRR!

MS YEO!:) (PLUS MEL!)

MR ONG!!

MDM YONG<3<3

MEL+MRLIMCHEEHOW:)

TERENCE+ZHENGXUN(WHY TERENCE MOUTH LIKE THT HAHA)

XINGAN:)

MR CHUA:)

ALOYYYY!

sweeet felicia!

CHOONYONG!

BRANDON!(where is he looking!!)

LOVELY ISLAND:)

AWAL!

KAHFONG:)

BRANDONN!

BFF!!! :D:D

WENXUN HAHAHAH SO CUTE.

BOTH HANDSOME OR NOT! HAHAHA.

TAKE 2 BUT SO BLUR PLS.

GUANHUI.WHY HIS EYES LIKE SO SLEEPY AHH!

MISS LEONG! LOVE HER AND HER POEMS!:)

KAIZHUN:)

FAT ARMS.

CANDID HAHA.

CANDID2

SUBHAAN + DAN.

MEL KYIEN YUHAN:)

YUHAN+KARYIEN:)

MANDY:D

VPRINCIPAL!!

XUNXIN!

FUNLOVING SSC:)

2A'07!!:)

MELISSA!!:)

2A'07 <3

SERERN!

SEC 4 NETBALLERS :)

YONGKIAN+AMANDA!

NIKAR GIRLS LUV THEM X A MIL

NIKARRRRRRRRR *SCREAMS*

SAMUEL!

SUNNY ISLAND W MS LEONG!

TAOTAO! (i guess this is like the only time he didn't run away! hahaha)

4EEEE

4E!

4EEEEE!

YIYING!!

Netball graduation chalet'09

It was the next bombzx!!:D No photos though,was lazy+afraid t take pics @ chalet heh.Gotta wait for mel's upload!

Trained there w ting & ginny thankx for the awesome chocos ginnyyy:D:D Yeahhhh reached there,warm welcome HAHAH and started t slack about.Usual taidi-ing(netballers' big time fav),random chats etccc.Had a good time showing th juniors the prom photos hehe NADIAAA.

Dinnered @ th food court after tht then we mahjongeddd :) After tht when twins+lyndi+cat were mahjonging I taught the rest the gamee it was SUPER funny.I bet nadia enjoyed it luh! She laughed like crazy but srsly it was super super super fun teeheex.

Slept after tht super super squeezy imagine 10 ppl in 2 beds HAHA.But lyndi+cat got up t mj so I had like the whole bed to myself :X HAHAHA.I basically slept till the next morning comfortably and srsly being an usual late-sleeper I rly don't understand why I'd be so tired ): Headed for macs breakfast then bowling it was super fun teehee :D

MJed,slacked etc and bbq started.Btt(by the time) I was rly shagged+restless but after tht it was fine already:) The chicken wings + sambal prawns + hotdogs were AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D After tht we slacked bout and watched horror movie which was so boring -__- AHAHA.Fell asleeeeeep.Woke up and trained back.

Anw,farewell gifts were,

1)cup from sec 1s ( it was nicee:D:D)

2)cake from sec2s ( it was super sweeeeet of them,yes sweet as in sweet teehee v tastyyy :DD )

3)cup+cushion+special gift. It was rly a great idea I luvvvvvv it.ESP THE SPECIAL GIFT HAHAHAHAH :D

I must say they've rly rly put in dam lots of efforts in it.I'd take pictures and post next time!!(provided I haven't finish th cake hehehe) so,

THANKKKKK YOU JUNIORSSSSSSSSSS :D LOVE YOU ALL!! MUAHX.

For th current netballers,pls pls work hard in zonals/friendly matches. Work hard for a place in e team and have tht goal in mind.When you have tht,nothing can stop you :) Mind over body ok? :D When you step into th court thn give your best and block all distractions.Jiayou and all the best!!:) You guys definitely have what it takes to be winners.

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For prom night+netball chalet,I rly rly hav t thank all those who made it possibleee!! Love every single one of you all!

Before I forget...

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO STANLEYYY :)

You're really one helpful and awesome friend!! All the best for everything and everything ok? Luvvvv you!:)

OK BYE!:) Gnna go open house and play street netball HAHA:D

xjxj.

p/s:thanks brandon for th gift and yihan for th carddddd:) luv it!

GRADUATION NIGHT.

2009-11-23T10:18:00.000-08:00

PROM NIGHT 2009 :)

It's 2.30am now and I'm super tiredddd.Off for netball chalet till 26th dec and I'll blog bout prom night and netball chalet @ one go :D :D

STAY TUNED @ LOVEETATTOO.BS !

xjxj.

p/s:Mr Tan's daughter is dam prettyyyyyyyy right! :D

2009-11-21T03:34:00.001-08:00

HI I'M BACK . HAVEN'T SLEEP.HAHAHAH.

I'm back to complain.MY BODY IS ACHING LIKE CRAZY): My arms,shoulders,legs,stomach omggggggg.

K done.

xjxj

2009-11-21T02:56:00.000-08:00

I'm never trying t be who you want me t be.

SSC FAREWELL'09

Yesss it was awesome!!:D
Met w dans+ting @ lot one at 12pm and yes actually I was e one who set the time :/ Finished the lunch in like an hour and we were so clueless bout where t go since farewell starts @ 2.30pm.We suggested super random stuffs like gng to qianhu fish farm(!) and warren for arcade/bowling.In the end we decided to bball in school :D :D But end up it rained -__- So we decided t slack around in school.

Walked t school and saw ssc juniors playing dodgeball.Soon we joined the game and we kinda owned them for quite long!! We did lose a few matches though hehee. Anw,it was fun!!!:D More sec 4s came and I didn't play already since I've played for so long.Watched and after awhile we played STREEEEET NETBALL :D It was super super awesomeee!!:) It was a good match :)

Slacked about in the artroom w the sec 4s after tht and played taidi w stanley+aloy.Lost like crap though): hahah. Watched the rest play some game(i dont know whts the name) and it was super super funny!!! Guanhui was so tortured by yanrong+gladysss.Dan and fel was funny too hahahaha. I think we should play @ netball chalet!

Watched ELDDS grad show after tht w a whole bunch of ssc and yes indeed it was awesome:) Ykian was great pls,I didn't expect him t play the evil role :/ I was totally freaked out and I kept telling yanrong how mean and evil he was!! But nonetheless I think they've put up a fab show so well done!!:D:D

After tht we went t bbq.I was so sad tht there wasn't any hotdogs!!): Its like an essential food for bbq like srsly! So geraldine accompanied me t buy hotdog(yes I was THAT desperate for hotdogs) thank you uselessassassin:D:D

Slacked around after tht and watched the skit put up by sec 2s.Some were rly funny!! Went poking balloon after tht and I thought tht idea was kinda cool :) The juniors sewed the ssc shirt for us omggg it was really really really sweet I luvvvvvvvvvvv it!!!

Headed to artroom after tht and watched a few slideshows.Yanrong face appeared in like most of the photos.The thing is tht she was sick during the expedition yet she still can pose wth la!! hahaha.super funny.Teachers gave us a torchlight each I think the meaning behind it is coolcool :) Thank you miss wong2 for the card it was so lovely:D:D

Went to talk w some of the sec 4s and one corner in the parade sq omg I luv these talking sessions! We crapped about lots of stuff and we always side track teehee. It was nice :) We chatted till 1am+ I think?

Bathed and slacked after tht and it was 3am then.Ordered mac delivery and basically eat ate fries+play cards.Chatted and stuff and I basically stoned there and listened to ppl talk because I know I was dying already hehehe. But I think I'm more of feeling restless than sleepy because there was nth much to do! So this carried on for quite some time and in between I just rested my head on the table while having some random chats w people.I think I was in sub-conscious mind bcos I could hear some of the contents.Hehe.

At 6am+ I was srsly knocked outt :/ I rested awhile outside HOD room then I went to canteen to sleep omg it feels so so so good.Thanks stanley for both of th shirts it was freezing zmg.Zelia+felicia was dam pro pls.They didn't sleep the whole night!Geraldine yanrong and gladys so fast go in sleep already haha!!

Washed up and I practically dozed off whenever there's a chance.Like sitting,waiting I was like closing my eyes.Back w qamama and I kept complaining to him how tired I wasss!!

Headed home and slept immediately -__- till 6pm pro or what?:) The guys wanted to go orchard/disturb juniors but guanhui just told me online tht they all were lazy and sleeping funny plss!

Gosh till now I am STILL tired.I think I am going to sleep again so bye!

Before tht,I wanna thank every single one of ssc for making the farewell a possible and a fabulous one!!(teachers,juniors,sec4s,school,whtever!) You guys are awesome:) Loveeeeeeeeeeee you all.

xjxj.

p/s:Geraldine says 2012 is not bad!!! Maybe i should consider watching.Not now though.I.am.super.broke.
p/s/s:No more procrastinating! START RUNNING.GET GOING!

2009-11-18T20:01:00.001-08:00

再深再难忘的记忆也会随着时间的流失慢慢地被遗忘。

Goshhhh schedule's gnna be dam packed for th rest of th week!

20th-SSC farewell + stayover ,KPDT grad show.
21st-SSC farewell
23rd-Prom night(!!)
24th-Netball farewell
25th-Netball farewell

OMGGGGGG right. HAHA.
Went out ytd w yiyi1993 and coffee!:) It was fun fun fun and I must rly thank them because I'm super choosy and I think they're kinda pissed teehehee.We basically combed everywhere.But it was a great day :) Journey back was cool yiyi1993 and I made new friendsssss! One of them was about to fall and she held on to yiyi1993 super tight and didnt let go despite being balanced alrea thts funny haha! Fun having random chats :D Happy happy!Highlight was,I saw mr yeoyeoyeoyeo!
The moment I saw him I literally screamed cos he was walking so fast tht I was afraid I couldn't stop him.Well chat a bit while and he went off t meet his friend :)

Gunbound was awesome(!!)

