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Tuesday, June 30, 2009, 4:00 AM
16th birthday.
[editted/]Today is my 16th birthday!Can't believe I'm already 16 now hahaha.It's not rly a VERY significant day to me so last night I was quite deadddd.But anw,thanks for everyone who made my birthday a very happy one tday!!:)
A million thanks to :
-Those who actually bothered t stay up last night t wish me at 0000 sharp!
-People who wished me happy birthdayy!:)
-Netballers for the surprise(yes it is unexpected) though the atmosphere was a lil dead with th h1n1 thing but still I appreciate it and I love you guys a lot:)
-Zhenyi,Yongkian,Brandon,Uziel,Danchia for the steamboat treat,pig soft toy and pig balloon.(Surprise though failed but I still love you guys th same)
-Nikars who chipped in for the mug(totally my attitude),storybook,super sweet card (melts my heart.)and J notebook.
-Nikars who lunched @ pastamania with me yes I enjoyed the lunch cause we had tonnes of laughters.
-Zhenyi for the noticeboard it's super sweet and creative esp the J haha!And the card the cartoon so cute lol! I love the photos totally.
-Yongkian for the super huge card with SO many unglam photos of me!Still I love it.
-Melissa for the super super cute miss sunshine card.Yes I admit it's really nice and sweeeeet :)
-Peisi for the jojo and puiksee adventures I rly love it.I can't stop smiling t myself when I'm reading it:)
-Nadia for the super super sincere and long birthday card I love you as much as you love me muah.
-Brandon for the birthday card I was really amazed by your creativity and yes I love the story:)
-Uziel for the pig storybook HAHA,although th msg is short and sweet it's still amazing :)
-Zhenyi,Yongkian,Melissa,Uziel,Brandon for the bouquet of lollipops(38 lollipops! I'll eat them when I'm sad) and snoopy!!
-Ginny for the super super lovely and sweet card I love the spaghetti thing x 10000000 and the super soft piggggg (I'll put them on my bed)
-Ada for the super sweet gift I'll use them for sure thanks a million girl:)
-Subhaan for the really unexpected gift and super cute + lovely PIG card HAHA.
-Meihui and Meixuan for the amazing cards I love it :) HAHA.Bring back th trophy k:) I'm be waiting for it muah.
Today the moment I went t school I keep asking nadia for my bday card!Haha.Why?Cause I love cards :) I think they're the most sincere gifts EVER.I'm not those i-want-this-i-want-that kind cause I have most of the things I want.Cards can make me smile from the bottom of my heart.Whenever I feel down/sad,I'll take out notes from my friends and that'd definitely cheer me up and push me on. So thank you everyone for the cards & th presents also:)
Things' been so different. ):
xjxj.
p/s:Have t use th com lesser now. Prelims' next week.But I'll still update once in a while:)
Monday, June 29, 2009, 10:26 AM
Sixteen not.
Happy birthday to myself. 7:08 AM
First day of school.
I was super excited for school! I slept at like 4am+ cause I couldn't sleep @ all ): ):Hmm,however,school wasn't as good as I expected though.First thing in the morning I woke up late ): I woke up @ like 6.40am :/ Entered the school gate and everything is so different.It's not like the usual morning when everyone is in the parade square catching up with one another,reading the newspaper and crapping.The parade square feels so empty due t H1N1.
I was greeted by mrlau,security guard,mrkong,mrong wearing mask :/
Entered classroom and srsly,I'm not making fun of anyone or whoever BUT after the holidays I feel that I've became super tanned and others become so fairrrr.I looked so tanned among them.):
Anw,briefing on H1N1 and took temp etc.Sat in examination format and everything just seemed so... foreign.Hmm.PE was so cold.Not like other days when I see other classes playing frisbee,kicking football.Hmm.I hate it):
Lessons were very monotone as well.Except for MsLai's lesson but I dislike the current seating arrangement cause it's like so separated ): Maths was fun with integration and differentiation thou I really hate the fact that given an equation I differentiate the first half and integrate the other half.
After school went t find mdm yong t edit our compo etc mine was kinda hugely out of point so I need t write again later yeapp Mdmyong said I just need more life experiences haha.Then I have t write a mindmap for her so I sat outside the hod room with dan.l then all those crap started again.
Looked at the canteen and parade square and everywhere is so coldddd.People are being chased back home by mr lau and it's totally not the usual scene I feel dam empty and lost.I know I always go like "shit i feel dam lost " but srsly I feel dam aimless just now in school as I did my mindmap.I know it's because of the H1N1 case but I really dislike this feeling): It's not like I have t play frisbee/netball BUT seeing others playing the sports just make me very happy. Sighhx.
Went mac and headed home.Supposed t go out but slept in the end cause I was really shagged and upset . Woke up and yeah gotta do my chinese maths and touch up on my eng later.
So t sum it up,first day in school wasn't as fabulous as I thought ): I really really hate this feeling in me.
xjxj.
Sunday, June 28, 2009, 9:33 AM
HAPPY!
I'm happy happy now :DHehe finally completed my meiwen.I wrote a story didn't care hope it'll be accepted by mdm yong pretty please cause I spent quite long on it ): Not like I want t get through cause it's like competing with zhonghua/sji people their chinese is like freaking good :/ but I just hope mdm yong doesn't reject my work :/
Finished my english compo too! My story is kinda weird :/ Nvm.
Okay gnna chiong a bit of chinese but I know I wont touch paper1 hahaha.
School's tml YIPPEE!
xjxj.
4:26 AM
End of holidays SPEECH
Okay,school's gonna reopen in like (let me count)....12hours!!
Heh,I wouldn't complain how much I dread school etc etc cause I kinda miss school you know :) I miss my friends,my class,recess,after school and the teachers!I miss mslai,msleong and mdmyong somehow!!HAHA.
