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Jocelyn Yeoh Shu YiKranji Secondary School
30June1993
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Saturday, February 28, 2009, 8:10 AM
I just read Melissa's blog.And yes I'm affected by it.Have I really done my very best for that match ? If so why did I feel a tad guilty now? What's the definition of doing your best ? Was I still not mentally strong enough?
I was not focused.
I was not determined enough.
I was affected.
I had 2 steppings,or maybe 3.
I missed a near shot and many far ones.
I didn't try to get free in the goal circle.
I didn't see where I was going.
My throws were crap.
I tapped away a ball,but I didn't save it.
I didn't work hard enough.
I could hear Yuting and Melissa outside the goal circle urging me to put in my shots.I could hear people outside cheering for us. I could hear them.I really could.But why.
I know very clearly.No matter how guilty or upset or remorseful I am now,it's not gonna change any fact.But why am I feeling so...
Every single scene is replaying again.
But I thought I was fine.