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Jocelyn Yeoh Shu YiKranji Secondary School
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Monday, July 27, 2009, 3:02 AM
Actually deep down I knew why I was crying so dam hard.Sunday, July 26, 2009, 8:47 AM
Who am I.Saturday, July 25, 2009, 6:10 AM
Am finally back.
I'm finally back after a week of MIA w/o proper posts hahah.Anw I just finished a 3-hour long of tuition and yes it was rly super mentally draining because my tutor wants me to analyse the questions and explain to him how I solve it etc. It's rly helping me a lot and yes I anticipate more of these drilling sessions hahah.
I shall update on Zhenyi's birthday celebration/surprise wahahah.
Thanks to my dear girl I totally woke up at an amazing time of 6am! Thts like my earliest probably in my sec 3 and 4 lives. Received a call from bestfriend(brandon) and turned out he's sick.He's still sick now so take care.Think of me more and you'd recover soon HAHA. It will totally work teeheex. So rushed to school and despite waking up so early I'm still late tsk!! Luckily zy's later so everything's fine :)
The atmosphere was a lil dead cause it's like in the morning and so lil people reached the classroom ): Anw,hope she likes the mini surprise sunny island gave her :D Lessons started so bored please haha. Okay anw I totally forgot wht lessons we had tht day so nvm.
Anw,let's hop to end of school!(hop-hop-hop) Deep inside I was a lil nervous and scared cause zy was sick and I was so so afraid she won't be hyped out during the whole amazing race we organised for her.But glad things turned out fine :) The whole thing was rather funny you should rly see the video zhenyi dribbles the bball at danc's station man.I swear it's ... HILARIOUS. HAHAHA.
Anw,final celebration in the canteen and I totally love it.It's been long nikar had all these gatherings and although not everyone is there,I still enjoyed myself greatly and had tonnes of fun and laughter :) Esp when I see ps and js together hehh:D Hopefully the birthday girl enjoys herself too :D
Yup.I really really hate H1N1 :( It's likee. depriving us of so many fun activities :( NDP's cancelled(yes totally turned into a classroom celebration),cultural fiesta's postponed etc tht really sucks ): I miss those school gatherings x a million): School's so dead and boring now.But on the other hand,I guess we can totally focus on our O lvls.
Anw,prelims1 is over ,got back results and yes I'm not satisfied.I know I can definitely do much better.Esp those careless mistakes I always fail to identify for maths ): I can't believe it.I can differentiate the first part and integrate the second half of eqn. 2x4=2 AMAZING RIGHT!! I wonder how I passed my psle hahahha.And i totally got Cs for my chinese and combined humans.I wanted an A1 so badly but I just have to screwed things up.For chi,I failed my paper 1 like 29/70 but luckily my paper2pulled me up. But anw it's over.I'll definitely work harder for prelims 2 I promise.
PTM was BORING.Totally ended off within 5 minutes.This was my comment in the report slip :
Jocelyn is a curious and determined student.She is always asking good questions and seeking ways in which to improve herself.
HAHAHA.I ask good questions leh!!:D I always thought my questions were dumb and nonsensical:( But sometimes I wonder how determined I really is at studies.The improving thing I agree.Because I don't like to be stuck at the same spot when people had already moved on.
Yeap.I will do better.
I shot a lil yesterday.It feels really good.I discovered tht satisfaction doesn't just come alone from courtgames.When you put games aside,shooting can be as enjoyable too:) And yes I can't believe I used to detest shooting.I was super pressurised when I play my postion,esp after what miss yeo did. She totally made me shoot consecutive shots from 5 diff positions and with every shot I miss,the team had to run a 2 laps without me.
And that really hurts. I cried after th whole thing but cos it really hurts.miss yeo asked if i still wanted to continue.Even thou I was affected but I know I didnt want to give up just like tht.Eventually I still didnt manage to complete the whole thing.I was so affected by it. My shots started to go downhill for a period after that. But I know miss yeo did it to make the shooters realise tht how important putting my shots in is.