Gng out later again:)

I think I should do some volunteery work in the midst of all fun!

I'm gettin' eggcited for the farewells+promssss.

Raffles,when's our meetup??!!(I wonder if some of them still rmb us!)

xjxj.

p/s:last few parts were all so random(!!)

2009-11-17T19:07:00.000-08:00

Would you ever play with trust in an effort to make someone feel better?

2009-11-17T02:04:00.000-08:00

原来一切竟是那么的脆弱。
就像空气中的泡沫，
一碰就破。

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原来不是白就是黑
只不过是天真的以为
要醉得清醒要无辜的犯罪
现实的世界只有灰
坚强得太久好疲惫
想抱爱的人沉沉的睡
卷来的风暴凶猛里有种美
死了心痛就没感觉
灰色空间我是谁
记不得幸福是什么滋味
无路可退你是谁
怎么为我流泪
梦见发着光的草原
一身伤回到很久以前
我选择不恨带着平静走远
醒来后夜还是长夜
紧抱着我流泪

this song's rly nice.

xjxj.

2009-11-16T06:54:00.000-08:00

TODAY WAS AWESOME W PEISI & AMANDA :)
THANKS GIRLS LUV YOU A MIL. HAPPYYYY.
I'M SUPER TIREDDD.WENT OUT AT 10AM AND RETURNED AT 10PM):
WHAT MADE ME EVEN HAPPIER WAS:

A: -accidentally hits my waist- OMG.YOU'RE SO BONY!!
J: OMGGGGGGGGGGGG. YOU'RE THE FIRST T SAY I'M SKINNY.(Yes I'm dam fat after not exercising for donkey years)
A: That wasn't a compliment you know.
J: I KNOWWW.

BUT STILL HAPPY X1000000000000000.

APPARENTLY I'M NOT MAKING MUCH SENSE BECAUSE I'M SOOPER TIRED YEAH BYE.

xjxj.

2009-11-14T20:04:00.000-08:00

HELLLLLOOOO:)

Kspiration launch was okay!:) I was late :/ argh like the latest.I remembered my tie but couldn't find it anywhere in the house so got Brandon t bring it down for me when he's asleep :/ But still THANKS :)

Journey there was bad bad bad,thinking bout stuffs which aren't nice ): But anw,reached them blahblahblah th last video was super super funny heh!! I was th first to go up and received e certificate initially I was like YAYYY then eventually I felt a bit odd ):

Anw,I finished reading chongjing already and yes it was awesome:) Didnt join the rest for rollerblading after tht but instead went t shop around w puikseexx and her sister.I'm totally the victim.Everytime I say/do something stupid they would like look at each other and give the -___- face hahaha .But it was funnn:) Wanted to catch sister's keeper but the queue was way TOO long and the show is not on.

Suggested bowling and weeeee there we go:) Hehx. It was fun but tiring ( like totally the after-effect,I felt the aches like only now) Puikseex sister totally have potential manx.It was her first time but hers everytime so straight(!!!!!) angry!!

Came home and gb awhile.It was fun but random bot sucks sucks sucks!!! ): Because I'm only familiar w asate hahaha.But when everyone left, the 4D people let me use asate for like ONE match but still I was happy yay.

I'm gnna run later t shed some fats :) But currently I'm hungry hungry hungry.Shall source for food bye.

xjxj.

2009-11-13T16:35:00.000-08:00

Short update noww. Have t bathe and rush t school for kspiration launch after thisss.

Actually I blogged a rather long post before this but I'm lazy t publish.Even if I publish now I guess it made no sense hahah so nvm.

Anw,O LEVELS ARE OVER :) Well I'm not like extremely happy because the period when there're no exams is really long and the feeling of awaiting o's to be over is like gone hahaha.

Yessss o levels let's not talk bout it :) Maybe I'll talk about it when the results day is nearing heh.

Anwww. So what did I do after o's yesterday?

NETBALL. HAHAHA :) Told you the first thing I wanna do was to netball already and yes I did :) The night before I already set on my mind to netball after the paper.My stamina dropped like crazy and my shots are stupid till I can't believe it.Like there's air ball ): Gosh.But its okay I'll train train and train run run and run THEN I'll go back to play w them :) The feel's kinda gone tooo! My lobs to nadia were SO threatening and weak!!!! People used to tell me my passes are dam hard but now..):

After playing like 3 quarters(!!!!) I'm finally tired but satisfied :) teeheex. Headed home t bathe met melissafoowanting @ u t (yewtee!HAHA) mrt thn headed t lot one and meet th rest of our classmates for the seoul garden trippp :)

It wasn't as hyper as I initially thought it would be ): melissafoowanting and I were walking around and nobody want to gel with us despite us picking up random conversations!! ): ): Zhenyi was extremely funny yesterday!!

Anw,I think the guys gel-ed more than us :/ They talk like dam lots.I must blog bout an incident!!

Jiashun wanted to eavesdrop on Karyien so he bend forward to her back OMG IT TOTALLY LOOK LIKE HE'S SMELLING HER HAIR.Yes plus his super tiko look.That totally became the joke of the day I swearxz. Jiashun was so so embarasseddd!

Yes lots of chatting(well,not rly) + camwhoring yuanfang's group dam funny her expression dam classsiccccc!! hahaha. I ate like 7 prawns.Thts like the only thing I ate + rice+hotdogs+chicken.Its always the same thing @ seoul garden hahaha.We were like dam sianed after tht w nowhere to go,no movies to watch,nothing to do w a big crowd.In the end decided t go dan's house t mj but it's late so melissafoowanting and I went homeeeeeeeeeee!!!

Bathed,slept till like this morninggggggxx.heh :)

Guess the fun starts from nowwwww!! I kinda look forward to kspiration launch you knowwww! dk why though hehehe.

Need to bathe bye!

xjxj.

p/s:ME WANT NIKAR OUTINGGGG :D

2009-11-04T04:36:00.001-08:00

Knew I screwed up my physics spa,thts why I worked hard.
Knew tht I could not disappoint mr koh,thts why I worked even harder.
But why must things still turn out this way.
):

xjxj.

2009-10-21T18:50:00.001-07:00

I'm not the kind you guys think so the fears are kinda unneccessary.

2009-10-16T18:21:00.000-07:00

Last day of school yesterday.

Woke up w a stupid fever but still insisted on going t school since it's e last day of school + i have some of the cards w me.I really wanted t be super super enthu but I felt rly moodless + feverish.

Anw,ytd nadia has this plan where all e sec 4s would "rebel" and refuse to stand and return t class heh :) then we would stand up and shout "once a kranjian always a kranjian!" initially we thought mr zainal will be dam angry but he was like smiling pls heh. Anw 4E guys awesome cause they were super daring and wore skirts from first period till recess.We had a fun time seeing them change into skirts and were laughing our asses off!:P

Jiashun's dam sexaye w the skirt can.Super short but his thighs totally looked like a guy's heh.Yongkian wore my skirt he fold like TWO TIMES. ZZZ I hate his leg.Super skinny ): We totally enjoyed ourselves during maths period w lots of taking of pictures :D Heh.Mr tan said " seriously,4E is the first class that won so many awards" Ultimate coolness yay!:D Luv luv 4E.

Miss Leong showed us her poems it's rly nice :) She's gonna write us one after O levels :D The results day :)

O lvls briefing next. Mdm Lee was super funny pls.Hahaha but it's encouraging :) Go everyone!!

Hcl was okay.I was on the brink of fainting because I was so ~ ~ ~ Clarified my doubts w mdm yong and yes I 'm gonna get tht A1 for her.It's not gonna easy since I'm like a B3-C6 person but yes believe believe believe.

Thanks nadia and other people who started th thing I think its rly the first time e whole cohort was doing something tgt :) And gladys who started the card thingy.Its rly heartwarming t see how other classmates viewed you :)

Melissa told me how she felt terribly sad etc etc cause initially she didnt have a good impression of kranji.But these four years definitely proved us wrong.I didn't rly comment much because I was scared I'd think even more and be super affected by it.Everytime someone tells me how he/she will miss Kranji after they leave I choose t keep quiet because I dont wanna be reminded tht our secondary school life is ending.Every single night before I sleep I'd think of the happy moments in kranji.Netball nikar 2A 4E SSC the teachers everything and everything.The memories are so overwhelming tht I choose not to think bout it.But ytd when I was lying on e bed after eating my medicine I realised something.And tht is one shouldn't choose to not remember the happy memories because he/she is afraid of not having them again.因为是回忆所以才要记得。I believe memories are the ones that keep us going.Yeah so start cherishing them:)
We can create new memories but the old ones must stay.

Nadia's tag was super meaningful.If we were to sit for one whole afternoon staring at the parade court,we won't even realise how much time had gone by.It's really really true :)

I need t stop now because I'm gnna write forever at this rate. More after O's :)

Jiayou people for O levels Its really really the last lap.We have to do this tgt!Go people!!

No more self-doubting.No time for tht.Just do your best now.

Mugging starts now:)

Fever fever go away!!!

xjxj.

p/s:因为有时候真的觉得我可有可无。

2009-10-10T10:42:00.001-07:00

Today was good.Mass physics+eng+maths.

Tuition was good.My tutor didn't scold me for my amaths.Plus he shared w me lots of very inspiring stories bout determination and perseverance.I've rly enjoyed it.Me is never giving up:)

Physics was good.I managed t figure out things I thought I couldn't! Heh :)

Last week was flooded w mass mock.Although I do agree it's very very tiring having t do those mock after lessons(I almost fell asleep during emaths mock),I think it's still quite helpful :) Mock was good except for history and eng.Totally screwed them up.My seq anyhow whack still got th marks,I still have t ask mr tan why I was correct! Like totally no understanding.