But I still miss morning assembly the most :) I still remember it always rain every morning before holidays begin and we always had t assemble in the classroom.I think tml we gonna assemble in classroom due t H1N1 again awww ):
Anw,I still have 1/2 unfinished homework godddd): PE for th 1st 2 period tml! I think I still can rmb th timetable by heart HAHA PE,english,sh,maths,chinese,chem,phy.Correct? XD
Okie,I'm quite excited t go t school now (Dont call me a geek pls) cause I'm missing the fun in schooool XD PLUS,I haven't worn my school shoes and uniform for veh long already heh :D
Shit,I srsly can't believe I'm going gaga over school-reopening.
On a heavier note,this just means tht Olvls is approaching and yes I still have A LOT t catch up :(
Dont care.Me going to play imaginary netball tml I miss it!!:)
So yeah this holidays' been fine.Lots of work...but also have fun in between :) One thing I would regret is tht I've failed t catch up with some of my friends.In the midst of busy work,people just neglected other things around them and yup I admit I'm one of them.People we must talk more during recess/whenever ok.
I'm SUPER scared I can't wake up on time tml ): The earliest I've woke up this holidays(like proper time) is like 7am?Crap right hahaha. I'm super scared I end up waking up @ like 7am+ ? heh.
xjxj.
12:49 AM
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I'M SO SAD NOW ):I finally have got the inspiration to write my meiwen with a slight recount of the title but peisi just told me tht one can only be written as compo and not story.Wht's the difference?! I dont know ):
I called like super many people but nobody answered my call I'm so lost now and well done cause I had to lose the entry form):
Shall go dig for it for the 100th time.
xjxj.
Saturday, June 27, 2009, 10:13 AM
I HAVE A NEW PET!
HAHA.Steamboat was great :)After tuition bathed and stuff. I think I'm super funny.Cause I'm super slow in preparing and stuff,so when Daniel.C smsed me asking what station I'm at,I replied "Home station" HAHAHA Funny right! Okay maybe not.
So arrived there at like 8pm and started crapping.I ate like super lil cause I'm super not hungry idkw.Hahaha.But after that I ate hotdogs,prawns,and chicken wings!! All so kiddish :( Sidetracking a lil,tht time my mommy bought yong tau foo for me.I'm super happy cause yong tau foo is such a matured food!HAHAHA.So excitedly I went t open the cover and tadah.Hotdogs,vegetables,crabmeat,fishball all so children can!):
Anw,chatted,laughed and it was great cause it's been a long time since we actually sat down and talked like this luv themm:) In between Brandon suddenly got up and said he wanted to shit cause he's having a stomachache so dan.c accompanied him I followed cause I wanted to wash my hands but brandon was gone?! Zhenyi was very convincing,she told me maybe he went other toilet cause there's only one toilet and he didn't want t stink the toilet hahaha I totally believed pleaseee.
After that played caiquan with uziel ykian and zhenyi totally ownage I'm like super cai quan queen + scissors paper stone queen! :D:D I stood up cause I wanted t eat chicken wings then I saw this super tall figure hiding behind the pillar then I saw danielc holding a cake.The moment he saw me he straight away squat down say stomachache :/
HAHA,so the birthday surprise plan was spoilt by the very clever mee!:) In the end I still acted along laa ahahaha.Cut cake,made a wish(I hope it'll come true) and continued eatingggg :D :D
Climax was when we played jigoba to finish the unfinished food i kept winning initially but ever since danc and brand joined in I kept losing!!): Roarrrr!
At bout 11pm we headed homeeee had a very very hearty chat with danc and brand on the bus :)
Thank you my lovely island for the pleasant birthday surprise,cake,treat and PIGSSS:D:D.Although I kinda spoilt it but I rly rly appreciate all your sweeeeeeeet thoughts:) I'm touched plzz hehe :D I HAVE A NEW PET NOW HAHAH:) Love you guys x a million times muahh!:) Ty to Superzuperyuper , Tuperyuperkuper , UuperLuper , BuperOuper , DuperCuper!! :D
No pictures cause ZUPERYUPER refuses to upload MY pictures humph!):
xjxj.
p/s:Muper Fuper although you're not there but you're still missed by us ok!!
3:45 AM
Steamboat
Hello!My tuition just ended and it was great.I spent the 2 hours asking my tutor dam lots of questions :/ hahaha. Luckily he's not pissed or whtever.He even praised and encouraged me HAHAHA.Finally cleared my amaths but I still left 2papers :/Okay.Me going to bathe and meet lovely island now BYEBYE!:)
xjxj
Friday, June 26, 2009, 11:28 AM
Happy 16th birthday t Emiliaaaa!:)It's like going to 2.30am now and I'm still wide awake oh noooo . I think I should like force myself t sleep or something.Recently I've been really obedient,sleeping at bout 12am+ already but tday I just couldn't get t sleeeeeeeeep ohdear!
Btw I had a SUPER ZUPER YUPER(HAHAHA) filling meal just now vegetables+tofu+prawns+crabs it was awesome I love it!! Okay,quite sinful too:X But it's okay I think since I only had whipped potato for breakfast and lunch HAHA :)
Ok,I shall TRY to sleep now:) Steamboat tml with island yumyum:) Tuition tml I can FINALLY clear my doubts.I'm clueless bout ln graphs):
I love kiwi!! HAHA. I ate 4 in 2 days y' know!! I drank lots of lemon barley+kiwi+seafood recently omg!
xjxj.
p/s:Failed waiting but still waited.
