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Jocelyn Yeoh Shu YiKranji Secondary School
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Monday, March 17, 2008, 6:33 AM
I'm currently in a horrible mood now ):Chemistry
46/80
Passed with 6 marks.I dont know why,I wouldn't say I've worked very hard for it but I dare say I did work hard for it okay. Perhaps I've worked hard too late.Kinda disappointed though.And it really sucks when all your friends around you are of genius kind.
Physics
46/70
I'm quite contented with this because I didn't do all refractive index questions.So it's alright?And partly because the paper is relatively easy.
E.maths
28/50
Expected.
A.maths
27/40
Sucks.
SS/History
What can I say.I'm really disappointed.I did work very hard for it okay. I did study like 3 days before and I even made the effort to do 4 essays before that okay.And then it have to turn out like that.Can't say I'm not satisfied but I'm kind of disappointed though.Or maybe very.
At first when I got back my results I wouldn't deny I'm not sad,but I got over it after a while . But I'm fking sad now.Like people blogging bout their results,and then it's like they're damn bloody good and my results are damn bloody bad . It's not that I want to compare,but I can't help myself. Like amaths,my parents spent 500$ for tuition every month and then my results are lower than those who didn't even have tuition.I know it's childish to say that because they really did work hard.But tuition is an additional help yet..Amaths,did I not work hard for it? For other subjects like Chemistry I wouldn't argue cause I know I studied too late.But Amaths,I've been doing every single question in every single exercise in textbooks and five years series. And it's been all-the-while thing.I didn't chiong th exercise last minute,I did amaths like everyday.I knew I want it,but maybe I just couldn't get it.I wouldn't deny that I feel really inferior to others because they're really smart.It's not as though I'm those kind who's mind working like a genius in maths and science,I need to work hard to get the results I know that.But others just have to be so clever.And it just sets me to wonder if I'm really working not hard enough.
Its not that I'm sensitive or what.But,__________________.
And getting home is so good yah. I headed home and told my mom my results.I know in her mind she's thinking "wtf i spent so much money on bloody tuition and you're producing this kind of results"
Did I not want good results?Have I not worked hard enough?Or did you even see how late I've stayed up to complete every single question?Oh no,you were sleeping.Or probably too busy with Sister.
SocialStudies/History. I'm speechless bout my results but I know this is the first time we're taking a paper so I'm willing to try doubly hard the next time.
I know I've said it many times.But in sec 1 and 2 I always get 1st/2nd because my FNN,DNT,Art etc are all A1s , thats why it pulls up my total marks.I'm nothing in fact.Totally stupid in secondary 3 . I can't make it for my sciences and maths.But I'll work harder.So please please stop saying its impossible for me to get bad results and give me the diao face.All it did was to make me feel more horrible,and maybe more terrible. And people shouldn't have rant about how their marks suck when some others out there are worser than yours.Social awareness yes?
Sorry for ranting.I know I can always do better the next time since this is like only CA1 but I'm feeling really disappointed/horrible now.
After all these rantings I stand up tall and strong again.Cause i know all i have to do now is to get my facts right and find out what's wrong.Don't worry I'm a strong girl !(: ):
Spare those " eh your results actually very good already","my results are worser!" all these stuff.Cause you know and I know, it doesn't work at all .
Netball training tomorrow,I'm gonna run my feelings out.
p/s:I know I shouldnt be typing all these out but sorry I'm feeling damn horrible.