Chinese was bad.I was quite depressed while doing p1.I've been studying chinese a few days before mock4 HAHA because I rly want t score well for mdm yong.I dont want her efforts t go down the drain.I memorise dam lots of ming yan ming ju and I keep reading randomly out t people. HAHA.But yeah,paper 1 was tough.):

The question's like,the most beautiful moment of your life.I mean,the key is MOMENT,experience/time is okay but the whole thing is being narrowed down to a moment.I spent like 20 minutes plotting yet I couldn't come up w something good.I even looked back and attempt t see how peisi start.Yes,during the exam.HAHAHA.

So qingjing wasn't good.I kinda engage the qn rather late. Paper 2 was okay I can do the MCQ!! HAHA.I only pass MCQ once/twice this year I think.Average is 6/8 :/

It's 1.48am now and yup I'm enjoying the tranquility! Too late to sleep for me.HAHA.I need t sleep at a certain time,it's just sleep or not sleep. Okay you wouldn't get it so nvm.

Anw I'm getting fat.All my muscles have been converted to FATS,just like how energy has been converted to heat energy due to friction.Veevee.I'm super determined t lose those fats.RUNNING TML!

It's been super super long since I've touched a netball.The last time was friday I think,played w tings and some of e guys.I've rly enjoyed it though its a mere half an hour I think? Initially all were tired and didn't want t play but I dragged them.Tyty,it was e last time I played netball before O lvls and yes it was fab:) Ting still rmb the last goal like so intense hor HAHAA.

And it's really bad.Cause when I walk past the parade square I'd comment " OMG.Good weather t play netball!!" Amanda would always get irritated by me for making the same comment over and over again but its rly true!! The weather's neither too hot or too windy.It's not even humid.It's like JUST NICE TO NETBALL . Which is so irritating because I couldn't play.Then I have t just satisfy myself by pretending t tone the line or sth haha.I definitely wanna play netball now but look at my fat legs.URGH.

Shall read some novels nowww!:)

GOGOGO!:)WE CAN DO THIS.

xjxj.

p/s:Random but I wanna thank my teachers for being REALLY helpful !:) Love every single one of them!

Last lap

2009-10-04T06:04:00.000-07:00

Hello.

Results are out.Lots of reflection yesss.

I totally need to work on my eng,now tht I've screwed up my oral,I need to work on my papers.Like really. I scored a miserable 16 for situational letter. So need t work harder!

Combined humans too.Mr Tan asks me to look at face value,not to read too deep into the sources, when I attempted to do so,he tells me tht L1/1 inference.He even wrote " avoid such answers,if not your a1 very hard to get"Omggg I swear I was super demoralised after tht ): After tht comment I went home and totally reflected and did super many sbqs haha.Hope I improved ):

Higher mother tongue is getting so different and scary.Kinda stupid tht I only realised it now. I think I'm too dependant on qingjing.W/o qingjing my paper 1 is really gonna be so dam screwed.My bzbd sucks.When I did the paper on fri I felt so dam lost and I didn't know wht to write.Paper 2 was chim pls.I freaked out all of a sudden gahh.

Sciences are alright but my answers are still not good I guess.The results I've gotten dont seem real,esp phy.I dont know,but I'm rly feeling lotsa pressure.Amaths was disappointing ): Paper 1 was good.I got 76/80 but paper 2 was bad like really bad.Luckily my tuition was cancelled yesterday,if not I rly dunno how t face my tutor ): Emaths was ok:)

So overall I did improve.Maybe cause prelim2 is easier than prelim1 . I've got A1s for my sciences/maths,B4s for humans/eng and B3 for hmt.Yes you can see my language sucks ):

I'm kinda demoralised because I seemed to be belittled these few days.People always "huh?!" t me in disbelief when they hear my results. Am I rly tht stupid?

But its okay.Nothing shall bring me down.

Those subjects I'm okay at,I'll work harder.Those subjects I'm not okay at,I'll work even harder.

I dont know why,but I feel tht miss lai's very inspiring.Like rly,in netball,I used t say,you want it you work hard for it.In studies,she says tht to us.And I think its very true.Nothing comes free right.And also,YOU ARE MORE THN WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE.hahaha v true :)

Last lap,go people!!!We can do this tgt!!!:D

K sry for rambling on my results.Heh. School's been fine,w all the results coming etc.Olvls gnna come and go like really soon.

PE tomorrow!! Like first PE in many years.I'm kinda looking forward to it :) I'm gnna get back to my jogging routine.I'm srsly getting fat! :) Need time t sort out my thoughts some time too.

Okay,prelim 3 starts tml! History omg.HAHA.I shall do my best in SBQ :)

JIAYOU EVERYONE:D

xjxj.

p/s:Ty teacher x for the card!:D

The difference between a second in a minute and a second in an hour.

2009-09-25T22:42:00.000-07:00

If it's that easy,if it's that easy.
If it's really that easy.

Yesterday was awesome:) Chem p1 was poooof anw I know my scores and yeah totally has got no comments on it haha :)

After chem paper we went t bugis and headed for toponee :) We're like their first customer of e day heh :) Btw, we=zhenyi peisi tao kiany peisi sam danl.Awesome friends :)The journey in the train was great cause I was reading a book and I've succeeded in finishing the book by e time we reached there :)

We've got t jaywalk across the road and the cars were driving @ such high speed pls.I was dam scared cause I did promise nadia nt t jaywalk anymore and I srsly suck at jaywalking.I'd always cross halfway and run back HAHA.But we're all safe:)

Waited for dam long outside and at like 11am we went in.We totally sang for a full 7 hours it's like dam high!!:D I think the whole point is not about singing very beautifully in front of your friends but to just sing our heart out w/o feeling awkward or embarassed.And I'm glad they did so cause I swear everything's dam funny!! Duets,fast songs and many more!:D

Hahahah gosh I totally love fast songs and how daniel.l attempted his ripples I TOTALLY LOVE RIPPLES now. The slow songs were good.It was rly rly fun :D Heh.K, zy and yk I think diao le is not bad after listening t yk sing like 4 times ytd :) So yes everything was GREATTT :)

Headed back at 6pm and GUESS WHT I WENT T CUT MY HAIR :) No comments on my new look you guys will see it on MONDAY!:) HAHAHA.

Then I walked home alone.

From lot one back to my house.No I didn't take the shortcut.I took the long way alone.Walked past warren,then up ahead the expressway,past kranji,then bus stops,then the familiar 2.4km route,back t limbang,and to my home.All alone :)

No doubt I was afraid and scared.It's like 7pm+ and dont know why it's super dark and scary,esp when you're walking past th expressway w no one but yourself and the cars tht were whizzing past you. Then the school which has no one but the empty,big field in the dark. Plus the fact that I'm super scared of g.(I dont think you guys know wht g is but nvm hahah)

At first I did hasten my pace but after awhile,I got used to and comfortable in the dark.Like amazingly.HAHA.Lots of stuff running through my mind,memories and stuff. The annual roadrun route,how I survived tht dam run w a fever and a flu.Then the 2.4km route.The barrier there.How I haven't ran tht route for such a long long time.Initially when I was approaching there I was scared bcos ppl tell me how that area is haunted at 2am+. But thn memories overcame everything:)

Thn 2.4km route.How I endured every single run w my team mates.I'd never forget the 7.2km run:) I rmb I was super super pooof last time.When I run 2.4km,I'll always say in my heart "west zone top 4" w every 4 steps I take.HAHA.People always roll their eyes at me when they hear me tell them tht though):

And also kranji sec.This school definitely left an impact on me.More when I officially graduate :) 30 more days.And four years just passed like tht. Came and over before we knew it.

So yesterday was good. Although I do have some regrets not staying back for th table tennis/frisbee session.I dont think there're any more of such stuffs so yes .

Tuition later jy jy.

xjxj.

p/s:I've got so many so many things to tell you. Will you listen?

2009-09-24T04:44:00.001-07:00

Things are changing,things have changed.

I FOUND MY NIKE BOTTLE :) Thank god rly.I always fail to be responsible of my own things,esp things tht I cherished a lot.SSC shirt,the notebook and this time the bottle.Sometimes I rly hate myself bcos I always seem t be losing those things.But now I got it back I promise I'll not leave it behind anywhere anytime again!!

Today was good.
I went t school and meet w yk and ps t study cleared most of my questions but still hav lots of stuff t reviseee.After tht,I went t library t find my bottle and yay I found it!! The moment I stepped into th library nad and I spotted the bottle at the counter :) Hehe.

A super funny thing happened I think I'm dam dam funny :D Mr Koh was going through the phy paper w uziel,yk,brandon and I outside the staffroom and we were talking bout the hammer thang.I think uziel got it wrong thn I told him " is use common sense one!!" So I demonstrated.

J:Brandon lend me your hand.

HAHA.You know wht I did.I took his hand and say " you see,if its of a lighter mass the impact not so big right?"

-Hit his hand against the table-

"But if you use a heavier mass will have more impact wht!"

-Hit his hand against the table using a larger force-

Gosh th whole scene is SO hilarious I swear!:D

He ATTEMPTED to take revenge but too bad,failed terribly:D

Headed t mad jack w nadia,zhenyi,peisi,dan and yk after tht.We overshot like TWELVE stops HAHA.So we alighted and took the opposite bus back :)

The food was good and we have tonnes of laughter and fun there:) HAHAA. Had a good time w those nice people and it's like our prelims have ended heh. Dan was learning ripple for no good reasons and we definitely have a hilarious time trying t teach him HAHAHA. His no flow one !

Bus back I love long bus rides cause only then we can talk about anything under the sun esp NETBALL w nadia:) Miss those times.

302 back w dan was awesome as well.We've got an amazing conversation:D He walked me to the traffic light simply cause we're too engrossed in the conversation HAHAHA.

Hmmm gng t sing w peisi and co tml! I wanted t stay back and play frisbee/table tennis but was noted too late and was booked beforehand): A pity since it's like gnna be the last time people gnna get tgt and play sports.Hmm.and...nvm.haha.

