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Jocelyn Yeoh Shu YiKranji Secondary School
30June1993
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Sunday, June 29, 2008, 2:01 AM
It's another Sunday night,
Sometimes I'm rly afraid of myself.I'm like a super crazy and hyper girl at school,laughing at almost everything,almost at every single moment.You'll never fail to see me laughing.But at home I'm a total different person.I cry as and when I like.When I watch the tv,when I do my homework,when I chat online.I can console someone while I myself is crying hard.
I can act hyper in a MSN conversation while I'm aching inside.
I can hold someone's hand or give a pat on their shoulder telling them it's okay when I'm falling hard.
I can tell someone to let go of certain stuffs when I myself know it's me who insisted to cling on.
It's sucha big contrast and I can't accept the difference.Because all along I thought,no,I'm not like that.I'm not supposed to be sad or even crying.I'm supposed to be free and carefree.I'm supposed to bring smiles to people.
Many times I told myself to stop all these stupid crying shit but once I start I couldn't stop. And the scary thing is I dont know why the hell I'm crying.I dont know why the tears come.
What's with me?I really don't know.Sometimes I rly don't understand myself.Or should I say,I dont understand the tears.
I never liked to say this sentence but for once,I feel really helpless.