1:20 AM
Goals
Have you ever asked yourself what're your goals in life?What do you intend to do?Where do you intend to head to?People need to have goals.We're nothing without goals.Goals can guide us,pull us through the tough times and bring us up when we're down.Yes we do experience the downs in our life.Even the strongest falls.But the strength lies in falling hard but getting up even tougher and stronger than before.And yes goals can direct us.
Yeah so people start setting goals and fight hard for them.Because your goals belong to you and only you.Nobody can ever steal it away from you.
START FIGHTING:)
xjxj.
Thursday, June 25, 2009, 11:06 PM
:(
Changed blogskin againnn hahaha. I can't seem to find the ideal one but nvm.Shittt I've been blogging so much that my street netball competition+mryeo's farewell post no longer appear!hahaha.This is a super random post btw.
Can't believe school's gonna reopen in like 2 days' time.Okay,gonna do maths now.Chinese papers are super tough! I don't even understand the passageeeeee):
xjxj.
4:46 AM
Lie,
I thought everything was fine..? 1:29 AM
In a blink of an eye...
Okay after some physics tday,I went to read nadia blog's archives and god I miss those days when we just kept going out and have funnn!Her past posts are super funny,bout netball etc etc and I remember she used t call me ahtoot while I call her ahtootoot.Life is so carefree in lower secondary but once I finished reading I got slapped back to reality.In a blink of an eye..
Yes I know this is a super cliche phrase but how true is it?
Was thinking it's gonna be a few more months and we're gonna get seperated and go to different schools.We wouldn't be able to see each other every single day. I can't believe it.People always say secondary school friends are the best I have to admit it.I swear I'm going to miss every single one.): I guess whtever I say can't turn back time.It was as though yesterday was the first day at school.I can't believe I'm going to GRADUATE soon.
These 4 years in kranji are memorable like crazy.I've never regretted coming to this school.All the best things happened to me.Nikar,1A06,2A07,3E08,4E09,netball,SSC,teachers,friends and everyone. You guys are the most awesome things in my life.
I wouldn't want to leave any single one of you all.Cause I simply love you guys too much to let goooooooo.)':
Was thinking and I got scared all of a sudden): Saw the frisbee Mryeo gave then I saw the ssc photo.I think it's the full one,everyone's in it! I love it I really do. Then I realised MrYeo left KSS already.Suddenly everything feel so lost how I wish everything can stay the same forever but it's just an impossible wish of mine.
Anw,I wanna thank the people who've played a significant role in my life you guys rock I love you all like crazy I swear.I love you all x3.
Ten years down the road,will things still be the same? No matter what changes,memories still stay.
xjxj.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009, 8:20 PM
The forgotten.
I hope it would last.I just woke up:/ Slept really late yesterday like 2am+ I finally forced myself t sleep.But it's an improvement :)
I'm going to be super random!!
I cut kiwi yesterday for the first time!:)Kiwi shall be my favourite fruit now. Peach you lose already hahaha!!I used to think it's super sour,makes people cry etc but few days ago I ate it again and it's super super sweet i love it!:) I also cut my finger yesterday though:( I was cutting the kiwi skin but ended up cutting my own skin ouchh :( Nvm lesson learnt!:)
My teacher found out I copy him buy the same eraser!!:/ You know stabilo has this black eraser.I saw him using it a couple of weeks ago and I thought,"HEY BLACK ERASER SO COOL!" Yes it was my first time seeing a black eraser so last week I went to buy.Then he happened t lost his eraser so he borrowed mine.Then he look at my same eraser before he exposed me I quickly admit hahaha clever right?
I think traffic light icecream is not on sale anymore!That's like super saddening!!): I've been looking for it for very long but when I go to stores they don't have it!! The minimart near our school used to have it but tht time I ask subby ask me buy also dont have.Stan's condo also dont have! The worse thing is I crave for it like everyday. Zzz): Nvm shall continue finding it!!
NADIA LOOKS LIKE THE TASMANIAN DEVIL HAHAHAH Okay I let you be the baby la.Cuter right!:) Srsly please,everytime I walk past the minitoons I see the tasmanian devil I'd think of you leh! HAHAHA.SO CUTE!!!!
I dont know why I'm feeling so high now.But HAHAHAHA.
xjxj.
p/s: I promise I'll walk out of this :)
6:50 AM
Whee!
I AM SUPER HAPPY NOW :) 3:32 AM
Question marks.
After some chemistry work,I decided to use the computer and yes I unknowingly clicked onto some past msn conversations again.It's really funny as I read the past conversations with my friends.I miss those times when we quarrelled for nothing,argued,bickered,etc etc on msn :) But yeah,those were the times.They can only be served as memories I guess.As time passed,people change too.So,yeah:) Sometimes things do stay the same,but some don't.Sometimes I really feel that I'm living in my own world,oblivious to what's happening around me,only concerned about the people and things around me. That day after I talked with Ysabel,I realised I do not know a lot of things that've been going on.
Sometimes I feel that people can read me like a book.I used to put up a tough front so people wouldn't guess my emotions but recently I totally failed to.Hmm.
Sometimes I feel stupid,clinging onto memories people have long forgotten.But at the same time I feel dam blessed too. Because I still have memories to cling on to.Others might have forgot,things might have changed and I might be the forgotten,but I still feel happy looking back.
For many years I've been putting on a facade in front of someone.I've been trying my best to be who she wants me to be.Apparently she's not at all bothered by my change. I've been trying so hard all these while,so much so that I'm really tired.A sentence from her can instantly break my heart I swear.But last week I decided to give up.
But did you know how much courage I've to take to make that decision?Because I know once I've made that decision,there'll only be dreadful replays which I fear,I'm afraid,I'm scared of.And that alone can make my heart bleed.