Hmm recently idk why i'm missing out too many stuffs(sports,ssc esp) it just happens tht I have activities on hand.Sometimes I dont know I feel rather _____ inside.I dont know whts the word,maybe it's a lil of being apologetic or wht because things are simply too much of a coincidence,tht I myself don't believe it because everything seemed so ___.K i dont know wht I'm talking about either.

There are certain people who really really make an impact on my life.You are definitely one of them.I hope nothing changes this I rly hope so despite whtever things tht happened.

Although I was appear t be nonchalent about certain things,certain people.But the actions and words of my loved ones will rly affect me a lot a lot. To an extent tht I become over-sensitive.

Above is just random thoughts :D Not intended for any particular person.

Last paper tml! Let's do it!:D

xjxj.

p/s:I used to think tht explaining things t people is a chore because I dont rly care if people misunderstand me.I dont see the need of explaining my actions to anybody.If you dont believe me,thn so be it.But something has proved me wrong.

2009-09-23T09:23:00.000-07:00

NADIA.I FINALLY FEEL HOW YOU FELT WHEN YOU DIDN'T HAVE YOUR RED BOTTLE W YOU):

I'm super sad now.I just realised my nike team red bottle is gone.I think I left it at the library when I was borrowing books.

This reminds me of th time I lost my ssc shirt I feel so empty now argh I hate it.

Why am I so careless why will I leave it behind when everytime I leave a place I'd make sure I'll leave anything but the bottle behind sigh sigh I always remind melissa about her bottle whenever she forgets bout it so why did I forget bout it this time suck sucks sucksssssss.

I hope the bottle is still there): If it isn't I'm going to get a new identical one,if there is):):

ARGHX. @$%^#&$%&^$%*&^

I'm super pissed w myself now!!

):):):):):

2009-09-23T02:07:00.001-07:00

You just didn't want t be alone.

2009-09-23T01:33:00.000-07:00

Blogger seems so unfamiliar now! HAHA.Hi people,I'm BACK!:)

It's been super long since I've blogged.I've been rly busy w prelim2.Now we're just left w one paper heh so I'll take some time and blog :)

Prelim2 wasn't good ): All the papers were average but my answers were still crap!):

English compo-Yes yes I wrote a cliche story again ): Can't seem t get any creative.
Situational-I forgot the content but it was done in a super short time cause I spent 1 hour on compo):
Paper2-Difficultttt couldn't do some of the short questions.

Social Studies-I totally screwed the whole paper up! HAHA.I just hope for a pass like srsly.I didn't have time to finish my SBQ):
History-It was much easier compared t SS.Hopefully it can pull my combined humans uppp!

Emaths Paper 1- Easy but lotsa careless mistakes for me ):
Emaths Paper 2- Manageable but I forgot to write reasons for my angle question):

Physics Paper 2- Initially I thought it's okay but turns out I've got quite a number of wrong ans already):Plus brandon said MrKoh is super strict w his marking this time round):

Chemistry Paper 2- Manageable but quite a number of wrong already.

Amaths Paper 1 - Easy so I hope I can score welllll.

Had amaths paper 2 and physics paper 1 . Amaths paper was disastrous ): I dont think I can get distinction already ): I didnt manage to do the last 2 questions and modulus question ): Just hope can get marks here and there. I'm super sad because I worked super super hard for amaths ever since th start of the year.I was looking forward t doing the paper bcos I didn't want t let my tutor down): But srsly.I think I'll score dam badly for this paper like really dam badly.Sigh have to work harder have to work harder have to work harder!!!

Phy paper 1 was okay but I got 5 wrong okay! Me super act smart lets not talk bout it arghxzx):

Left w chem paper 1!GOGOGO.

I hope I can get like B for my eng combined humans and amaths and maybe a2 for my sciences.Btw,I got B3 for my HCL!! HAHAHA.I improved from C6 :) My paper was 60.5 only though:P Owned the mcq w 6/20 :D But my baozhangbaodao got 54/70 which is not bad for a virgin attempt okkkkkk.I haven't done bzbd in an exam for a zillion years since sec 3 heehee.

My amaths is sian sian sian.I need to forget about my amaths plz.

Exams aside,I went jogging on Sunday!!:D I needed a break so I went t run gosh it feels so so so good although my muscles ached like crazy!! HAHA.I shall jog more often zmg zmg -fat legs appearing-

Its been so so long since I've touched a frisbee and netball):

OKAY.I really really need to get a nap now I'm super super shaggeddd ):

Then I'll wake up to read storybook and then do chem.

GO JOCELYN AND FRIENDS :)

xjxj.

It's been sooooo long):

2009-09-10T12:38:00.000-07:00

对不起但我怕我会贪心。

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It's 3.40am.I'm wondering if I should post initially but somehow I just brought myself to this page.
Today on the way back home from school,the weather was so hot tht it nearly killed me.But the weather seemed so familiar.The warmth and scorching sun.I missed trainings.Miss Yeo's trainings as well.

I remember how ting,mel,ginny and I would always eat at limbang's foodcourt (you mian EVERYTIME) before training at 2pm and after training at 12pm.
I remember how we sat together around the round table and crapped like crazy.When we have friendly matches/carnivals coming up,we'd always discuss our strategies and spy about the schools HAHA.(maybe only me :X)
I remember how tough miss yeo's trainings were,but I also remembered how we survived through it.
I remember that training where we ran for 7.2km straight for punishment,yet we survived through it.
I remember enduring the stupid ____ pain and despite feeling so drained I still managed t survive the training.
I remember how we always had to run a 2.4km before every single training,and how I looked forward t it because I wanted t create my breakthrough.
I remember meeting amanda(when she was still a shooter) at lot one mac early in the morning just t have breakfast and then together we'd board the very quiet bus to school just to complete our shooting sets.That morning rained.It was scary it was dark at 6.50am we were so cold shooting in e canteen.After tht we'd train in the hall.
I remember how miss yeo asked us to write a netball journal I just took it out and read ytd . As I read I smiled I really smiled because everything was so detailed and vivid.
I remember how we always have to do push ups on the burning parade square as punishments we drop a ball and how my knees always got scraped a lil.
I remember how the shooting record paper in my file reminded me tht I have to do my shooting sets every day.
I remember feeling so guilty during the holidays for not completing my shooting sets or tht I know I could have done more,then I'll go back alone to complete my shooting sets.
I remember how good it feels to shoot alone in the parade square with no disruptions/nearly no one but the wind and the pole.
I remember how people would always ask "why so emo!","why shoot alone?" whenever they see me shooting alone and skipping as punishments alone.
I remember meeting nadia bout an hour or even 2 hours before training to complete our shooting set.Then we'd each take the both ends of the court and do our shooting individually.
I remember how happy I was to finish my shooting set because I know it's only then I can tell miss yeo confidently and honestly I did wht I have to and want to.
I remember training tgt under the hot sun when miss yeo always drag training till 12pm++ when its supposed to end at 11am.Nevertheless we enjoyed ourselves thoroughly.
I remember playing courtgame continuously for an hour just because ms yeo wasn't happy with our play.
I remember how miss yeo's silence could kill every single one of us.We're not scared if she starts screaming and shouting.But when she's quiet and looking stern,we'd start t fear.
I remember doing the passes at the quadrangle,and how proud melissa and I would feel whenever we didn't drop any pass when doing static passes.
I remember how we have to do physical training every friday,and how tiring it was w the medicine ball.
I remember how miss yeo tortured me by punishing my teammates when I was e one who missed the shot.
I remember how once in a while when miss yeo is high we'd play games tgt.
I remember how fun miss yeo can be despite being so stern everytime.
I remember every single friendly match and the scores.
I remember I quietly sat down at one corner during the ssc chalet just to pen my thoughts bout tht day's training and how I missed netball for tht moment.
I remember miss yeo telling us tht we have t gel as a team,work together as one.
I remember the suicide runs,circuit,footwork etc we have t do.
I remember lobbing to nadia almost every single game,how we worked together when we didn't even communicate.
I remember how I know when she wants the ball by the look on her face.
I remember how I enjoyed working w ting and mel,attackers for so many years.
I remember how miss ong would teach mel and i the codes for center pass,and we have SO MUCH telepathy tht we'd hit each other at the same time and go out tgt for the same pass.
I remember how badly we cried for mgs match.
I remember how ms ong would always urge us before games and telling us t give our best.
I remember how soft miss ong was,and the approach she's taken was completely different from miss yeo.
I remember how we dared t joke w miss ong and crap with her.
I remember how we always enjoy the last bit of the training cause it's like full court game for very very long.
I remember skipping workshops/i.ps just t attend training and improve ourselves.
I remember how miss ong instilled e element of fun in trainings by playing some games as warm up.
I remember how excited nadia and i got when we wanted to know how our coach were like.
I remember how angry some of us were when we knew netball trainings were postponed again and again.
I remember how it feels like putting your very very best in each and every game.
I remember the satisfaction we get after we win a game,put in a shot,or intecepted a ball.
I remember how badly we wanted to win,how determined we got on court.
I remember the times when I know I can do better,and how I always blamed myself irritating others.
I remember how nadia and i would always discuss over sms about our strategies and thoughts after games.
I remember planning with mel on the phone bout our second round.
I remember how I always felt tht I could have done better,and expect even more.
I remember how my teammates were so pissed at me for clashing into their space,rushing the game,making too many unforced errors.
I remember how angry mel and i would always feel during the game,yet we'd both feel guilty after tht.
I remember how many times I've lost a ball in a match,yet the defenders and yuting somehow would get it back and soon the ball is turned over again.
I remember how I never had to fear with yuting playing the midcourt and defense side.
I remember how awesome my team has played in certain games.
I remember the games whereby the attackers would be so on form yet the defenders were off form,and also the days the defenders were marvallous yet the attackers were underperforming.
I remember th teachers,teammates,coach and everythinggg.

