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Jocelyn Yeoh Shu YiKranji Secondary School
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Saturday, October 27, 2007, 11:44 PM
Read if you want,if you're lazy to read those chinese words , i suggest you'ld shut your mouth up & get lost ---现在果然和往日不同,再也不是孤单和寂寞,而是幸福和快乐;盼望的不是失望,而是非笔墨所能形容的欢乐.
记得以前老得催促以长大成人的儿女带孙子们到我家吃顿简单的饭.不必是什么美味佳肴,一顿简单的饭就已足够了.可是,要他们走一趟如登山一样难,怎么再三的苦求也不会答应.说也奇怪,妈妈想和自己的儿女吃顿饭,也得用上"求"这个字吗? 什么都做尽了,无论是车马费由我来付,还是为了那顿饭得一拐一拐地走到巴刹买最新鲜的材料煮饭,我都做尽了.怎么他们都看不见我的付出,我的努力,我的盼望呢?
现在,一切有了三百六十度的转折.每天一到傍晚六点半,就能看到所谓的"儿孙满堂" 聚集在我家,大家一起吃饭,一起聊天说地的.这种感觉,不禁让我觉得好幸福,真的好幸福.但想想看,怎么会有如此的转变呢? 别管了,只要一家人能好好地吃顿饭,一切就别管了.
这种期盼多年的日子真的好幸福.日盼夜盼,终于盼到了这一天.一个能看到一个美满的家庭的一天,一个能听到孙子们笑声的一天,一个让我认为这几年的辛苦总算没白费的一天.尽管孙女们和我有代沟,能看见他们,就是一种幸福.一种从未感受到的幸福.
就这样,每天觉得自己为儿孙煮饭,日子过得异常充实.能听儿女说说在社会上工作的压力,心里觉得好窝心.最重要的,能和他们同一屋檐下,就感到特别开心...
手指动了动,眼睛眨了眨.张开了似乎闭着很久的眼睛,庆幸看见的不是四面墙,庆幸看见的还是一家人在我面前.感到庆幸却有些失望,听到的并不是一直以来有的笑声,而是一直以来都不想听到的吵闹声.想必自己应该躺了好久,因为听起东西来好不清楚.不知是真的听不清楚,还是想欺骗自己而故意听不见.除了看见难得聚在一起的一家人,还看到一个穿着西装和打着领带的斯文先生.听到了是一些十分熟悉的数字,应该是在前个礼拜时到银行查户口所听到的数字吧.那名先生,应该是律师.他们正讨论的,应该是遗产.而那一顿顿我们一起吃过的饭,应该是梦.我,明了.
一切都搞清楚了.那些我们"一家人"吃的饭,"一家人"有的笑声,都是因我期盼太久的关系,老天爷才好心地让我享受那么短暂的快乐.原来由始至终,一切都不是事实,而是一种渴望.多可笑的渴望.
累了,真的累了.起初以为能和一家人吃饭,"累" 算什么? 可是,从梦中醒了后,我真的太累了. 真的不想知道我这些年的付出不算什么,对他们而言,我的存在是一种负担,一种死后有价值的负担.我睡了,临睡时,不是希望睡能带走我的烦恼,而是希望睡,能让我多梦一次.
梦,真的比现实更美好,美好太多了..
Hellohello!:D just a story to share with you all.This story is about this granny which lacks of love.Her children and grandchildren don't visit her at all . She misses them a lot and hope to see their return someday. Then one day they really come back.They talked,they laughed,they chatted,and most importantly , they finally ate a dinner together.That's what the granny hope.In th end,the granny realise everything was nothing but a dream . She woke up in a hospital and realised it was a dream she dreamt while she's in a coma . In the end she died.Before she died,what she hoped was not that the death would bring her troubles away,but that the death will bring her another dream,to get back th feeling of warmth from family again . yup .
this story really make me wanna cherish my family lahhh!like grow up don't abandon them! i'll definitely go back to them and eat together , how could i not when I LOVE MY MUMMY'S SOUP so much!(like what've misslim said) :D bye.