Okay I totally side tracked but yeah.Shooting is still fun! HAHA.
Yeap.I have TONNES to blog about but my mind is a total blank right now.So yeah,will continue next time:)
Mr Tan's history book is with me. I have to copy all the points before I return to him the book so I'll stop now.Jiayoux.
I'm missing some stuffs now.
xjxj.
Thursday, July 23, 2009, 6:32 AM
Happy sweet 16 to lovely zhenyi and sweet melissa.t!
Happy 16th birthday to Shumzhenyi and MelissaTan! All the best in whtever you do okay :)Blogger is dam screwed.I'm here for this REALLY short update.
The reason I haven't been blogging is because I'm busy with work+zy bday stuffs I think I'll update during th weekends or sth :)
Anw,before I'm off to study for th chinesep1, I just wanna say something.
Nobody,or anyone has the right to look down on you.Only you yourself can underestimate your own ability. So have faith in yourself. You are definitely much more than who you think you are.
Thts something I've learned through some down periods and now it's wht I often say to myself.
FIGHT.
xjxj.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 5:42 AM
Today,I got hit down hard.Sunday, July 12, 2009, 3:32 AM
Netball
Was doing some self reflection last night.Then it comes down to netball again.
I think I'm a completely different person off court and on court.Off court I'm known to be blur,silly etc etc but on court I'm a totally different person. People tell me I look fierce,look serious etc.
Sometimes,I don't know if I'm fit to be a team player.During the seasons,I shouted,I screamed at my team mates for not fighting at their best.But Miss Ong once said something - Everyone has their off-form days. I probably forgot this whenever I'm on court.
Maybe it's because the hunger to overcome our opponents is too strong,maybe it's because I want to win so much that made me so impatient on court.I was never an encourager.I get pissed off,I get angry when I feel that my team mates are not fighting hard.
But somehow I forgot some things can't be controlled.You're on court,you want to put up a good game,you want to give your best,but something's just pulling you back. It just happened that you're having one of your off-form days.You didn't want it,you didn't mean it either.
I feel like I'm forcing my expectations on others.Before I step on court,I have certain expectations towards myself.I would tell myself wht I want my shooting percentage to be,how I'm not supposed to make any unforced errors etc.So I assumed others to be the same too.
Thinking back,that's really selfish of me.I shout at my team mates like I don't make mistakes ( in fact I do most of the games ) I forgot I myself will make mistakes too. I forgot in the midst of achieving what I feel is the best for the team,I would hurt others through my words.
Everytime after a game,I tell myself,it's not enough,it's not enough.So wht exactly do you define enough?In fact enough doesn't exist at all.People keep improving,and you have to improve too.So I thought I should improve,my team mates should improve too.But it's so selfish,people have different rates of change,and some doesn't just change over a week or so.Even I myself can't do it,so who am I to expect others to do the same?
I believe when every single player steps on court,they aim to put in their best.Sometimes,things just don't go the way they want.They're already trying dam hard,but it's just not coming out.I myself chance upon this kind of situation too. And,when people are already very demoralised having not able to be on form,someone just shouts at you and further demoralise you.I guess that pretty much sucks.
I know the seasons period has passed for 5 months already.But these are the stuffs I really want to say.It's been long,some might already forgot,or some might still have the impression,but I still wanna say sorry to every single one in the team. A late apology perhaps,but a sincere one.
Last night I felt that although netball has pushed me further,it somehow made my character ugly too.
Afterall,encouragements are still the best to push people on when they're down. Taking a step back,netball is not only a platform for me to reach out for my goals,I've to learn to care and love as well.
From today onwards,I'll learn to be an encourager:)
xjxj.
p/s:For the twins plz fulfil what you two promised me in the birthday cards ok! Remember,to play netball is a gift, so cherish it. :)
3:32 AM
追不到，也抓不牢。Friday, July 10, 2009, 9:20 AM
Doubts.