Yes I remembered every single thing.And it all flow back at once just because of the weather which is so so familiar this afternoon.

These memories,so close to my heart,seemed so magical and awesome.
Now I know wht's unforgettable memories.

xjxj.

2009-09-04T08:10:00.000-07:00

Used to enjoy telling you stuffs.But not now.It's just not the same anymore.
现在已成了曾经。

2009-09-04T08:08:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I really hate the things you say,the look you give.
If you don't know what is going on,then don't comment.

2009-08-28T19:10:00.000-07:00

Long time since I've updated.
Hmm I went down for netball yesterday t play some matches since it's like a friday.Played like bout 5 quarters?GA GA C GA GA.

It's fun.And yes I really really enjoyed myself.But when I reached home and started thinking bout the training I was extremely down.

My shots are not going in.
I keep clashing into other people.
I keep snatching my teammates' places.
I can't come out for centre pass.
I can't even support when mel and yt bring down the ball.
I can't even intecept a ball.
I always feel pissed off when my shots didn't go in yet I'm not going for rebounds.

I don't show it. But I'll be disappointed in myself of course.Although it's not like the seasons period,but it's rly pissifying and irritating to see myself play so horribly.

I'm sure people may think I'm just too ____ and making a fuss out of a netball training.Thts the reason why I didn't tell anyone.They must have think I'm ____.I have stepped down alrea.So it's natural t lose touch with netball.Its like,I haven't been training much yet I want to improve.Why th hell am I expecting so much?Yes I know.But the point is I'm not happy. I dont know whts the reason but all I know is I really dont feel good.

And I can tell you thts not the worse.I sprained my left ankle for the fourth time.
xjxj.

2009-08-14T02:08:00.001-07:00

I'm sorry for being the one who never gives in.

National Day + Leader's day.

2009-08-08T04:38:00.000-07:00

NATIONAL DAY/

Friday was really an amazing day because of leader's day + national's day.The only regret I have is tht I wasn't involved in the class decoration because of leader's day.Plus,I didn't contribute much except for the materials and stuff.So sincere apologies to 4E'09 I rly wished I could be part of the whole thing.

We've got super good news to share!:D 4E'09 BROUGHT HOME THE 2 AWARDS OUT OF THE 2 COMPETITIONS.THE REDDEST CLASS + CLASS DECORATION(Actually it's not announced.But I'm sure we'll get it heehee) AWARDSSS :) Gladys and I were super happy when Miss Lai came to tell us bout the good news.At the waiting area we totally screamed and jumped teehee.

After the leader's day+phototaking session Gladys and I returned in time for the judging.Took photos,stoned as we waited for the judges to come.I was really so so tired.I was perspiring like crazy,going up and down to take bag/photos/wait for peeps. Took bunny photos with Miss Lai hehe . Btw,4E-ians,Miss Lai have uploaded the pictures into the photobucket.http://s300.photobucket.com/albums/nn4/4B2008/National%20Day%202009/ Do check it out :)I love the class photo(although w/o the audience and leaders)cause I think it looks great :)

Oh btw,did I mention,the moment I stepped into the classroom,I was so so so impressed and wowed.In my heart I was like "wtf?"(in a good way of course).The class' spirit was just so amazingly impressive.The whole decoration thing was done within such a short time.We only discussed it at the last few periods at the end of thurs' lesson.And the end product was beautiful,it was REALLY beautiful. I love the lightings and the super cute duck.Thank you 4E for being so amazing.And all the efforts you all put in really touched me. A million thanks t everyone.

So yeah,in the end,I dont know who told the vp and principal bout' our class.They came up and took a look.Hehe.In the end 4E's gonna have lessons in the spin room on tuesday cause our class will be put up for an exhibition tht day?! Thts like uber cool plz :D Super funny,when mdm lee saw the stones around the durians(esplanade) she was like " tht looked familiar" then someone blurted out we stole it from the foyer.HAHAHAHHA.Yes we totally stole it on thursday.After the rehearsal I saw yk zy yf they all stealing so I went to help.So we one by one pass to each other while standing there pretending to look around HAHAHHAHAH .It was super funny.

But in e end the vp defended us by saying " initiative" It was super funny!! But of course we've to put the stones back :X Mdm lee was shocked when she saw the stones teehee:D Yeah the whole thing was just so amazing and cooooooool :D Luv 4E'09 (dont worry I also love 2A'06) hehe.

Here're some photos t share!(Photo credits to Mel/John)

Sunny island(1)!

Sunny island(2)!

Sunny island(3)!

LEADERS' DAY/

Today was also an important day for the leaders in the school.It was the handover ceremony!Reported at bout 7.15am. The girls had a hard time changing in the toilet.My skirt keeps dropping despite putting on the belt+folding 2 times.It's like a step I take the skirt will move one time zz.Plus,the skirt keep going offsides it's pissing me like shit! In the end we were like really late so quickly rushed to the parade square to make it in time for the ceremony.

In the end,we waited quite long for the whole ceremony to start.The morning sun was a killer and we all perspired like crazyyy!Spent the time taking photos and I rushed to poke a hole in najiha's collar in case I can't poke at the moment hehe . Dam dumb,I was holding the collar pin in the hand then I go poke my own finger.Now my finger's got a hole ):

Yeah,another funny thing.Weihong passed me 2 collar pins in case I drop one -__- so I've got 2 in case. After he passed me one,I dropped one.But luckily no one saw hehe.Was talking to Kiayi,saw 2 collar pins on her hands as well and here goes our conversation(something like tht).

J : HAHA.I think they think we very blur toot and careless thts why we're only the 2 who've got 2 collar pins in case.
K : Oh,no.One for prefect and one for SSC.

WTH.I was dam paiseh pls. I wanted to tease her.In the end I realised I'm the only one who's got extra pins zzz.

Yeah so the ceremony started I wasn't nervous for it.Instead I was super super nervous my skirt would like drop or sth I think I asked Kiayi to check my back for like 10 times ): I was holding so tightly to my skirt while walking.

Passed to Najiha for the secretary post jiayou girl :) Make ssc proud :D

The climax was when the emcee forgot bout weihong.He's like the PRESIDENT?! Dam funny,Mr How was like hinting the emcee for so dam lots of times and it took a rather long time for her to realise it.She even announced the handing over thing and we were so hesitant bout pinning th collar pin t our juniors.Luckily things turned out fine in the end hehe :)

Phototaking after tht it was so cool.Took netball photos,4E photos and SSC photos.I luv the 4E jumpshot it was HILARIOUS. Something awkward happened though hehe. Yeahhhh after tht rushed back to classroom for the judging yup.

After school went to read books+frisbee.Yes friday's my playing day heh :) I'll pay it back during the weekends though.It was super fun.We played at the field and my goal now is to throw FULL BASE HAHAHHA.Like quite impossible but I managed to throw 3/4(okay nothing big but still yay!)

Heh,the fun part was when we took photos.I think altogether I spent 1 hour taking photos?Cause I wanna capture the perfect shot = ballerina+frisbee+catch in air+cool teehee :D I was perspiring like crap the back of my shirt is like WET cause I just ran so many times! Thn the guys did something stupid.They went to take the bench and pretend tht they're diving.FAILED OF COURSE.HAHAHA.

Then,took a group photo in the end and we uhm,knew a new friend :D HAHAHA.No elaboration on tht :D

Headed home and did work. Yup tht's all for friday :) Photos!(credits to john/faridah)

I love this picture!We are all smiling so happily:)

I was really scared+nervous!!

Dan.L and I with my chocolate icecreammm.(Oh well,his usual smile HAHA)

Group photo before the whole ceremony starts!

Gee.Told you I was so afraid my skirt would drop hehe.

They were waiting for Gladys and me hehe.We were taking class photos I think.

Exco 08/09(1)

Exco 08/09(2)

STANLEY'S FLYING HAHAHA.

I came up with this idea to kick Subby hehe :X (Note fatty khenghian's expression)

RANDOM!

All smiles:D

Where are we looking at?! teehee.

Looking far!

Anw,here're 2 photos ( the third one looks so whitey so I'm nt gonna post it up ) taken after training during adam khoo's workshop.THE BEAUTIFUL RAINBOW everyone talked bout tht time . And..I made a wish :)

Credits t John/Mel.

Beautiful rainbow.

I didn't know I was so tanned during the seasons hehe. Mel's muscular plz!

Work time,till then.

xjxj.

2009-08-05T12:38:00.000-07:00

Chem spa was screwed.I think I wrote variables t be changed/constant wrongly ): I think I repeated one of them zz.

Anw.It's like 3.40am now.I totally slept from 7pm-11pm.I think I'm screwing my own health cause I think we're supposed t rest from 11am-2am righttt? Hehe.I'm like super wide awake nowwwwww I think I'm not going t sleep tday.

Alright just finished work.I think I shall go tidy and pack my stuff now.

Jyjyycddi :)

Whts tht!? It's jia you jocelyn yeoh you can definitely do it.

HAHA LAME.BYEBYE.

xjxj.

p/s:I dont like you pls suck my toesssss!

2009-08-04T05:50:00.000-07:00

Here for a quick update.

Haven't had the chance to update this blog.Anw,school's been really busy and I shall update this blog every weekend :)

Yeap. Work work and more work.But somehow I'm enjoying it :) I miss trainings terribly.'s been months since I've stepped down but I still miss those times when I would attend training immediately after school. I'm gng t go back every friday t play court games heh :)

Back to work.I can do this.I can.

xjxj.

2009-07-27T03:02:00.001-07:00

Actually deep down I knew why I was crying so dam hard.

2009-07-26T08:47:00.000-07:00

Who am I.

Am finally back.

2009-07-25T06:10:00.000-07:00

I'm finally back after a week of MIA w/o proper posts hahah.

