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Jocelyn Yeoh Shu YiKranji Secondary School
30June1993
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Friday, August 3, 2007, 7:05 PM
Brother's flying off to TaiWan @ 1pm.He wanna enjoy himself before he serves for th nation . HAHA . But it's like a trivial matter.Like he just leave th house without no one sending him off or something.Kind of pathetic.Hmm,I was shitting just now when I thought of th relationships with my family members.My mother.Hmm,I guess she's th one whom I talk th most with .And it's not a lot actually.I remember when I'm still a wawa baby,I always cling on to her and no one else.I would cry if I was being carried by anyone else even my daddy.She had to carry me here and there,even when she's cooking.Along my learning journey,I've never talked to her bout my problems,my studies.That's bad enough for primary school.When I reached secondary school,all we talk is some random topics and sometimes,we just don't talk @ all.But even without all these mother-and-daughter conversations,Mummy has never failed to be th one opening th door for me,urging to have a good bath,nagging bout my studies and stuff.The thing I like bout her is that she never really force me to quit netball despite me telling her how tired I was. Because she knows I'll never live without netball.Mummy's been fulfiling a duty as a mother because she always cooks as many times as she could and never stop worrying for me.Even though her words are rather harsh,her actions have clearly proven she's super soft hearted.I'll never forget our special way of goodnight kisses when I'm young.We cover our faces with 2 hands then kiss th 2 hands,then kiss both cheeks,and then th forehead.We take turns.I remember I won't sleep until she gave me . The smell of th facial foam from her faces and those warm hugs..I love her!<3
My daddy.Hmm,I know that he used to loathe me a lot because when I was a baby I often cry in his hands.Maybe he thinks that I'm his daughter but why still cry in his hands?Weird huh. In primary school & stuff,I was rather close to him and we often play here & there.But as I'm getting older,we don't communicate already.We can don't talk like 3 days in a row? It's just a "daddy" calling when he's back.That's all.We can't think of what to talk @ all.There's one time I really tried,we went for a 20minutes walk and yet th whole journey was silent,total silence.Kind of pathetic.He showers me with love by giving me money.Money?What a joke.I never like them.But he loves me a lot because everytime I said I'm going out,he's always asking me if I had enough money.Perhaps he's been loving all these while,I was very rude to him at times.But as strange as it is ,I'll regret th actions/words I've done/said to him after a few minutes.So many times I wanted to repay his love but I've failed to do so.Everytime he cares bout my health,everytime he ask me not to push too hard during my netball runs,I feel happy.At lease he cares.I love daddy!<3
My sister.When we're small,we used to argue everything under th sun.We would vie for anything each other wants.We would quarrel over th slightest thing.We bitch fight on bed and kick each other.I don't know why , but I somehow miss those times.Now,we communicate less than 1 sentence a day.It seemed like a sin to me? When I see her,I just take a look and just carry on with my work.We wouldn't talk/share secrets like how other sisters do.So many times I want to have a heart-felt talk with her but I just failed to do so.Because she's a kind of sister whom will laugh/joke about me when I told her my secrets.But even so,I must admit she's a fun sister.We'll mock at people we see @ times and our relationship is just indescibable.Because she's a kind of sister only I can have I guess.I wouldn't deny I would jealous at a particular person when I see her walk along with her siblings talking.I love her even though I don't seem to show it.<3
My brother.The kid who always bully me when I'm young.The kid who taught me th vulgarities and caused me to eat chillies as a form of punishment from my mommy -.= To me,we never really communicate.It's like when I'm sleeping,he's @ work,when he's sleeping,I'm in school.We never had a chance to and we wouldn't cherish th chance I guess.Every time we communicate,it's of a request or something.But through lil actions,he somehow still seemed like a brother to me.For example,when I'm going out and don't have enough cash,I asked him and he said he don't have any extra cash.But everytime I go out,I'll see notes at th table near th door.Everytime he brought sweets home,he would somehow indirectly offer me some.Everytime I have somethin to print,he'll woke up @ 5am to help me.Time flies,really.A while ago he's th secondary guy and now,he's a 19 years guy who is goin to serve th nation too.Ahh,I wanna look @ his botak head ! <3
Somehow,I realised I ain't very close to my family members.To me,it's just a hi and bye thing except for some really close gatherings.I don't even remember how old they are,very pathetic indeed.But somehow I would indirectly care/love them,because of who they are.And I dare to say,they make up me.