Is it you, or is it me?So we're now left with the 2 sciences MCQ.Hmm.Amaths was crap,srsly.It's just till th extent tht I dont wanna think how badly I'll fare.
After exams,headed t pizza with a few nikars t have lunch.We're like the 1st group of customers!!:) Tried th curry chicken so spicy x100million!
So th nikar people were ps,zy,yk,a,yt,dan and me!:D
Went t peisi's house t play mahjong for like 5hours HAHA,quite cool right!:D Heh.It's dam fun and I finally know how t make combo.I only won the first few sets cause they only play 1 tai. After tht I lose all th way zz hahaha.
It's super funny and mahjong and ultrafun plz!:) I have a great time with them lovex3 hahaha.twit nei.
Camwhore after tht zmg we've got really stupid-looking photos HAHA.Headed t pastamania for dinner. Reached home at 8pm+.
Overall today(until now I hope) is a very happy day :D
I miss netball suddenly.But I'm not rly in the competitive mode now.I just hope cca will resume next week or so,so I can have th chance,touch the ball,shoot,and do passes.And yes I'll be satisfied.
Sometimes things don't go th way we want them to,do they?
I think this is like the one and only normal looking photos.
Zhenyi and me catfighting.(Zhenyi's like vibrating HAHA)
Totally quarrelling.HAHA.
Failed shot.
Spastic.
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Why emo?):
AUNTY LUCY HAHAHAH.
Last but not least,picture of the day.
-drumrolls-
PLEASE LOOK AT SHUM ZHEN YI.HAHAHAHA.
xjxj.
Thursday, July 9, 2009, 5:19 AM
Haven't been blogging.Have been sleeping at 3am++ this week.It's like I'm immune to the sleeping thing already.I feel tired,I want to sleep,but I can't sleep.Anw,I really screwed up prelim 1 big time.My chem was rly bad ): Phy was stupid cause I totally did the q wrongly on th 1st page. SS and history were tough and I totally lost like 20marks immediately(yes no joke). Amaths was worse tday,I got all my integration wrong yes all. ):I'll be happy if I pass my maths and combined humans.
I think this just tells me that I have t work harder for prelim2. Time to put all these down and move on.It's not the time to cry over spilled milk,not the time to dwell on it even further.It's time to move on.
I just need more than determination,and yes,I'll get it over and done with.
xjxj.
Sunday, July 5, 2009, 7:09 AM
Shagged.
I'm real shagged now.I slept @ 3am after I finished reading the storybook.The story is not bad but dave pelzer's a child called it is still way better.Woke up today and started work at bout 1.30 till 4.30pm then I had breakfast+lunch+dinner then went back t work at bout 6pm and studied till 10pm now.Lots of memorising to be done and yes I think I rly challenged myself to my limit cause I feel like vomitting now): Like really vomit when I see those piles of ws.
But I'm proud of myself today.Cause I didn't even touch the com till now .Hahah,a lot of people can do tht,but to me it's a mission impossible.
Yesterday night was crap.Thought bout lots of stuffs and it's tormenting,rly.I miss you then but not since.
I think I really need a break now. Shall watch tv for an hour then read through ss I want a1 for ss so I must jiayou.
xjxj.
Saturday, July 4, 2009, 9:02 AM
Can.someone.talk.to.me.now. 4:06 AM
Additional maths is my new love!:D
Today was crazy.I slept at 12am ytd,woke up at 11am today.Realised I slept too much so I started work at 12pm till 4.30pm doing amaths.Tutor late so he came at 5pm.Had lessons till 7pm.So that's like 7hours of amaths.Minus 1.5 eating and slacking time HAHA.
Super siao bout amaths now.I love amaths!!hahaha! Make up lesson this tues jiayou me.
Chemistrying after dinner later.BYE!:D
xjxj.
Friday, July 3, 2009, 9:11 PM
A very simple misunderstanding can easily break the connection of two.How's life for you,my dear friend?
Thursday, July 2, 2009, 7:44 PM
人会变。