Anw I just finished a 3-hour long of tuition and yes it was rly super mentally draining because my tutor wants me to analyse the questions and explain to him how I solve it etc. It's rly helping me a lot and yes I anticipate more of these drilling sessions hahah.

I shall update on Zhenyi's birthday celebration/surprise wahahah.

Thanks to my dear girl I totally woke up at an amazing time of 6am! Thts like my earliest probably in my sec 3 and 4 lives. Received a call from bestfriend(brandon) and turned out he's sick.He's still sick now so take care.Think of me more and you'd recover soon HAHA. It will totally work teeheex. So rushed to school and despite waking up so early I'm still late tsk!! Luckily zy's later so everything's fine :)

The atmosphere was a lil dead cause it's like in the morning and so lil people reached the classroom ): Anw,hope she likes the mini surprise sunny island gave her :D Lessons started so bored please haha. Okay anw I totally forgot wht lessons we had tht day so nvm.

Anw,let's hop to end of school!(hop-hop-hop) Deep inside I was a lil nervous and scared cause zy was sick and I was so so afraid she won't be hyped out during the whole amazing race we organised for her.But glad things turned out fine :) The whole thing was rather funny you should rly see the video zhenyi dribbles the bball at danc's station man.I swear it's ... HILARIOUS. HAHAHA.

Anw,final celebration in the canteen and I totally love it.It's been long nikar had all these gatherings and although not everyone is there,I still enjoyed myself greatly and had tonnes of fun and laughter :) Esp when I see ps and js together hehh:D Hopefully the birthday girl enjoys herself too :D

Yup.I really really hate H1N1 :( It's likee. depriving us of so many fun activities :( NDP's cancelled(yes totally turned into a classroom celebration),cultural fiesta's postponed etc tht really sucks ): I miss those school gatherings x a million): School's so dead and boring now.But on the other hand,I guess we can totally focus on our O lvls.

Anw,prelims1 is over ,got back results and yes I'm not satisfied.I know I can definitely do much better.Esp those careless mistakes I always fail to identify for maths ): I can't believe it.I can differentiate the first part and integrate the second half of eqn. 2x4=2 AMAZING RIGHT!! I wonder how I passed my psle hahahha.And i totally got Cs for my chinese and combined humans.I wanted an A1 so badly but I just have to screwed things up.For chi,I failed my paper 1 like 29/70 but luckily my paper2pulled me up. But anw it's over.I'll definitely work harder for prelims 2 I promise.

PTM was BORING.Totally ended off within 5 minutes.This was my comment in the report slip :
Jocelyn is a curious and determined student.She is always asking good questions and seeking ways in which to improve herself.

HAHAHA.I ask good questions leh!!:D I always thought my questions were dumb and nonsensical:( But sometimes I wonder how determined I really is at studies.The improving thing I agree.Because I don't like to be stuck at the same spot when people had already moved on.

Yeap.I will do better.

I shot a lil yesterday.It feels really good.I discovered tht satisfaction doesn't just come alone from courtgames.When you put games aside,shooting can be as enjoyable too:) And yes I can't believe I used to detest shooting.I was super pressurised when I play my postion,esp after what miss yeo did. She totally made me shoot consecutive shots from 5 diff positions and with every shot I miss,the team had to run a 2 laps without me.

And that really hurts. I cried after th whole thing but cos it really hurts.miss yeo asked if i still wanted to continue.Even thou I was affected but I know I didnt want to give up just like tht.Eventually I still didnt manage to complete the whole thing.I was so affected by it. My shots started to go downhill for a period after that. But I know miss yeo did it to make the shooters realise tht how important putting my shots in is.

Okay I totally side tracked but yeah.Shooting is still fun! HAHA.

Yeap.I have TONNES to blog about but my mind is a total blank right now.So yeah,will continue next time:)

Mr Tan's history book is with me. I have to copy all the points before I return to him the book so I'll stop now.Jiayoux.

I'm missing some stuffs now.

xjxj.

Happy sweet 16 to lovely zhenyi and sweet melissa.t!

2009-07-23T06:32:00.001-07:00

Happy 16th birthday to Shumzhenyi and MelissaTan! All the best in whtever you do okay :)

Blogger is dam screwed.I'm here for this REALLY short update.

The reason I haven't been blogging is because I'm busy with work+zy bday stuffs I think I'll update during th weekends or sth :)

Anw,before I'm off to study for th chinesep1, I just wanna say something.

Nobody,or anyone has the right to look down on you.Only you yourself can underestimate your own ability. So have faith in yourself. You are definitely much more than who you think you are.

Thts something I've learned through some down periods and now it's wht I often say to myself.

FIGHT.

xjxj.

2009-07-14T05:42:00.000-07:00

Today,I got hit down hard.

Netball

2009-07-12T03:32:00.003-07:00

Was doing some self reflection last night.

Then it comes down to netball again.

I think I'm a completely different person off court and on court.Off court I'm known to be blur,silly etc etc but on court I'm a totally different person. People tell me I look fierce,look serious etc.

Sometimes,I don't know if I'm fit to be a team player.During the seasons,I shouted,I screamed at my team mates for not fighting at their best.But Miss Ong once said something - Everyone has their off-form days. I probably forgot this whenever I'm on court.

Maybe it's because the hunger to overcome our opponents is too strong,maybe it's because I want to win so much that made me so impatient on court.I was never an encourager.I get pissed off,I get angry when I feel that my team mates are not fighting hard.

But somehow I forgot some things can't be controlled.You're on court,you want to put up a good game,you want to give your best,but something's just pulling you back. It just happened that you're having one of your off-form days.You didn't want it,you didn't mean it either.

I feel like I'm forcing my expectations on others.Before I step on court,I have certain expectations towards myself.I would tell myself wht I want my shooting percentage to be,how I'm not supposed to make any unforced errors etc.So I assumed others to be the same too.

Thinking back,that's really selfish of me.I shout at my team mates like I don't make mistakes ( in fact I do most of the games ) I forgot I myself will make mistakes too. I forgot in the midst of achieving what I feel is the best for the team,I would hurt others through my words.

Everytime after a game,I tell myself,it's not enough,it's not enough.So wht exactly do you define enough?In fact enough doesn't exist at all.People keep improving,and you have to improve too.So I thought I should improve,my team mates should improve too.But it's so selfish,people have different rates of change,and some doesn't just change over a week or so.Even I myself can't do it,so who am I to expect others to do the same?

I believe when every single player steps on court,they aim to put in their best.Sometimes,things just don't go the way they want.They're already trying dam hard,but it's just not coming out.I myself chance upon this kind of situation too. And,when people are already very demoralised having not able to be on form,someone just shouts at you and further demoralise you.I guess that pretty much sucks.

I know the seasons period has passed for 5 months already.But these are the stuffs I really want to say.It's been long,some might already forgot,or some might still have the impression,but I still wanna say sorry to every single one in the team. A late apology perhaps,but a sincere one.

Last night I felt that although netball has pushed me further,it somehow made my character ugly too.

Afterall,encouragements are still the best to push people on when they're down. Taking a step back,netball is not only a platform for me to reach out for my goals,I've to learn to care and love as well.

From today onwards,I'll learn to be an encourager:)

xjxj.

p/s:For the twins plz fulfil what you two promised me in the birthday cards ok! Remember,to play netball is a gift, so cherish it. :)

2009-07-12T03:32:00.001-07:00

追不到，也抓不牢。

Doubts.

2009-07-10T09:20:00.000-07:00

Is it you, or is it me?

So we're now left with the 2 sciences MCQ.Hmm.Amaths was crap,srsly.It's just till th extent tht I dont wanna think how badly I'll fare.

After exams,headed t pizza with a few nikars t have lunch.We're like the 1st group of customers!!:) Tried th curry chicken so spicy x100million!
So th nikar people were ps,zy,yk,a,yt,dan and me!:D

Went t peisi's house t play mahjong for like 5hours HAHA,quite cool right!:D Heh.It's dam fun and I finally know how t make combo.I only won the first few sets cause they only play 1 tai. After tht I lose all th way zz hahaha.

It's super funny and mahjong and ultrafun plz!:) I have a great time with them lovex3 hahaha.twit nei.

Camwhore after tht zmg we've got really stupid-looking photos HAHA.Headed t pastamania for dinner. Reached home at 8pm+.

Overall today(until now I hope) is a very happy day :D

I miss netball suddenly.But I'm not rly in the competitive mode now.I just hope cca will resume next week or so,so I can have th chance,touch the ball,shoot,and do passes.And yes I'll be satisfied.

Sometimes things don't go th way we want them to,do they?

I think this is like the one and only normal looking photos.

Zhenyi and me catfighting.(Zhenyi's like vibrating HAHA)

Totally quarrelling.HAHA.

Failed shot.

Spastic.

1 2 3 4 5 6 7

Why emo?):

AUNTY LUCY HAHAHAH.

Last but not least,picture of the day.

-drumrolls-

PLEASE LOOK AT SHUM ZHEN YI.HAHAHAHA.

xjxj.

2009-07-09T05:19:00.000-07:00

Haven't been blogging.Have been sleeping at 3am++ this week.It's like I'm immune to the sleeping thing already.I feel tired,I want to sleep,but I can't sleep.

Anw,I really screwed up prelim 1 big time.My chem was rly bad ): Phy was stupid cause I totally did the q wrongly on th 1st page. SS and history were tough and I totally lost like 20marks immediately(yes no joke). Amaths was worse tday,I got all my integration wrong yes all. ):I'll be happy if I pass my maths and combined humans.

I think this just tells me that I have t work harder for prelim2. Time to put all these down and move on.It's not the time to cry over spilled milk,not the time to dwell on it even further.It's time to move on.

I just need more than determination,and yes,I'll get it over and done with.

xjxj.

Shagged.