I still have a vivid impression of what happened when I'm young.Minor incidents as they seemed,they're etched in my mind forever.You forgot I'm still a kid.Those incidents are more than enough to tear me apart.
xjxj.
p/s:sorry if this post didn't make any sense but i swear its not directed to anyone of you reading here.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009, 11:25 PM
You should have known how easily your words can crush me. 8:59 PM
I just woke up from a terrible dream and yes I'm scared now.I just wanna say thank you to all those people who've been playing a part in my life,encouraging me when I'm down,being there when I'm sad,those who always laugh and smile with me,thank you.Love you guys x 100000.
I miss everyoneeeeeee.
xjxj.
7:15 AM
Wait!Before I forget,HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO BERENICE PHANG KUN TING XINGANNN :)
Sec 1 good old memories..HAHA:)
Enjoy your 16th birthday to the max max max and live your life to the fullest k!:) All the best for O's,anything and everything!Love you:)
xjxj.
7:11 AM
Tuition just now was crazyyy.Was going through integration kinda good thing cause it helps me t refresh memory hahaha. But I was having a really bad headache towards the end ):Anw,I forgot to credit bjorn/ginny for the street netball photos :) Tyvm currypuff and bjorn heh :)
Anw,here are mr yeo's farewell party group photos,credits t najiha(facebook.)
Yes in the pictures you can see how tanned I ammmmm ): hahaha.Okay I'm off! Gonna stay up tonight for..nothing.HAHA.
xjxj.
Monday, June 22, 2009, 9:01 PM
SIWF street netball + Mr Yeo's farewell.
HELLO:)I'm finally back to blogging.The past few days I've been REALLY physically drained :( I fell asleep like almost 11+ 12+ th past few days cause I was really tired.Now I'm gonna blog about the street netball and mr yeo's farewell party k!:) Btw bear with this skin,I wanted t change blogskin but the codes are screwed and I'm lazy.Will change it soon.
Street netball is like much tougher than the normal netball!:( You could seriously get SUPER tired because you have to keep attacking and defending unlike normal netball when you can rest @ times.We played @ Marina Barrage,th rooftop on soft grass.It's super hot but windy at th same time :)
First up against vulcans,I didn't play for this game but we won by quite a bit :) Heh. Quite cool and nervous since it was our first game! :) Up against WRS1 after that we lost by 1 and ended up being the runner up in our group:(It's my fault.I was srsly off-form that game my shots SUCKED practically for every game :( But I made it up during the game with subzero.They had a guy with them and yes it was super tiring but I did go out for every ball :)The guy was kinda rough though:/ Won them and yes we're in for the next round whee.Juniors ended up 2nd in their group and they're through too :D
Btw,I flew a kite in between the games!:) My 1st(or is it 2nd?) time flying a kite whee so fun!!:) I luv the tension feel esp :D But the moment I took over the kite dropped zz. Tried t fly back again but failed MISERABLY.After dam long still couldn't get it up:( Now I feel like flying kite!Ahh.Oh,we saw MrKoh tooo!! He's like a tourist taking pictures HAHAHA.
After all the games,trained back and saw a couple gaying on the train.They totally made Amanda cry cause they were hugging and stuff and they accidentally banged onto her a lot of times I think.I don't wanna elaborate but yeah :/
It was raining and I kinda luv the rain heh :) Went to lot one food culture t have lunch I totally ate prawn+you mian yumzyumz heh. Discussed bout the games with redbra,ting and currypuff and we were srsly super excited for the games th next day.We wanted to bring the champs back so much plz so we discussed bout strategies and stuff heehee.I was super funny that night I think and a lil high:)
After the whole thing I was totally knocked out :/ Headed home,bathed,watched tv and slept rather late despite being super tired hahaha.
I woke up late the next day!!:( Ginny gave a morning call but I missed it:/ So I missed breakfast with them.Met them @ yewtee mrt and we trained there again wheez.
Reached there registered the sun was crazy srsly.I was burning under the hot hot sun.First up against tanglin black click.Zmg,we saw them doing warm up and stuff while we're playing cards in the shade hahaha.Feeling a tad guilty we decided to warm up too but who knows our game started :/ So w/o any warm up or wht we stepped into the court everything was fine but my shots SUCKED a million): Won 07-12 yay.Our juniors won their game too 20-0 with siglap.
Next with woodgrove man they're good :/ They looked firm and their face just give you the HEY-I'M-A-NETBALLER look god :/ Anw,we started the game and we were totally on par.We fought really hard plz.Our strategy was to remained COMPOSED. Speedy but steady:) We scored the first goal then they caught up,in the end we drew with 08-08 on the other side,our juniors also drew with outram with a score of 07-07 .Extra time because they had to have a winner so the first t score 3 goals win.We were super scared but we stayed calm and firm.I think they panicked a little,so we won 3-0.Juniors won 3-0 too!!HAHAHA.We did th kranji cheer after that :)
We were super happy but after knowing we're meet the juniors in finals after that,we just pretended to be serious and went to discuss strategies!HAHAHA.We were quite scared actually :/ Since they're mostly defenders and we're mostly attackers.They were aware of our play so we had t think how to tackle them hahah:/ Game started and I think the whole team rly chionged cause we're all so serious! Yuting esp going for all the high lobs cooliox.In th end we won 09-01 yay:) Well done team mates :)
Prize presentation and we saw MrKoh he's super mean cause he's shocked we got the champs!! Anw,we took lotsa photos heheh :) After that we went t have lunch together @ carls junior I only finished like 2/5 of my burgerrrr. Heheh.Rushed home after that t bathe and headed to my grandparents' house t celebrate father's day.
