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Jocelyn Yeoh Shu YiKranji Secondary School
30June1993
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008, 4:07 AM
I am feeling very happy, (:Because these two days I've been leading my life very meaningfully.The past 1week2days(yes I'll never forget) I've been living in horror and disgust.But my health is back to square one now.And I thank god for that :D Through this illness it really made me treasure my health even more.Especially when I'm an athlete!Can't afford to be sick anymore.
Thursday:D
To tell you something very stupid,I was very excited for the day because it would be the first time I'm gonna touch netball officially after so many days (8 I couldn't sleep the previous night y' know!:P Hahah,anyway,the day started with physics.Damn,it was 2 periods but I dont know why MrKoh's lesson always past so fast! o.0 He calls me A2 student now,which is crap because my physics sucks.There's one incident super dumb!I wanted to ask him a question,so I raised my hands and said"MrKohhh!" So he came over and then took my paper.
This one wrong,not in 3 sigfig,minus 1.
-flips to next page-
Cannot put fraction!Minus 1.
-__________-
Then he walks away chuckling to himself . Haha.
Stupid! Cause he knows I like it whenever he praises me,so he purposely like that luh.Wthhh in the end he didn't even answer my question?! LOLLLLL:D Enjoy his lesson lots :D
SH next,it was really boring.Sigh.But there's this interesting part,where Yongkian/Melissa fought!Okay,I gotta admit in the process I didnt really care if they've gotten injuries or what I was like at there " OMGGGG DONT SCRATCH THE CAMERAAAA" Super no atmosphere?Then Yongkian was like " I SPRAINED MY BACK I SPRAINED MY BACK I SPRAINED MY BACKKKKK!" (in chinese) Damn it was super funny o.0 Then Melissa super boyish?!?!No image at alllllll!! Keep fighting like some ahmazxz.HAHA,in the end she realised it was merely a staring-into-space-melissa picture,nothing of CLOSE UP. =.= They're like titanic hugging each other that time?!?! I shall not elaborate,nad reads my blog k.HAHA.
Recess time,literally rushed down because I'm super hungry.But on the way kept laughing bout the yk-melissa incident.I didnt go crazy though :P
Maths lesson,I really wanted to fall asleep.I felt very drowsy and stuff,kind of guilty.But I still managed to complete my work in th end.
English,went through some composition stuff.Chemistry,MrShasi didn't come in,slept throughout till the last 5 minutes where I realised netball's gonna start in one hour so I woke up!:D Feeling excited and stuff,headed to toilet to change and went down to court(:
Had roti prata,barely finished half of it ): Then....NETBALL TRAINING STARTEDDD(:
We were to run around the lines of netball court for 3 minutes.Luckily,it wasn't very tiring.Did ball handlings and stuff.And then the split drill.The weather was dreading and was scorching hot please.Furthermore,we gotta do push ups whenever someone drops the ball.The concrete ground was practically expanding.It wasn't tough doing push ups,it was just tough doing push ups on the burning ground.My palms are super painful now.
Even though it was really hot,I know it cause I can feel it.But somehow I didnt really felt that intense heat because I'm like telling myself to enjoy enjoy and enjoy.In the end it was alright,it felt fabulous going back on court again,really.
Court game next,played GA.Frankly speaking I was totally not confident when I gotten the bib.My courtplay sucked,big time.): ): Timing is totally off,and I dont know what I'm doing on court.Terribly disappointed.Played GD next.
OMG.GD Y' KNOW.GD=GOAL DEFENDER.
GOAL DEFENDER=TALL PEOPLE.
Just kidding,she wanted to try out Ginny for attacking so she put me as defender.HAHAA,but it was a nice experience overall!At least manage to intercept one ball okay!:D Hahah(: Helped to clear the empty bottles juniors left after training.Super many please.Grr,gotta remind them next training.
Oh yeah,coach called us aside to talk to us bout holidays training and being in the team and stuff.Really made me reflect a lot yeah.But my confidence just plunge down totally.Realised there's simply too many things for me to catch up.
And yeah,I felt really touched attending training and stuff.Yeah,you might find me insane and stupid saying I'm actually touched attending training. But yeah,that's the word.I just feel very lucky to be able to train on court,train my footwork and stuff.I really enjoy every single moment of the training no matter how hot it is.The intense heat is melting all of us -- I know that but I really enjoyed training under the hot sun.Trainings relish my trueself,and they really made me more disciplined.In the past I wouldn't even care if my fringe were covering my face but before training,clipping my fringe up has became an automatic thingaye for me to do. I felt as if I'm soaring when I play netball.That feeling,is simply so indescribable.(?)
But there again,coach's words made me reflect into a deeper region.Have I been too used to being the main players that I've taken netball trainings for granted?Would I still be as passionate towards netball if I were to be reserves or not being even in the main team? Would I still look forward to trainings if I'm just a recreational player?These questions never failed to cross my mind the past few days.Then I start to doubt my passion again.Maybe I've taken the fact that I'm in team the past few years for granted and I only realise it till now. In JCs/Polys,things can complicated,and passion won't solve everything.Would passion push you forward when you're hit right down again and again?Do I truly hold the real passion for netball?I tell myself,I'm passionate towards netball,because I do work hard for them.But the problem is,I myself is unsure and uncertain if I would still come attend trainings with the same belief and attitude if I'm not a team player.For that,I hate myself.For being so uncertain of my own passion.But sometimes in life,it's like that.When people are driven to corners,they can no longer find themselves and their passion.In other words,they've lost their trueself.I dont know why I have this stupid thinking all of the sudden when things are going right for me but.... I just feel very insecure yeah.And coach's right.She's simply being realistic and practical.If you're a GA and can't shoot,you're out.If you're a C and loses all centre passes,you're out.
Hmm,I dont know why I'll blog bout this all of a sudden but now I only have one goal on hand,and that's to work hard and improve.That's my goal for now (8
Headed home with Melissa,Yuting,Ginny and Bjorn.Went insane.
Friday
Had english period but Miss Ratna didn't come.So slacked bout yeap.SH lessons were dreadful.I almost slept. It was really boring.PE WAS FUN :D Played volleyball,super super fun!Too bad gotta go halfway for SSC duty ):
Took BPPS for duty (: They're quite cute actually!Let them tour around the school (8 Had lunch in the canteen and I dropped a lot of rice,one fishball,one chicken wing wthhhh?! Now they say my mouth has got holes ):
Headed to hall for the celebration AND I GOT ON STAGE TO HELP THE PRIMARY SCHOOL KIDS WITH THE DUMPLINGGGG:D IT WAS SOOOOO FUN :D :D Although we didn't win in th end lah :P It was my first time okehhh:D After that slacked bout in the hall,then went to booths.YAYYYY I'VE MADE LIKE FOUR DUMPINGS?!?!?!?! (EDIBLE OKAY) Hahahahah!:D
Went to SSC meeting and discussed stuff which I dont think is suitable to disclose here.Anyway,CAN'T WAIT FOR SSC SELECTION CAMP :D I WANNA TREK YO:D Headed to canteen and played cards!:D It was fun fun fun but I got tired a while so slept.
Played frisbee awhile after that.The weather was rly good (8 Somehow just enjoyed the feeling on court :D It was a very nice game overall :D Went home with ting after that .
2.4km tomorrow,very excited cause it's been a long time since I've ran.Hope to hit 11minutes(: But one thing for sure,I'll persevere:D Netball training tomorrow,can't wait!:D
xjxj.