2009-07-05T07:09:00.000-07:00

I'm real shagged now.I slept @ 3am after I finished reading the storybook.The story is not bad but dave pelzer's a child called it is still way better.

Woke up today and started work at bout 1.30 till 4.30pm then I had breakfast+lunch+dinner then went back t work at bout 6pm and studied till 10pm now.Lots of memorising to be done and yes I think I rly challenged myself to my limit cause I feel like vomitting now): Like really vomit when I see those piles of ws.

But I'm proud of myself today.Cause I didn't even touch the com till now .Hahah,a lot of people can do tht,but to me it's a mission impossible.

Yesterday night was crap.Thought bout lots of stuffs and it's tormenting,rly.I miss you then but not since.

I think I really need a break now. Shall watch tv for an hour then read through ss I want a1 for ss so I must jiayou.

xjxj.

2009-07-04T09:02:00.001-07:00

Can.someone.talk.to.me.now.

Additional maths is my new love!:D

2009-07-04T04:06:00.000-07:00

Today was crazy.

I slept at 12am ytd,woke up at 11am today.Realised I slept too much so I started work at 12pm till 4.30pm doing amaths.Tutor late so he came at 5pm.Had lessons till 7pm.So that's like 7hours of amaths.Minus 1.5 eating and slacking time HAHA.

Super siao bout amaths now.I love amaths!!hahaha! Make up lesson this tues jiayou me.

Chemistrying after dinner later.BYE!:D

xjxj.

2009-07-03T21:11:00.000-07:00

A very simple misunderstanding can easily break the connection of two.

How's life for you,my dear friend?

2009-07-02T19:44:00.000-07:00

人会变。

16th birthday.

2009-06-30T04:00:00.001-07:00

[editted/]

Today is my 16th birthday!Can't believe I'm already 16 now hahaha.It's not rly a VERY significant day to me so last night I was quite deadddd.But anw,thanks for everyone who made my birthday a very happy one tday!!:)

A million thanks to :

-Those who actually bothered t stay up last night t wish me at 0000 sharp!
-People who wished me happy birthdayy!:)
-Netballers for the surprise(yes it is unexpected) though the atmosphere was a lil dead with th h1n1 thing but still I appreciate it and I love you guys a lot:)
-Zhenyi,Yongkian,Brandon,Uziel,Danchia for the steamboat treat,pig soft toy and pig balloon.(Surprise though failed but I still love you guys th same)
-Nikars who chipped in for the mug(totally my attitude),storybook,super sweet card (melts my heart.)and J notebook.
-Nikars who lunched @ pastamania with me yes I enjoyed the lunch cause we had tonnes of laughters.
-Zhenyi for the noticeboard it's super sweet and creative esp the J haha!And the card the cartoon so cute lol! I love the photos totally.
-Yongkian for the super huge card with SO many unglam photos of me!Still I love it.
-Melissa for the super super cute miss sunshine card.Yes I admit it's really nice and sweeeeet :)
-Peisi for the jojo and puiksee adventures I rly love it.I can't stop smiling t myself when I'm reading it:)
-Nadia for the super super sincere and long birthday card I love you as much as you love me muah.
-Brandon for the birthday card I was really amazed by your creativity and yes I love the story:)
-Uziel for the pig storybook HAHA,although th msg is short and sweet it's still amazing :)
-Zhenyi,Yongkian,Melissa,Uziel,Brandon for the bouquet of lollipops(38 lollipops! I'll eat them when I'm sad) and snoopy!!
-Ginny for the super super lovely and sweet card I love the spaghetti thing x 10000000 and the super soft piggggg (I'll put them on my bed)
-Ada for the super sweet gift I'll use them for sure thanks a million girl:)
-Subhaan for the really unexpected gift and super cute + lovely PIG card HAHA.
-Meihui and Meixuan for the amazing cards I love it :) HAHA.Bring back th trophy k:) I'm be waiting for it muah.

Today the moment I went t school I keep asking nadia for my bday card!Haha.Why?Cause I love cards :) I think they're the most sincere gifts EVER.I'm not those i-want-this-i-want-that kind cause I have most of the things I want.Cards can make me smile from the bottom of my heart.Whenever I feel down/sad,I'll take out notes from my friends and that'd definitely cheer me up and push me on. So thank you everyone for the cards & th presents also:)

Things' been so different. ):

xjxj.

p/s:Have t use th com lesser now. Prelims' next week.But I'll still update once in a while:)

Sixteen not.

2009-06-29T10:26:00.001-07:00

Happy birthday to myself.

First day of school.

2009-06-29T07:08:00.001-07:00

I was super excited for school! I slept at like 4am+ cause I couldn't sleep @ all ): ):

Hmm,however,school wasn't as good as I expected though.First thing in the morning I woke up late ): I woke up @ like 6.40am :/ Entered the school gate and everything is so different.It's not like the usual morning when everyone is in the parade square catching up with one another,reading the newspaper and crapping.The parade square feels so empty due t H1N1.

I was greeted by mrlau,security guard,mrkong,mrong wearing mask :/

Entered classroom and srsly,I'm not making fun of anyone or whoever BUT after the holidays I feel that I've became super tanned and others become so fairrrr.I looked so tanned among them.):

Anw,briefing on H1N1 and took temp etc.Sat in examination format and everything just seemed so... foreign.Hmm.PE was so cold.Not like other days when I see other classes playing frisbee,kicking football.Hmm.I hate it):

Lessons were very monotone as well.Except for MsLai's lesson but I dislike the current seating arrangement cause it's like so separated ): Maths was fun with integration and differentiation thou I really hate the fact that given an equation I differentiate the first half and integrate the other half.

After school went t find mdm yong t edit our compo etc mine was kinda hugely out of point so I need t write again later yeapp Mdmyong said I just need more life experiences haha.Then I have t write a mindmap for her so I sat outside the hod room with dan.l then all those crap started again.

Looked at the canteen and parade square and everywhere is so coldddd.People are being chased back home by mr lau and it's totally not the usual scene I feel dam empty and lost.I know I always go like "shit i feel dam lost " but srsly I feel dam aimless just now in school as I did my mindmap.I know it's because of the H1N1 case but I really dislike this feeling): It's not like I have t play frisbee/netball BUT seeing others playing the sports just make me very happy. Sighhx.

Went mac and headed home.Supposed t go out but slept in the end cause I was really shagged and upset . Woke up and yeah gotta do my chinese maths and touch up on my eng later.

So t sum it up,first day in school wasn't as fabulous as I thought ): I really really hate this feeling in me.

xjxj.

HAPPY!

2009-06-28T09:33:00.000-07:00

I'm happy happy now :D

Hehe finally completed my meiwen.I wrote a story didn't care hope it'll be accepted by mdm yong pretty please cause I spent quite long on it ): Not like I want t get through cause it's like competing with zhonghua/sji people their chinese is like freaking good :/ but I just hope mdm yong doesn't reject my work :/

Finished my english compo too! My story is kinda weird :/ Nvm.

Okay gnna chiong a bit of chinese but I know I wont touch paper1 hahaha.

School's tml YIPPEE!

xjxj.

End of holidays SPEECH

2009-06-28T04:26:00.000-07:00

Okay,school's gonna reopen in like (let me count)....
12hours!!
Heh,I wouldn't complain how much I dread school etc etc cause I kinda miss school you know :) I miss my friends,my class,recess,after school and the teachers!I miss mslai,msleong and mdmyong somehow!!HAHA.

But I still miss morning assembly the most :) I still remember it always rain every morning before holidays begin and we always had t assemble in the classroom.I think tml we gonna assemble in classroom due t H1N1 again awww ):

Anw,I still have 1/2 unfinished homework godddd): PE for th 1st 2 period tml! I think I still can rmb th timetable by heart HAHA PE,english,sh,maths,chinese,chem,phy.Correct? XD

Okie,I'm quite excited t go t school now (Dont call me a geek pls) cause I'm missing the fun in schooool XD PLUS,I haven't worn my school shoes and uniform for veh long already heh :D

Shit,I srsly can't believe I'm going gaga over school-reopening.

On a heavier note,this just means tht Olvls is approaching and yes I still have A LOT t catch up :(

Dont care.Me going to play imaginary netball tml I miss it!!:)

So yeah this holidays' been fine.Lots of work...but also have fun in between :) One thing I would regret is tht I've failed t catch up with some of my friends.In the midst of busy work,people just neglected other things around them and yup I admit I'm one of them.People we must talk more during recess/whenever ok.

I'm SUPER scared I can't wake up on time tml ): The earliest I've woke up this holidays(like proper time) is like 7am?Crap right hahaha. I'm super scared I end up waking up @ like 7am+ ? heh.

xjxj.

):

2009-06-28T00:49:00.001-07:00

I'M SO SAD NOW ):
I finally have got the inspiration to write my meiwen with a slight recount of the title but peisi just told me tht one can only be written as compo and not story.Wht's the difference?! I dont know ):

I called like super many people but nobody answered my call I'm so lost now and well done cause I had to lose the entry form):

Shall go dig for it for the 100th time.

xjxj.

I HAVE A NEW PET!

2009-06-27T10:13:00.000-07:00

HAHA.Steamboat was great :)

After tuition bathed and stuff. I think I'm super funny.Cause I'm super slow in preparing and stuff,so when Daniel.C smsed me asking what station I'm at,I replied "Home station" HAHAHA Funny right! Okay maybe not.

So arrived there at like 8pm and started crapping.I ate like super lil cause I'm super not hungry idkw.Hahaha.But after that I ate hotdogs,prawns,and chicken wings!! All so kiddish :( Sidetracking a lil,tht time my mommy bought yong tau foo for me.I'm super happy cause yong tau foo is such a matured food!HAHAHA.So excitedly I went t open the cover and tadah.Hotdogs,vegetables,crabmeat,fishball all so children can!):

Anw,chatted,laughed and it was great cause it's been a long time since we actually sat down and talked like this luv themm:) In between Brandon suddenly got up and said he wanted to shit cause he's having a stomachache so dan.c accompanied him I followed cause I wanted to wash my hands but brandon was gone?! Zhenyi was very convincing,she told me maybe he went other toilet cause there's only one toilet and he didn't want t stink the toilet hahaha I totally believed pleaseee.