It was insane cause I was feeling dam terrible.Had this splitting headache and it seemed as though I could faint anytime.My skin was like cracking and I'm super super black.In the end I slept there cause I was really shagged.But it's all worthwhile:)
So yeah,we got the champs and juniors got 2nd!:) On sat night we said we wanted it badly and indeed we bought it back:) Was really happy cause I could really see everyone fighting at their best.
p/s:I LOVE THE GRASS AND WIND THERE:)
Mr yeo's farewell!
I woke up ytd at about 11am cause I was super tired:/Woke up t see a super black me ahh I dont wanna see any reflections of me): Met faridah,stan,aloy,qamam,danc,wh(hope I didnt miss anyone out) at lot one cntrl station and kiayi @ petir station.Headed t stan's house then we fried nuggets and stuff so hottttttt plz.The oil was like splattering all over outside his house hahaha.
Slacked around,around 4pm headed t zelia's house t finish up the cards and we headed down.Soon Mr Yeo arrived and we had this really funny welcome session.Sec3s presented their skit and hahahah it's funny I couldn't stop laughing plz!Musical chair next,partnered with kiayi luckily we didn't have t do any silly forfeits:/ hahaha the forfeits was REALLY funny like dancing and stuff it was hilarious.
Next Mr Yeo had t make a speech w/o "me,you,I,we,they,ssc,the" we totally own him cause he had t do SIX forfeits in the end.But we weren't that cruel la.HAHAHA.He danced here and there after that he's really sporty man it's dam funny.
Dinner was great!I sat with faridah,stan,dans,khenghian,felicia and co and danc couldn't stop laughing over the swimming pool thing?!He laughed for bout 15minutes non-stop like totally.It's okay but when he laughed he totally laughed out all the rice on me la!Grrrr.hahaha.Talked crap and stuff I kept spilling the drinks :/
After that prize presentation.Hmm it was really sad and Mr Yeo's speech was dam touching.We presented our gifts t him and the whole thing was just so... ): He gave some of us the frisbee too thank you so much mr yeo:) I've got so much things to say but I dont really know how t express in words.But mr yeo,if you're reading this,I just wanna let you know that you're a teacher who really gains respect from me.I've learnt lots of stuff from you and yes you've left a legacy.A lot of ssc feels the same as me too. I'm very sure you'll definitely be someone who can change others' life.We'll really miss you as much as you miss us:)
After the presentation slacked bout and played dodgeball.So fun!!! But I kept getting hit out :( But it was a crazy game hahah. After that returned t the function room and slacked I ate icecream!!:) But they didn't have traffic light ice cream though:( Slacked about and headed home after that!Slept at 1am:) I enjoyed myself thoroughly :)
I'll update the pictures some time later!I blogged dam long and yeah,I've got makeup tuition later so I gotta stop soon.Anw,I've been playing for 3 days so I guess it's time to continue with my work:)
Last but not least,I love redbottles,netballers,and ssc:) They mean so muchhhhh to me:D
xjxj.
Sunday, June 21, 2009, 8:25 PM
HI PEOPLE :)I'm really shagged now!Just woke up.I was really really tired.Yesterday night was a struggle.I had this really bad sunburnt and severe headache.My head was SPLITTING and I almost vomitted :( But everything was worth it.Cause red bottles got the champs!!:) More later k,I need to bathe and get ready for MrYeoyeo's farewell later!:) I'll blog when I'm back or sth.
xjxj.
p/s:I'm SUPER black now. It's not brown or wht.YES IT'S BLACK cause I totally forgot to apply sunblock lotion.):
Friday, June 19, 2009, 5:54 PM
HI I JUST WOKE UP AND IT'S LIKE 9AM HAHAHA.I'm so blessed t have Ginny and Nadia morning calling me hahaha.Anw,the competition's later YAY BABYYYYY LET'S ROCK THE COURT WOOHOO!
Actually I'm feeling kinda tired now still,despite sleeping rather early(12am) last night DONT KNOW WHYYYYYYY but yes after a bath I'd definitely be more awake and start t jump about!Try catching me HAHA.Yeah,TRY.
All the best to RED BOTTLESSSSSSSSSSSS:) Loveexz.
xjxj.
5:26 AM
Hellooooo:)Today was alright.Finished up physics with a lot of questions I dont know how to do thoughhh): Did a little emaths and amaths here and there.Gave in t temptation and played netball from 5pm+ t 6pm+ but at least I did sufficient work t make up for it :)
Sry for sounding so bored but I'm really tired :( Physically and mentally ahh. I seem t have a lot of things to do but I keep forgetting them roar.
Tml's the street netball competition.I'm sorry if I dont sound excited because I'm too tired but srsly I really look forward to it :) Conference later t talk with red bottles I better not fall asleep.
I'm eating lesser now 've been skipping breakfast and lunch.I think I better grab something t eat t keep me awake :)
Go red bottles love you guys x a million times muaxx.
xjxj.
Thursday, June 18, 2009, 7:15 PM
I'm really in deep shit ):Haven't been sleeping NORMALLY recently.I srsly don't know what's up with me.I keep sleeping at weird hours totally insane.I forgot how I started this trend but it's killing me.At first I thought it's okay but I finally felt WEIRD now.
I used to sleep at 1+ 2+ during school days chatting/working w/o feeling tired at school.(Although Brandon claims I am) but I still have pay attention whtt! It's not like I stay up late to chiong work or wht but it's because I couldn't sleep at all and I have nothing to do!!):Then here comes holidays.After lessons I usually go home and sleep from 2pm+ to 9pm+ I SRSLY DONT KNOW HOW I CAN SLEEP FOR SO LONG.Then I wake up,do work,slack,talk,and stuff till 2+3+4+ and go to school th next day.Then weekends,I can sleep like 1am+ and wake up amazing at 5am+ but fall asleep at 10am+ or something again :/ My body clock is going crazyyyy.I can sleep for DAM long,yet I feel tired when I wake up.I can not sleep/sleep lil yet I feel so so energetic!! Like yesterday,I fell asleep at 12am and woke up 10pm today.10 hours I sleep so long rah.