After that played caiquan with uziel ykian and zhenyi totally ownage I'm like super cai quan queen + scissors paper stone queen! :D:D I stood up cause I wanted t eat chicken wings then I saw this super tall figure hiding behind the pillar then I saw danielc holding a cake.The moment he saw me he straight away squat down say stomachache :/

HAHA,so the birthday surprise plan was spoilt by the very clever mee!:) In the end I still acted along laa ahahaha.Cut cake,made a wish(I hope it'll come true) and continued eatingggg :D :D

Climax was when we played jigoba to finish the unfinished food i kept winning initially but ever since danc and brand joined in I kept losing!!): Roarrrr!

At bout 11pm we headed homeeee had a very very hearty chat with danc and brand on the bus :)

Thank you my lovely island for the pleasant birthday surprise,cake,treat and PIGSSS:D:D.Although I kinda spoilt it but I rly rly appreciate all your sweeeeeeeet thoughts:) I'm touched plzz hehe :D I HAVE A NEW PET NOW HAHAH:) Love you guys x a million times muahh!:) Ty to Superzuperyuper , Tuperyuperkuper , UuperLuper , BuperOuper , DuperCuper!! :D

No pictures cause ZUPERYUPER refuses to upload MY pictures humph!):

xjxj.

p/s:Muper Fuper although you're not there but you're still missed by us ok!!

Steamboat

2009-06-27T03:45:00.001-07:00

Hello!My tuition just ended and it was great.I spent the 2 hours asking my tutor dam lots of questions :/ hahaha. Luckily he's not pissed or whtever.He even praised and encouraged me HAHAHA.Finally cleared my amaths but I still left 2papers :/

Okay.Me going to bathe and meet lovely island now BYEBYE!:)

xjxj

2009-06-26T11:28:00.001-07:00

Happy 16th birthday t Emiliaaaa!:)

It's like going to 2.30am now and I'm still wide awake oh noooo . I think I should like force myself t sleep or something.Recently I've been really obedient,sleeping at bout 12am+ already but tday I just couldn't get t sleeeeeeeeep ohdear!

Btw I had a SUPER ZUPER YUPER(HAHAHA) filling meal just now vegetables+tofu+prawns+crabs it was awesome I love it!! Okay,quite sinful too:X But it's okay I think since I only had whipped potato for breakfast and lunch HAHA :)

Ok,I shall TRY to sleep now:) Steamboat tml with island yumyum:) Tuition tml I can FINALLY clear my doubts.I'm clueless bout ln graphs):

I love kiwi!! HAHA. I ate 4 in 2 days y' know!! I drank lots of lemon barley+kiwi+seafood recently omg!

xjxj.

p/s:Failed waiting but still waited.

Goals

2009-06-26T01:20:00.000-07:00

Have you ever asked yourself what're your goals in life?What do you intend to do?Where do you intend to head to?

People need to have goals.We're nothing without goals.Goals can guide us,pull us through the tough times and bring us up when we're down.Yes we do experience the downs in our life.Even the strongest falls.But the strength lies in falling hard but getting up even tougher and stronger than before.And yes goals can direct us.

Yeah so people start setting goals and fight hard for them.Because your goals belong to you and only you.Nobody can ever steal it away from you.

START FIGHTING:)

xjxj.

:(

2009-06-25T23:06:00.000-07:00

Changed blogskin againnn hahaha. I can't seem to find the ideal one but nvm.

Shittt I've been blogging so much that my street netball competition+mryeo's farewell post no longer appear!hahaha.This is a super random post btw.

Can't believe school's gonna reopen in like 2 days' time.Okay,gonna do maths now.Chinese papers are super tough! I don't even understand the passageeeeee):

xjxj.

Lie,

2009-06-25T04:46:00.001-07:00

I thought everything was fine..?

In a blink of an eye...

2009-06-25T01:29:00.000-07:00

Okay after some physics tday,I went to read nadia blog's archives and god I miss those days when we just kept going out and have funnn!Her past posts are super funny,bout netball etc etc and I remember she used t call me ahtoot while I call her ahtootoot.Life is so carefree in lower secondary but once I finished reading I got slapped back to reality.

In a blink of an eye..

Yes I know this is a super cliche phrase but how true is it?

Was thinking it's gonna be a few more months and we're gonna get seperated and go to different schools.We wouldn't be able to see each other every single day. I can't believe it.People always say secondary school friends are the best I have to admit it.I swear I'm going to miss every single one.): I guess whtever I say can't turn back time.It was as though yesterday was the first day at school.I can't believe I'm going to GRADUATE soon.

These 4 years in kranji are memorable like crazy.I've never regretted coming to this school.All the best things happened to me.Nikar,1A06,2A07,3E08,4E09,netball,SSC,teachers,friends and everyone. You guys are the most awesome things in my life.

I wouldn't want to leave any single one of you all.Cause I simply love you guys too much to let goooooooo.)':

Was thinking and I got scared all of a sudden): Saw the frisbee Mryeo gave then I saw the ssc photo.I think it's the full one,everyone's in it! I love it I really do. Then I realised MrYeo left KSS already.Suddenly everything feel so lost how I wish everything can stay the same forever but it's just an impossible wish of mine.

Anw,I wanna thank the people who've played a significant role in my life you guys rock I love you all like crazy I swear.I love you all x3.

Ten years down the road,will things still be the same? No matter what changes,memories still stay.

xjxj.

The forgotten.

2009-06-24T20:20:00.000-07:00

I hope it would last.

I just woke up:/ Slept really late yesterday like 2am+ I finally forced myself t sleep.But it's an improvement :)

I'm going to be super random!!

I cut kiwi yesterday for the first time!:)Kiwi shall be my favourite fruit now. Peach you lose already hahaha!!I used to think it's super sour,makes people cry etc but few days ago I ate it again and it's super super sweet i love it!:) I also cut my finger yesterday though:( I was cutting the kiwi skin but ended up cutting my own skin ouchh :( Nvm lesson learnt!:)

My teacher found out I copy him buy the same eraser!!:/ You know stabilo has this black eraser.I saw him using it a couple of weeks ago and I thought,"HEY BLACK ERASER SO COOL!" Yes it was my first time seeing a black eraser so last week I went to buy.Then he happened t lost his eraser so he borrowed mine.Then he look at my same eraser before he exposed me I quickly admit hahaha clever right?

I think traffic light icecream is not on sale anymore!That's like super saddening!!): I've been looking for it for very long but when I go to stores they don't have it!! The minimart near our school used to have it but tht time I ask subby ask me buy also dont have.Stan's condo also dont have! The worse thing is I crave for it like everyday. Zzz): Nvm shall continue finding it!!

NADIA LOOKS LIKE THE TASMANIAN DEVIL HAHAHAH Okay I let you be the baby la.Cuter right!:) Srsly please,everytime I walk past the minitoons I see the tasmanian devil I'd think of you leh! HAHAHA.SO CUTE!!!!

I dont know why I'm feeling so high now.But HAHAHAHA.

xjxj.

p/s: I promise I'll walk out of this :)

Whee!

2009-06-24T06:50:00.001-07:00

I AM SUPER HAPPY NOW :)

Question marks.

2009-06-24T03:32:00.000-07:00

After some chemistry work,I decided to use the computer and yes I unknowingly clicked onto some past msn conversations again.It's really funny as I read the past conversations with my friends.I miss those times when we quarrelled for nothing,argued,bickered,etc etc on msn :) But yeah,those were the times.They can only be served as memories I guess.As time passed,people change too.So,yeah:) Sometimes things do stay the same,but some don't.

Sometimes I really feel that I'm living in my own world,oblivious to what's happening around me,only concerned about the people and things around me. That day after I talked with Ysabel,I realised I do not know a lot of things that've been going on.

Sometimes I feel that people can read me like a book.I used to put up a tough front so people wouldn't guess my emotions but recently I totally failed to.Hmm.

Sometimes I feel stupid,clinging onto memories people have long forgotten.But at the same time I feel dam blessed too. Because I still have memories to cling on to.Others might have forgot,things might have changed and I might be the forgotten,but I still feel happy looking back.

For many years I've been putting on a facade in front of someone.I've been trying my best to be who she wants me to be.Apparently she's not at all bothered by my change. I've been trying so hard all these while,so much so that I'm really tired.A sentence from her can instantly break my heart I swear.But last week I decided to give up.

But did you know how much courage I've to take to make that decision?Because I know once I've made that decision,there'll only be dreadful replays which I fear,I'm afraid,I'm scared of.And that alone can make my heart bleed.

I still have a vivid impression of what happened when I'm young.Minor incidents as they seemed,they're etched in my mind forever.You forgot I'm still a kid.Those incidents are more than enough to tear me apart.

xjxj.

p/s:sorry if this post didn't make any sense but i swear its not directed to anyone of you reading here.

2009-06-23T23:25:00.001-07:00

You should have known how easily your words can crush me.

2009-06-23T20:59:00.000-07:00

I just woke up from a terrible dream and yes I'm scared now.

I just wanna say thank you to all those people who've been playing a part in my life,encouraging me when I'm down,being there when I'm sad,those who always laugh and smile with me,thank you.Love you guys x 100000.

I miss everyoneeeeeee.

xjxj.

2009-06-23T07:15:00.000-07:00

Wait!Before I forget,

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO BERENICE PHANG KUN TING XINGANNN :)

Sec 1 good old memories..HAHA:)

Enjoy your 16th birthday to the max max max and live your life to the fullest k!:) All the best for O's,anything and everything!Love you:)

xjxj.