It's like I'm being controlled by my sleeps.Others can sleep normally like 10pm sleep,8am will wake up.But I can't! I dont know when I can wake up or when I'll sleep.But the good thing is,I doze off very easily when I'm tired.
I think the problem is I think A LOT.When I lie on bed,I'd keep thinking and thinking.Like what've I been doing in the holidays,what have I done for the day,my close friends,people,family,netball,things i wanna do tml,my life,and everything! I can think for like 3 hours or wht,srsly idk.Eventually yes I'd fall asleep but it's like so long.
I think I've to slowly adapt already! If not school reopen I'd suffer):
Something really bad happened last night to me.I'm srsly torn but yeah,wht to do. I'm doing nothing for the moment.Can I do anything though?
xjxj.
5:39 AM
HELLOOO:)Today was really great and productive heh :) I headed to school to study and amazingly I could sit there from 10+ to 4+ doing work w/o going for lunch.I did the 4 sets of chemistry and I finally finished them I only left 1 MCQ now hahah today was super chemistry day now I'm having a headache ahh.
Tomorrow will be Amaths/Physics I think.I haven't decide but yeah studying in school is awesome because there're less distractions I think. I could focus more like amazingly.
Received the street netball fixtures and yes I think we've got the toughest groupppp but it's okay red bottles let's step into the court with confidence.HAHAHA.Just play normally okay!:)
Okay I wanna finish up my chemistry already gotta start on Maths like really soooooooon!
Life's been good,I think :)
xjxj.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009, 2:40 AM
HELLO! Today was rather eventful:)Woke up like REALLY early(7am okay!) to go to school and have self training with sec 4s mainly with xiaobaobei,ting,mel,bra and nad! Woohoo! I was like the third earliest despite being late for 4 minutes ok! I morning called Amanda(YES my first few attempts morning calling someone amanda plz be honoured) like 5 times and it's super tiring?!? I wonder how maria morning calls me so many times!!Anw she woke up in the end :)
Oh by the way,the moment I woke up I received a message from Nadia saying,"Sry I'll be late tell the rest you guys start first"SOMETHING ALONG THIS LINE,then after that retard smsed and said " Sry you guys start first" THEN mel smsed and say" omg I just woke up :X (still put the innocent :X you ) you guys start first k." Then I'm like :/ totally!!! That's how punctual netbies are!hahaha.
So slacked with ginny and tingggg anyhow shoot.Not long after everyone arrived and it feels good because it's been a nong nong time since we actually played among the usual sec 4 cliquez.Mel arrived like an HOUR later -___- Tricked her and asked her t run :/ hehe. Played 3vs3 after that quite fun and yes it's tiring :( I think I'm old already.Despite going for jogs during the holidays I still couldn't sustain long.Plus my shots SUCKED to the max!! ): I MUST persevere on the competition day and go ALL OUT for every SINGLE ball and INTECEPTIONS :D:D
After that I headed for SSC meeting.It was alright and after the meeting went t play cards with netbies again :DD Played netball for awhile and it's SCORCHING HOTTTT ): It feels good to play netball though heh :D
Slacked around after that and played taboo in the library with stan dans brand and jp.Headed home had mac for dinner(or lunch) fattening I know hahaha.
Mr Koh didn't put the mock at his pigeon hole!! ):
Alright,off to bathe,take a short nap and do work :)
Super excited for this sat.WATCH OUT FOR THE BOTTLES. Beware cause we would rock the court baby:)
xjxj.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009, 12:00 AM
Chinese lessons were alright yesterday!It started from 8.30am(ok not exactly) till like 5.30pm!! Was really mentally drained :(I thought the lesson starts at 8am so I stupidly went so early.So headed to canteen t crap with Brandon Jingpeng and Nat :) Headed there a lot of delays etc then lessons finally started by going through paper 1 stuffxz. After that we had this break then we started to talk about more interesting stuffs like how to be happy etc etc.One thing I agree the most is to forget the old memories.Hahaha.Then we watched this ZhangAiLing's video.Inititally I thought it's like super boring but turns out it's very interesting you know :) I had a good time explaining to Daniel.L about her life then Mdmyong was like "Haha shu yi xian zai yong ying yu geng jun jie jie shi ah." HAHA.After that we watched this movie omg I hate the rich boy he sucks!!SUPER MEAN?!? I could almost feel the pain ouch..:(
After that we went to take videos for ____ and we went to DUNK HAHAHA.Cool right! XD But I didn't la.Only ting and the dans did :) I was like the reporter or something I think our video very funny leh!! I'm sure ___ will LOVE IT.
After that watched the NG scenes OMG IT IS SUPER FUNNY I SWEARRRRRRR XD
Heh.I remember MrKoh saying we can only play 3 days or so.I already plan to use 2 days for the netball competition(if we get in) and 1 day for Mr Yeo's farewell.The rest of the days must really mug man :)
I'm getting SUPER excited for the street netball competition XD Been really long since I play competitive hope I don't go off-form :) Go red bottles LOVE LOVE you all :)
Meeting tml + training with red bottles HAHAHA.
Time to move on :) Thank you.
xjxj.
Sunday, June 14, 2009, 10:01 AM
That's where she lies,broken inside. 3:30 AM
Hmm I'm feeling kinda stressed now.Just finished maths tuition and it's both good and bad.My tutor has started to teach in like a super fast pace in integration because O levels is approaching and I'm feeling the tension already. He keeps asking "very easy right" , "you should be able to do this" but the problem is in my mind I'm still there yet not there.My mind is proccessing too slow tht I can't answer his question.Sometimes I keep asking him questions and I can sense tht he's really frustrated by me because no matter how he explains I still dont understand.I dont have the basic common sense.He said this to me just now,"isn't this common sense?You have to be more logical." I nearly teared on the spot.I dont dare to ask questions anymore.He's really a good teacher I know.But I'm just not up to his standards somehow. On a brighter note,I finally understood part of integration and kinematics. I'm feeling kinda ___ now. Somehow.I guess I have to work even harder.
Now I have to finish up my chinese.
xjxj.
Saturday, June 13, 2009, 3:43 AM
Stop thinking whatever you're thinking.Sometimes your thinking might be wrong you know.Was reading through my Jan09 and Feb09 archives and memories came flowing back again.The drives intensity determination and every single thing. They're awesome.I'm missing competitive games,trainings when everyone shared a common goal and everything.It made me more determined to join netball again in JC.I used to hesitate but I realised netball is no longer a commitment to me,it's became part of my life.I'm missing it so much ):
I know I must learn to put all these down.It's my O's this year and yes I can't afford to screw it up.Like what Andrea has said yesterday,you study so much just for 1 major exam.It's like the most imp exam in your education life.But even so,memories stay :) I'll survive with them.SO,lesser netball for me after school reopens.Yup.
Love my netball team!!:)
Intended to run at 6.30pm but the weather didn't allow.It was gloomy and my mommy didn't allow cause she's afraid there'd be a thunderstorm.Quite sad because I didn't plan a route or something,I intended to run to where my legs carry me to. Plus I needed a break from all those work(Physics,chem,chinese).My mind's like trapped in a room it needs to breathe.
Tonight will be chinese(I haven't touch it and we need t finish by mon) and physics.After that I'll be planning a study schedule so it can help me manage my time better :)
xjxj.
12:09 AM
Sometimes I do hate myself for being over-paranoid and sensitive.I don't know.I don't really care about how other not-so-close friends think of me because they can think what they want,while I'm still me. But what my close friends think of me do matter.I do care about how they feel or what they think.To the extent that I get really sensitive and paranoid.It's really bad though ):I'm also an extremist.I get extremely extreme all the times :( But I can't control.I can remain as cool as ever on one hand but on the other,I really kick up a big fuss over minor or miscallenous stuffs.
I'm not those kind of people who will bare their hearts out to their friends,not even trusted friends.It's ironic,since I trust them yet I don't share with them how I feel.I dont know what's with me.I just don't like to trouble my friends at all.I can go to school feeling miserable yet force out laughters.I used to have someone whom I trusted and tell him/her everything,almost.But yeah,used to have.
So,who am I?
Friday, June 12, 2009, 11:55 PM
Boils down to this conclusion that everything's nothing afterall.I've decided to reopen my blog already!!:) HAHA.Deleted my posts posted during tht period.It's only 1 post,nothing secretive but it's already like my habit to delete it so yeah :)
Anyway,I'm really excited about the street netball competition :) We're at a disadvantage though since we didn't have any guys in our team but I guess what Nadia said it's true,winning is only a bonus hahaha. Hopefully I wouldn't have any phobia landing because of my stupid ankle already.Jiayou everyone!!
Anyway,got back my amaths test.I'm super careless!!): I know I can definitely do much more better than that so I must JIAYOU.
Holiday lessons have ended and I've got to be more disciplined since there's like no more school.Adam khoo workshop was okay the last part was really like woah.Andrea described the scene so intensely that I could almost feel that I'm there o.0 It feels good overall!:)
After that played street netball.I haven't touch it for dam long it feels weird but after like 10minutes it felt the same,awesome still :) Played frisbee in between and yeah I totally lost the touch ):
I got to start work today!Tomorrow I've got to ask my tutor to teach me kinematics!I'm still working on integration,feels like I'm re-doing the whole chapter but it feels good cause I totally forgot how to do haha.
My chemistry really sucks ): I did 2 sets of MCQs yesterday and I pass miserably :/ Physics is okay I kinda enjoy doing the MCQs though I still screwed up my mock paper.I counted already and the max I can get is like 42 ):
On a brighter note,I bought a new phone and I love it! :)
I really really hope my left ankle can heal completely.I know it's almost impossible but it's bugging me ): It's giving me phobias and affecting me physically in sports. I know I cannot afford another ankle sprain so when I play netball I became extra careful.That shouldnt be the way manxz.I dont wanna go "Sorry I have to stop playing because my ankle is pain" on court.Never!!): Love you ankleee :( Recover plz.
xjxj.
Monday, June 8, 2009, 7:11 AM
I HATE YOU I REALLY DO :'(BUT I SWEAR I'LL GET OUT OF THIS SHIT SOON. I SWEAR!!
4:33 AM
I just feel like locking blog yeah.But ask and you'll get invited.Amaths test was okay.Coordinate geometry was bad though!I know I said it super many times and yes I kinda behaved like an irritating bitch after the test i know i know BUT seriously I'm super wtf because I did the same question in the tb and I remember when I did that question I also kept thinking how to solve for A coordinate after like 10minutes then I realised we can solve the M first. I still laughed to myself and today the same question come out again and I did the same thing again this time w/o realising though AHHH kill me plz.Plus,tht's like 9 marks.A lot right.I keep telling myself nvm nvm since it's a mock but deep inside I dont know why I cannot nvm humph ACCEPTANCE.
I can't believe I rant for 1 paragraph about this stupid amaths question.
I'm kind of sad now.Yesterday my mommy told me she feel heart pain for me when she see me study like every night till quite late I swear I was super happy.Even when my friends/whoever tell me that I only feel glad that they cared.But wht she feels really matters.Be it a word or a sentence I still cherish.But today I just had to quarrel with her over stupid things.Yes real stupid things.I know there's still this conflict and knot between us.Seems like wht happened once is going to happen again.It really sucks to be the youngest child.Cause mummys always dote on the middle/oldest child for some reason.The youngest' always get dote by the daddy.
And I know there's more to come.I just dont know when another storm will start again.Later?Tomorrow morning? I hope I'd be strong enough to handle it. Maybe I shall just stop argueing back.
Okay I'm going to study social studies I guess.Haven't been touching Chemistry though.
xjxj.
Sunday, June 7, 2009, 9:44 AM
BOO!Hahaha.It's late already.It's going to 1am nowww! I just finished amaths revision!Hope I haven't missed out revising anything since I've lost the sheet of paper ):
Anw I just wanted to update randomly!:) Y' know wht! I FINALLY GAVE MY YELLOW CAREBEAR A BATH :D Like it's dam dirty and just now I finally took it out and washed it yay I love it:) HAHA.
My ankle was feeling better already so I tried to jump at home just now zmg I swear the moment I jump I really feel like playing netball and frisbee hahaha. I'm like imagining myself throwing the ball across the court and stuff ZMG.But since my ankle's fine(I think) I shall start my jogging again to get like really toned legs and not fat very fat super fat ones.
Oh btw my phone's officially dead.I mean like really dead.Last time still can see half the screen,but now it's really :/ hahaha. I can't even on the phone now.I'm getting a new phone soon! :) So yeah,peeps can't really contact me already.But again it is good it is good.Cause I've been messaging TOO much.I'm super distracted by it cause I always message when I do work.Maybe it's the right time to stop for the moment.I seem to be addicted to messaging regardless of who hahaha.
Oh tuition was AWESOME. I luv my tutor.He's really.. intelligent and strategic. hahaha :)
xjxj.
Saturday, June 6, 2009, 10:39 PM
YOU COULD HAVE BEEN MORE MATURED.I dont really care about you anymore.
Tuition today!Amaths mock tomorrow ALL THE BEST TO ME :)
xjxj.
4:38 AM
Hello!:)Woke up like really late today hahah.Short post today. I updated my profile section ok and it's like REALLY long! HAHA. Anw people my phone's like going crazy 3/4 of the screen can't be seen thts' like so pathetic okay! I need to get a new phone soooooooon boo!
Yay things are so FINEEE I love it!
Off to study!
xjxj.
Friday, June 5, 2009, 9:40 AM
Hello people :) I've decided to re-open this blog.Which means I've really put some things down.And yes,I'll never look back again:)I posted a lot of stuffs during the lock-blog-period.I didn't invite anyone. It was really a totally-to-myself blog.I posted some stuffs that I'm not supposed to,some words I never had the courage to say,some confessions and reflections.But since I've decided t reopen,what should not be here is no longer here.So yeah!:)
Anw,let's look back.
1)Sprained my ankle.
Yes it's really dam bad :( I sprained my left ankle on 29thMay.Why do I remember so clearly?Because it's just a day before my frisbee competition!!(Btw thanks t the bball coach for helping us print the shirt like so fast!!) I was going for fastbreaks and tadah my usual netball turn-in-the-air-and-catch-the-frisbee happen again :( I landed on my left ankle and ouch it really hurts.But it's quite fun jumping around y' know!!:) My left ankle will heal,but I know it wont heal completely ): It's better now though.
2)Frisbee competition.
I didn't play!): Was a little sad because I was all up to play and stuff.): But I knew my ankle wasn't like in the best condition to play and yeah I shouldn't jeopardise the team so yeah ): Group B didn't get into the semis but Group A did! They got 3rd in the end and yes I'm dam proud of everyone woohoooo :) I think everyone fought hardddd yay luv they all x10000.
3)Physics and Chemistry SPA.
Physics was a total screwed up.I can kiss my A for physics away ): Chemistry was OKAY though :) We did it before so it's still kinda manageable.But still,careless mistakes ALWAYS happen!:(
4)Lessons in the holidays
We had lessons in the holidays it's like totally normal school day except it's 8am-1pm OMG I can die because it's like 3 hours of maths or something but revision was funnn :) Hahaha. I had 3 day mac breakfast straight I think I'm going to die sooooooon! I finally tried sausage muffin WITHHHH egg.Like first time in life.W/o the york though hahaha. Lessons were fine.I was able to concentrate but totally knocked out after that.Almost everyday at 1pm rush home to SLEEEEP :)
5)DREAM OASIS :)
Met up with Amanda at 5pm+ and we had pastamania.I dont know why but I felt dam sickkkk ): Went t get sweet talk and then flowers at causeway!Lot one's floral shop too many people already! Whee.The whole thing was awesome the performers have put in a lot of effort in it clap-clap.Some audience just have to learn to be better audience though.-sulks- Overall it's still enjoyable! Well done t everyone! Heh took lots of photos.ESPECIALLY NETBIES+2A'07+MISS LIM!:) Something terrible happened @ the end when I was going home shiverssssz !
Okiex!That pretty much sums up everything.Of course there's more but some just have to stay in my heart beh:)
This weekend is work time.Amaths is coming up and yes I have to buck up on my Physics and Chemistry like totally.So yup,no frisbee and netball for now I guess...Until 20June that is for the netball competiton whee:D
Can't believe one week of holidays have already passed.I have to cherish it and revise moreeee gogogo I can do it!!
xjxj.
People used to say time will heal everything.I used to think that it's rubbish but today I'm proven wrong.I've chose to walk on.And once I choose to do that,I'll never look back.I swear.